Yo-yo no more

To say it’s been a while is quite the understatement!  Wow.  Over a year!  And what a year it has been! In the past year I have moved to Florida, helped my BFF through her husband leaving, birth of her first child, and her divorce, had my husband leave me, moved to Missouri with my parents, started my own business, leaned on my BFF who went through exactly what I was going through in my marriage only the year before and now and readying myself for my own divorce.  WHEW!

Needless to say I haven’t kept up with exercise and diet like I should have for the past year.  My lowest weight on record since I started the battle with losing weight was 188.6 (that was over a year ago).  I managed to creep back up to 206 pounds.  (highest weight on record was 262, highest weight with pictures was 235).  During the course of my husband wanting out of the marriage I dropped a good 15 pounds over a month and a half period.  I don’t recommend this as a weight loss method! So, that brought me to 189.  I have since gone through all 5 or 7 or 12…however many stages of grief that they say there are.  Finally I have come to rest at acceptance.  What a great, peaceful place to be.  My weight has stayed constantly and consistently between 193-195.  So now that I am in a better place mentally & emotionally it’s time to tackle the weight and get back on the train!

My BFF has inspired me to get back to it.  She has started her own weight loss blog & there’s no time like when you have someone doing it with you to lose the weight.  We both LOVE Kettlebells so it’ll be great to have someone to swap exercises with!

My weigh in days are going to be Friday’s.  So today I have weighed in, measured myself, took pictures and am ready to get started!

Weight today: 190.8

My measurements show that I have gained 2″ in my stomach and 2″ in my hips since the last time I measured. But a loss of an inch in my chest (WHAT?!? lol).  No loss/no gain in my thighs, calves or arms.

The pictures, I’m going to attach those with my other pictures and get those posted asap. I’m happy to say that there’s not that HUGE of a difference in those.

It’s also on my list to update my “weights page” with new weights and goals and also my “reasons for staying OP” page as the hubby is no longer in the picture.

WHEW!

Get ready ya’ll…Lady J is back and ready to kick some ass!

Well, I didn’t start the New Year on quite the note that I wanted to, but it’s gotten better.  When I got home from all of the Christmas food debauchery, I stepped on the scale and weighed in at 203.4 pounds - I believe at one point I got up to 205.  The good news in all this?  Seeing 200 on the scales again kicked me in the butt and it hurt! 

So, for the past week, I have sworn off bread and refined sugars.  Granted, there is still traces of that stuff in the oatmeal that I have for breakfast - but for my lunches and dinner I have been rockin’ out on all protein and veggies.  And the results of my newfound determination?  The scales clocked me at 198.8 this morning! YAY!!!!!  So - I will ride this wave of determination as far as it will take me and hope that it takes me far!  (I even turned down the graham crackers and chocolate/marshmallows that my hubby brought to me last night - I didn’t even think about it… just plain ole “uh, no”).  I’m hoping that I can stay excited about this.  For the moment I’m not even feeling any sort of craving for those things - not even (gasp) chocolate!  I’ve found that I enjoy having a smidge of Peanut butter and a few craisins in my morning oatmeal (yes, the craisins have sugar in them…I am aware, but I don’t have a whole heck of a lot of them either).

So, there’s an update.  We have been SOOO busy lately.  So, I haven’t gone again and left my blog by the wayside - we just have been busy!  I even missed (once again) the deadline of having my initial weigh-in in at the Biggest Loser challenge.  

I’m off to now update my WW@ home ladies!

OHHHHHHH before I forget - the best part of this past weeks eating (other than the weight loss part) is that my past 2 bowel movements have contained no pellet like consistency…. it’s actual, real poo - as poo is supposed to be!!! YAY!!!!  It’s been nearly 3 months since I’ve had one of those! Woohoo!

J

Okay, so I’m tired of having those rabbit pellit like poo’s.  So, last night I took a dose of Castor oil.  Now, I’ve only had to take Castor oil 2 other times in my life- and both times, the Castor oil worked like a charm within 12 hours.  Today, when I went to poo…… pellets again.  So, I’ll take it again tonight and be sure to drink TONS of water (which I didn’t do last night or throughout the day today). Castor oil works kind of like a buffer betwee your intestines and the water that they normally absorb.  So, all the liquid would instead go into your poo helping to soften it up and come on out….(this is awesome, huh? lol).  So, I drank a half a cup of coffee and one glass of water between the time I took it last night and the time I pooed.  So…tonight - 1) take the castor oil 2) water, water, water 3) pray for a good, smooth, relieving movement tomorrow…..

It’s awesome when you can write an entire post about poop. That’s how I know I’m aging…hahahaha!

J

It is winter.  This means no going outside to walk or run or exercise.  I find that I am just….in the midst of the winter blah’s.  I’d rather spend my time eating.  I get so bored being inside (even with having kids) that I want to cure the boredom by eating.  My ways of trying to avoid that are: come here and blog, go over to 3FC and browse the mini-goal albums (or the WW@home forum or TBL forums), chew gum (this one is a HUGE help for me).  I just…want to get up and MOVE again though!  Earlier this year I started doing kettlebells.  Those suckers changed my entire body!!!  Now that I’m not doing them anymore I feel like my body is back to being all jello-ish and just….ugly! Maybe Santa can get me some kettlebells for Christmas! haha!

