starting over, almost 40, 320 lbs, the heaviest I’ve ever been
ok, maybe this sounds crazy, but for the last week I have been easing back into the healthier eating lifestyle like it was a hot bath. One toe in…….. ok maybe now the other toe (etc)
this weekend I replaced the scale. It was a good motivator for me when it wasn’t making me nuts. The [...]
Posted on September 20th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I’ve been gone about a month and I got off track. It was hot, I was hurt, it happens. By I like that metaphor that if you’re walking somewhere important and you realize that you’ve gone the wrong way for awhile do you say “well, that’s it, guess I better go home, to heck with [...]
Posted on September 12th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I don’t know what happened - I was trying to listen to my body, I was so hungry that I just kept eating and eating. I would eat a portion and then wait to see if I felt full - but I still felt hungry! It was the weirdest binge I ever had. I ate [...]
Posted on July 7th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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My body is fighting the weight loss. I am achey and tired and hungry all the time. I’m retaining water and I don’t want to exercise and I’m very cranky - I guess that means I’m doing something right.
sorry for all the mini posts, I’m just trying to do something constructive instead of eat.
Posted on July 6th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I know its not my official WI yet, but I hopped on the scale for a mid week peek and it is showing the same number as Sunday … and it made me feel a little discouraged. I know that it may yet pick up before Sunday - it is only Wednesday after all, but [...]
Posted on July 6th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I just ache all over. My hips hurt so much I had to get out of bed before the alarm went off because I could not lay on them anymore. My knees hurt, my legs hurt, my back hurts. I can’t remember being this sore for awhile and I don’t understand. I only did a [...]
Posted on July 6th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I guess I was feeling overwhelmed, to many things on my plate - to many changes.
I took a nap and I feel a little better.
Posted on July 5th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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I am SO tired of getting up and pushing myself to exercise! I am sick of it! sick of it! I am tired of being sweaty, of stinking! I am tired of my knee popping in and out and my back and butt hurting! I am tired of hills seeming like mountains and people looking [...]
Posted on July 5th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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post holiday weekend malaise I guess. Just not feeling like exercising. I think I also feel overwhelmed. I have all these things staring me in the face that need to get done. Housework, DD exercise plan, my exercise plan, preparing for school in the fall, money troubles. sigh. I get to anxious thinking about the [...]
Posted on July 5th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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Since this is where I go to post feelings so I don’t bottle them up and then eat myself silly, I’m gonna try talking about this again.
I am afraid. I am afraid this is all a trick and that I’m not really losing weight and that I’m not gonna lose anymore because I haven’t been [...]
Posted on July 4th, 2011 by lostbutstilltrying
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