Okay, if you’ve followed my blog long enough, you know about my anxiety. If you haven’t followed long enough, just click the “anxiety” tag in the category box.
So, for future reference, had a mild anxiety attack last night and the sensations leading up to one this evening. According to mycycle.com, I am supposed to start my period by saturday.
that is all
J
****EDITED***** no wonder I was confused as to why the time was flying - today was Wednesday as I thought it was - it’s only Tuesday! HAHAHAH!!!! OOPS******
Saturday - done
Sunday - check
Monday - complete
Tuesday - yep
Wednesday - in progress….
It doesn’t feel like it’s been 5 days since my re-start, I think that’s a good thing though.
I know that I’m doing WW, however I have yet to keep up with any points. At the moment I am at my parents house (where I will be til Christmas) and I left my point calculator at home. Luckily, I have an idea as to how much I can have of what foods at each meal, so we’ll see how weigh-in goes on Saturday morning. Oddly enough, I haven’t even weighed myself this week other than on Saturday. At one point, I had been weighing myself every single day - glad that I’m not doing that (for the moment). I am supposed to start my period around Friday or Saturday this week - so that’s a great time for a first weigh-in…haha!
I just wanted to update my blog, it makes me feel more accountable that way.
J
Well, here I am. December 6, 2008. The re-start day of my weight loss journey. There is good news and bad news today.
The bad news is that I am back up to 197.6 pounds! That is nearly 10 pounds more than my lowest weight on this journey. The good news? I’m not back to 200 pounds (which was one of my concerns).
So, how do I plan to lose the weight? Same as always - Weight Watchers! I love that program and it has always worked.
So, it’s time for me to take a deep breath - and get on with it already!!!!!!!
Ready…………
Set………..
GO!!!!!!!!!
Here it is, the day after Thanksgiving. I feel…. b-l-o-a-t-e-d! I’ve already had my first round of leftovers. I’ll be glad when we get home as we always tend to eat poorly when we’re on the road. This is our last road date of the year. I have no clue what my re-start weight will be and I’m nervous to see the scale. I’m wondering if I am back up over 200 pounds (especially after Thanksgiving!). But at least I know I’m goint to start doing something about it. *whew*
That’s really all I have to write about. I haven’t even felt hungry since yesterday - but I have piled in food anyway. Why? Because it tastes so good! I know, lousy lousy excuse!
Until later,
J
I haven’t weighed myself to see what my re-start date is. I know I’m not back over 200 pounds. My lowest weight on record for this journey was 188.6 and that was back in August. My weight right now is probably around 195. 7 pound gain from my lowest. It’s really disheartening but I’m glad if it’s not over 200 pounds.
My husband and I have been going back and forth on the having another baby discussion for a few months now. We are both in agreement that we want more kids and there’s no time like the present. We have decided that when we have more, unless the first try comes out in twins, we want to have 2 back to back like we did with our first two. Jacob and Kylie are so close and such great little buddies. They defend each other and play so well with each other that to throw a third one into the mix might cause a little bit of friction - so we’ll have two more back to back and hope it goes as well as it did the first go round. We love kids and I know the one single reason we’ve waited so long between them is because of the weight. Kylie (our youngest) will be 3 in February and I didn’t want to wait so long to add a third one in there. My goal is to be safely in the 160’s before we start trying for #3. I’m setting the baby-making goal at 164. 30 pounds (give or take depending on what I weigh now). It’s frustrating to me to know that had I kept up with everything at the pace I was going at, I’d already be at that goal. Oh well, live and learn. At least I didn’t plop myself back up to 262 pounds! OYE! I’m already much healthier than I was when I got pregnant with Jacob. When we got pregnant with him, I weighed 232 pounds. So I’m at least 37-40 pounds less than that right now. That in itself is so awesome to me!
So, after Thanksgiving I will be back on this journey again and striving so hard to get to baby-making goodness. I would like so start trying in April or May of 2009. So I’ll have Dec, Jan, Feb, and March (possibly some of April) to lose 30 pounds. I CAN do it, I CAN do it, I CAN do it!!!!! 
So, there is the update! YAY! See you after Thanksgiving!
J
I love how my post below this one was from AUGUST and I promised in that one that I would be doing an update in the next couple of days…. and update that apparently never happened. Oops! Well. I’m back - sort of. I’m off of the weight loss train though I haven’t gained back all my weight. However, I’m waiting until after Thanksgiving to get going on it again.
Hubby and I have decided that we want more kids. In order to do that, I want to be in the 160’s. So, after Thanksgiving, I will be going full force! I have not forgotten 3FC or all the ladies on there and I look forward to getting back on there and getting the job done!
J
I have not abandoned my blog… we have been out of town for the past week doing a wedding in Atlanta (oh, and we did engagement photos too). So, part of the time we were gone we were without any access to the internet. The other times we were at FedEx Kinkos to check mail, but since we were charged per minute to do that, we kept it to the bare minimum of checking business related stuff. So, I will have an update to add on here later today or tomorrow….
For my own record…. I’m going to start keeping up with anxiety symptoms again… today is 2 days before my “expected ovulation” and I just got the big old weird wavy sensation in my head again.
Wow, I thought the scale was supposed to go the other way!? Well, it’s not suprising to me though. Ever since I got back from my moms my eating has been HORRENDOUS! (I don’t even know how to spell that word - but it doesn’t matter).
I think a lot of it is my…….
WARNING - INFO. CONCERNING MY BOWELS AHEAD……..
It’s my bowel movements. I think it’s stress coupled with the lack of fresh veggies and fruits that causes my bm’s to be……. of a rabbit pellet consistency. I’m lucky to go every 2-3 days. At my mothers house - I was having one a day and they were as normal pooh should be! The very day I got back here…. voila - rabbit pellets!! hooray! I haven’t been to workout in over a MONTH! and I have yet to buy any fresh veggies or fruit.
Monday I am going to meet one of my best friends at the gym (she works there now…yay!) and we are going to set up a workout schedule so that we can workout together. I do SO much better when I have someone to workout with. So, Monday is kind of a re-start day for me, I guess. It’s just really time to get this fat ass in gear and do it already!!!!! I was doing SO well…. and then - blah!
So, This coming week it is my goal to get into the fruits and veggies (and other healthy foods), keep track of my points (oh yeah, I’m on WW again, I should be tracking what I eat…..duh!) and get back into the gym.
At least I’m still blogging….right?
In other news, I watched Michael Phelps go into World History tonight. That was SUCH an inspiration to watch! I cried like a baby when I saw his mother tearing up. How proud she must be! Heck, I’m proud of him and I don’t even know him! GO USA!
Today was weigh in day. I gained .06 pounds. I’m not at all mad or concerned and in fact I find myself relieved. I am JUST getting over TOM today… and typically with TOM I can post a 2-3 pound gain - so to have only gained .06 pounds?…. not worried in the least bit. I didn’t meet my … “be 188 by 08/08/08 - but I did that last weigh-in. No problem.
So, onward for the next weigh-in!! My goal for that one is 186…..
