Yo-yo no more

Yep. A gain. a 1.6 pound gain. Wow. However, I am supposed to start my period today. But, I can’t - I just CAN’T … CAN NOT get back over 200 pounds.  I worked so freaking hard to get under 200 pounds.  I have to stop myself from this impending collision that I’m on.  I’m going to to back and re-read my blog, just to draw some form of inspiration.  I just feel like I don’t care what I eat anymore.  I’m not careful about what I eat.  If there are cupcakes around - of course I eat one, or two, or three and some extra icing.  Why? Because it tastes good and it feeeeeels good to eat it.  I’ve been depressed lately - but it’s because of my weight gain.  So in turn, I eat more.  Great plan, huh?

Well, the gain is what it is this week.  Next week there HAS to be a loss.  I can’t see 200 on that scale!!! 

J

Well, here I am.  December 6, 2008.  The re-start day of my weight loss journey.  There is good news and bad news today. 

The bad news is that I am back up to 197.6 pounds!  That is nearly 10 pounds more than my lowest weight on this journey.  The good news?  I’m not back to 200 pounds (which was one of my concerns).

So, how do I plan to lose the weight? Same as always - Weight Watchers! I love that program and it has always worked.

So, it’s time for me to take a deep breath - and get on with it already!!!!!!!

Ready…………

Set………..

GO!!!!!!!!!

Wow, I thought the scale was supposed to go the other way!? Well, it’s not suprising to me though.  Ever since I got back from my moms my eating has been HORRENDOUS! (I don’t even know how to spell that word - but it doesn’t matter).

I think a lot of it is my…….

WARNING - INFO. CONCERNING MY BOWELS AHEAD……..

It’s my bowel movements.  I think it’s stress coupled with the lack of fresh veggies and fruits that causes my bm’s to be……. of a rabbit pellet consistency.  I’m lucky to go every 2-3 days.  At my mothers house - I was having one a day and they were as normal pooh should be!  The very day I got back here…. voila - rabbit pellets!!  hooray!  I haven’t been to workout in over a MONTH! and I have yet to buy any fresh veggies or fruit.

Monday I am going to meet one of my best friends at the gym (she works there now…yay!) and we are going to set up a workout schedule so that we can workout together.  I do SO much better when I have someone to workout with.  So, Monday is kind of a re-start day for me, I guess.  It’s just really time to get this fat ass in gear and do it already!!!!!  I was doing SO well…. and then - blah!

So, This coming week it is my goal to get into the fruits and veggies (and other healthy foods), keep track of my points (oh yeah, I’m on WW again, I should be tracking what I eat…..duh!) and get back into the gym. 

At least I’m still blogging….right?

In other news, I watched Michael Phelps go into World History tonight. That was SUCH an inspiration to watch!  I cried like a baby when I saw his mother tearing up.  How proud she must be!  Heck, I’m proud of him and I don’t even know him!  GO USA! 

Today was weigh in day.  I gained .06 pounds.  I’m not at all mad or concerned and in fact I find myself relieved.  I am JUST getting over TOM today… and typically with TOM I can post a 2-3 pound gain - so to have only gained .06 pounds?…. not worried in the least bit.  I didn’t meet my … “be 188 by 08/08/08 - but I did that last weigh-in.  No problem.

So, onward for the next weigh-in!!  My goal for that one is 186…..

Today was my first “weigh in” on Weight Watchers. Granted, I’ve only been back on Weight Watchers for 3 days - but I want Friday to be my Weigh-in days. That means I’ve lost 1.2 pounds since I started WW. Yes, I know all about water weight. But, a loss on the scale is still a loss on the scale!!!

I edited my “Weights” chart to include new mini-goals. It’s all current. YAY!!! I also made note of my highest weight. In 2005, I weighed 252 pounds. I have lost 64 pounds!!! I’m just astonished. amazed. EXCITED!!! My first real mini-goal is to weigh 169 for a friends wedding that I will be in in October. That will just be un-real for me. I already met my goal for next weeks weigh-in. My goal was to weigh 188 on 08-08-08 (get it… all 8’s). But I did that this week! YAY!!!! I don’t mind that at all!