Anyway - just venting! YAY!

J

I was browsing the 3FC Mini-goal photo albums this evening and I wondered where would I be had I kept up with it as strict as I was with it last year? I would probably already be at goal. It’s depressing.

However, looking thru the mini-goal albums is always a source of inspiration for me, so I’m really feeling disgusted with myself and extremely motivated to get going again. This is a good thing!! I think that starting on Saturday I will set up my first mini-goal (it’ll be a New Years goal). I find when I set mini-goals - I tend to achieve them! So, I’ll need to see what I’m starting with on Saturday and I’ll go from there! yee haw!

Stay tuned!
J

Indeed.

So, I just read thru my entire blog. I am b-u-m-m-e-d! All the excitement with losing 2 pounds in a week. I haven’t felt that in a while! I have to keep up with this blog. I’ve noticed that the more open and honest I am about what I’m feeling, what I’m eating, about exercise - the better I do. So, get ready to see a lot more from me. YAY!

J

****EDITED***** no wonder I was confused as to why the time was flying - today was Wednesday as I thought it was - it’s only Tuesday! HAHAHAH!!!! OOPS******

Saturday - done
Sunday - check
Monday - complete
Tuesday - yep
Wednesday  - in progress….

It doesn’t feel like it’s been 5 days since my re-start, I think that’s a good thing though.

I know that I’m doing WW, however I have yet to keep up with any points.  At the moment I am at my parents house (where I will be til Christmas) and I left my point calculator at home.  Luckily, I have an idea as to how much I can have of what foods at each meal, so we’ll see how weigh-in goes on Saturday morning.  Oddly enough, I haven’t even weighed myself this week other than on Saturday.  At one point, I had been weighing myself every single day - glad that I’m not doing that (for the moment).  I am supposed to start my period around Friday or Saturday this week - so that’s a great time for a first weigh-in…haha!

I just wanted to update my blog, it makes me feel more accountable that way.

J

Here it is, the day after Thanksgiving.  I feel…. b-l-o-a-t-e-d!  I’ve already had my first round of leftovers.  I’ll be glad when we get home as we always tend to eat poorly when we’re on the road.  This is our last road date of the year. I have no clue what my re-start weight will be and I’m nervous to see the scale.  I’m wondering if I am back up over 200 pounds (especially after Thanksgiving!). But at least I know I’m goint to start doing something about it. *whew*

That’s really all I have to write about.  I haven’t even felt hungry since yesterday - but I have piled in food anyway.  Why? Because it tastes so good! I know, lousy lousy excuse!

Until later,

J

I haven’t weighed myself to see what my re-start date is.  I know I’m not back over 200 pounds.  My lowest weight on record for this journey was 188.6 and that was back in August.  My weight right now is probably around 195.  7 pound gain from my lowest.  It’s really disheartening but I’m glad if it’s not over 200 pounds.  

My husband and I have been going back and forth on the having another baby discussion for a few months now.  We are both in agreement that we want more kids and there’s no time like the present.  We have decided that when we have more, unless the first try comes out in twins, we want to have 2 back to back like we did with our first two.  Jacob and Kylie are so close and such great little buddies.  They defend each other and play so well with each other that to throw a third one into the mix might cause a little bit of friction - so we’ll have two more back to back and hope it goes as well as it did the first go round.  We love kids and I know the one single reason we’ve waited so long between them is because of the weight.  Kylie (our youngest) will be 3 in February and I didn’t want to wait so long to add a third one in there.  My goal is to be safely in the 160’s before we start trying for #3.  I’m setting the baby-making goal at 164.  30 pounds (give or take depending on what I weigh now).  It’s frustrating to me to know that had I kept up with everything at the pace I was going at, I’d already be at that goal.  Oh well, live and learn.  At least I didn’t plop myself back up to 262 pounds! OYE! I’m already much healthier than I was when I got pregnant with Jacob.  When we got pregnant with him, I weighed 232 pounds.  So I’m at least 37-40 pounds less than that right now.  That in itself is so awesome to me!

So, after Thanksgiving I will be back on this journey again and striving so hard to get to baby-making goodness.  I would like so start trying in April or May of 2009.  So I’ll have Dec, Jan, Feb, and March (possibly some of April) to lose 30 pounds.  I CAN do it, I CAN do it, I CAN do it!!!!!

So, there is the update! YAY!  See you after Thanksgiving!

J

I have not abandoned my blog… we have been out of town for the past week doing a wedding in Atlanta (oh, and we did engagement photos too).  So, part of the time we were gone we were without any access to the internet.  The other times we were at FedEx Kinkos to check mail, but since we were charged per minute to do that, we kept it to the bare minimum of checking business related stuff.  So, I will have an update to add on here later today or tomorrow….