http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying starting over, almost 40, 320 lbs, the heaviest I've ever been Tue, 20 Sep 2011 14:02:06 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en ok, maybe this sounds crazy, but for the last week I have been easing back into the healthier eating lifestyle like it was a hot bath.  One toe in........ ok maybe now the other toe (etc) this weekend I replaced the scale.  It was a good motivator for me when it ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/09/20/getting-back-on-track/ I've been gone about a month and I got off track.  It was hot, I was hurt, it happens.  By I like that metaphor that if you're walking somewhere important and you realize that you've gone the wrong way for awhile do you say "well, that's it, guess I better ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/09/12/ok-no-recriminations/ I don't know what happened - I was trying to listen to my body, I was so hungry that I just kept eating and eating.  I would eat a portion and then wait to see if I felt full - but I still felt hungry!  It was the weirdest binge ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/07/i-binged-im-discouraged/ My body is fighting the weight loss.  I am achey and tired and hungry all the time.  I'm retaining water and I don't want to exercise and I'm very cranky - I guess that means I'm doing something right. sorry for all the mini posts, I'm just trying to do something ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/06/my-body-is-fighting-me/ I know its not my official WI yet, but I hopped on the scale for a mid week peek and it is showing the same number as Sunday ... and it made me feel a little discouraged.  I know that it may yet pick up before Sunday - it is ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/06/feeling-discouraged/ I just ache all over.  My hips hurt so much I had to get out of bed before the alarm went off because I could not lay on them anymore.  My knees hurt, my legs hurt, my back hurts.  I can't remember being this sore for awhile and I don't ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/06/really-sore-this-morning/ I guess I was feeling overwhelmed, to many things on my plate - to many changes. I took a nap and I feel a little better. http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/05/i-guess-i-needed-a-nap/ I am SO tired of getting up and pushing myself to exercise!  I am sick of it! sick of it!  I am tired of being sweaty, of stinking!  I am tired of my knee popping in and out and my back and butt hurting!  I am tired of hills seeming ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/05/tantrum-i-dont-want-to-exercise-anymore/ post holiday weekend malaise I guess.  Just not feeling like exercising.  I think I also feel overwhelmed.  I have all these things staring me in the face that need to get done.  Housework, DD exercise plan, my exercise plan, preparing for school in the fall, money troubles.  sigh.  I get ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/05/not-feeling-motivated-to-day-gotta-push-through/ Since this is where I go to post feelings so I don't bottle them up and then eat myself silly, I'm gonna try talking about this again. I am afraid.  I am afraid this is all a trick and that I'm not really losing weight and that I'm not gonna lose ... http://www.3fatchicks.com/diet-blogs/lostbutstilltrying/2011/07/04/weird-fear-of-successfailure/