MY 28th BIRTHDAY (Feb.4) GOAL:

Well, today starts a new TBL Weight Loss Challenge on 3FC.  I am the PROUD Black Team leader!  So, it’s time to buckle down and get busy!  My goal for the challenge (which ends on April 7, I believe) is 170!  With Jessie helping me, I don’t know why I can’t reach that goal!  I’m still trucking along and loving it.  I think this week may post a gain…. I’ve changed my eating (still on WW, but eating differently) and with the up in working out (and the pace we’re working out….. and having someone pushing me when I would normally give out) - I think my body may go into WTF mode again.  But, we’ll see.  Weigh-in’s for me will be on Friday mornings.  My weight this past Friday morning was 195.8.

Ready….. set….. GO!

And GO BLACK TEAM!!!!!

Thanksgiving Goal:

Ultimate Goal:

Yes… as you can see… I actually MET my Thanksgiving Goal!!!!!!!!!! AND I’m officially in ONEderland!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!  I actually weighed in on Thanksgiving Day so that I could enjoy my day without knowing I had a weigh-in looming the following day.  So, I have only 4 days left to try to undo any damage I did on Thanksgiving so that I don’t have to post a nasty, ugly gain this week.  But for now - I need to start planning the “Under 200 Party!”

Thanksgiving Goal:

Ultimate Goal:

Yes, this past week - after being stuck at 206 all week, I woke up to a nice 203 on the scale for a 2 pound loss!!!!!  I am shocked!  I’ve been stuck at 206 since Halloween (except I did go down to 205 for the day before and day of my last weigh-in).  I think I know what happened…

 *TMI WARNING* This next paragraph discusses bowel movements.

I hadn’t had a poo for the last 4 or 5 days.  I knew there was something there … but nothing was happenin’.  So I jumped on the Metamucil train a couple of days ago - and before I weighed in this morning, the train left the station at a high rate of speed! So, I think that that accounts for the 3 pounds I literally dropped over the course of a day. But, I’ll take it!!! I am 4 pounds from being 199 (a number I haven’t seen for 10 years!!!).  I told my husband he has to kick my butt for this entire next week.  I want to WILL be under 200 for Thanksgiving weekend!!!!! 

P.S. I’ve updated my Progress Pictures.

Wow, it’s been a while since I last updated my blog.  My apologies for that! Well, I didn’t make my Halloween Goal :-(  TOM just about got me this past time around. I feel like I ate everything in sight!  I jumped up to 209 a couple days before Halloween.  Luckily though, I was back down to 205 for my weigh-in on Friday, so I was still able to post a 1 pound loss.  I’m disappointed in myself for not doing better.  I mean, I’m not back at 235, so that’s good.  I also have passed into the 30 pounds lost mark.  So, that is exciting!

My next mini-goal is for Thanksgiving.  I want to be under 200!!!  I NEED to be under 200!!  I have so much work to do to make my New Year’s goal, and I REALLY want to make it.  So, I have to kick it into high gear, that’s for sure.  I’m thinking of taking my hubby up on the getting up at 6AM to go for our walks.  It’s too dark by the time he gets home at night. So, mornings will be our only times. 

On a side note, how is everyone liking all the spam comments?? I signed in today and had 26 of the suckers!  Yay!

I didn’t get creative and make tickers for this weigh-in.  I do apologize, but I doubt you miss them anyway!

 Halloween Goal:

Ultimate Goal: 

Yes….. this week, I LOST 2 POUNDS!!!! For everything that’s been going on this last week, on top of not doing a single ounce of exercise for the past 2 weeks, I was VERY excited to see 206 on the scale this morning.  Also, as you’ll notice, the ultimate goal has changed again.  Hubby and I are in the process of discussing future kiddos.  The when to have them, will more kids be right for us, etc.  So, until we decided definitely to have more children, my goal is at 145.  When I reach 145, I will reassess my goals, see if I’m happy where I’m at, etc.  Then decide from there if I want to lose more or not.

Today is also measurement day - but I packed away the tape measure..lol.  So, I’ll have to wait til we get where we’re going to measure myself (should be in the next day or two).  For now, however, I am SO pleased!  Only 3 pounds from my Halloween goal.  It will definitely take work, but I’m all about going for it.  TOM is supposed to be here in 1 week.  That means I will have the full on bloat on Halloween.  So, the weigh-in may be delayed until TOM gets here (that’s how it was for Labor Day too…UGH)