TOM is on his way… October 2, 2007
Well, I got a nifty spiffy e-mail reminder today that TOM should be here in one week from yesterday. Yippee. I can already tell he’s on his way. I have been SO grumpy today and just in a “blah” mood. Felt like crying all day long. So glad that tonight is The Biggest Loser and DH said he’d take the kids out so I can have the house to myself.
I hate PMS and I hate TOM. I turn into a very moody, very VERY sensitive person. I hate it. I tend to concentrate on everything that’s going wrong in my life when TOM is around as opposed to everything that’s going right. It sucks. Every little thing that anyone does sets me off and makes me frustrated. I’m embarassed about the way I act and how easily I get angered when TOM is around, but it’s like I can’t control it. OYE!
It’s supposed to storm tonight. I hope it does. I like storms.
As for my day with exercises and food, doing well. I have points saved out to have a slice of WW Peanut Butter pie and a coffee while I watch TBL. I know it sounds pathetic to eat while watching TBL… but, I’m not stuffing my face with pizza, pops, chips, dip, etc. Just a simple piece of pie and coffee. It will make me feel better (maybe…lol) And no, I’m not using food as a “pick-me-up” that was a joke. My snack for tonight has already been documented in my WW journal. Points have already been alotted for it.
I feel like I need a vacation. But of course, we don’t have money for a vacation. We do good enough to pay our main bills each month. DH losing his job in January has set us back by about 5 years. We had so many things go into collections, we had to take a loan out on our van, and now he’s found a job that will barely allow us to eek by every month. We have collectors calling us every single day. So, why on earth would I even have the slightest hope that we could take a vacation? I don’t want my kids to have to grow up like I did…. constantly having to go without, not getting to take vacations, having to put clothes in lay-a-way in hopes that mom and dad could eventually pay it out before we outgrew the clothes.
DH and I are both SO creative. We’ve taken up photography 
and would love to do that for a living. All kinds of photography - weddings, portraits, travel, etc. If you’d like to see some of our pictures, you can go here http://mynetimages.com/album/Birdsongphotography/ I’ve loved taking pictures since I was a kid, and DH is the same. We just recently realized we should start our own business. We don’t know the first thing about starting our own business though. So, I’ve signed up to get an Associates degree in Business so I can learn. So, I know someday we’ll be out of the nasty quicksand pit we’re in. It’s just hard to go through it.
Wow.. I guess I needed to vent. I didn’t intend this blog to be this long. So glad this thing is here though. That’s for sure!
I know it must be tough- perhaps taking little day trips that don’t cost a lot- to a local lake or other scenic area. Or maybe try camping? I’ve heard that isn’t super expensive, though I am SO not an outdoorsy type of girl. Kids remember the fun they had and the time they spent with you, not necessarily the place itself. My parents took me to Disney like 4 or 5 times as a kid, and do I remember any of it? NO! But I do remember the beach, and the picnics, and silly things like that.