Yo-yo no more

That’s how I typically feel when TOM is around. I’m fine one minute - and then one little small, tiny, thing happens and I either feel like punching a wall - or like bawling my head off….. or both! I had an episode of that last night, I don’t even remember what started it…..

Good news is…….. I cheated and stepped on the scale this morning……… I AM IN THE TWO-TEENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So, once TOM Bloat dies down, I may have very well made my Labor Day mini goal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (no, I’m not excited one bit….teehee) I don’t even know how long it’s been since I’ve seen the two-teens!!  I was 232 when we got pregnant with our son in 2004!!!!  At first, when I saw the number, I got aggrivated, thinking the scale was broken - because I’m used to seeing two 2’s in a row….. not a 2 then a 1 then another number!!!!

Okay, today I start for my Halloween Goals!!!  Here are my new exercise and walking goals to be completed by Oct. 31, 2007 (new weight goal coming Friday)

 Exercise:  2,100 Minutes
 Walking :  115 Miles

These are very much attainable seeing how as I walked nearly 50 miles in 20 days! Just gives me something to push for!

Tomorrow I start on my new goals for Halloween (they will be revealed when my weight loss mini goal ticker is revealed - when I weigh in Thursday or Friday).  However, today is the final day for my walking & exercise goals for Labor Day.  I am happy to report that since August 15, I have:

Walked : 47.5 Miles (more than double my goal of 21)
Exercised:  921 minutes (again, it was almost double my goal of 480)

I am really proud of myself for this, and I can’t wait to set my new goals!! Even if I don’t meet my goal of 215 by Friday, I am so happy that I went above and beyond my other goals!

Lady J

When I get under 200 pounds.  I’m thinking of throwing a “Farewell Party” to the 200 pound mark… this idea just hit me as I was reading my last blog about it being 10 years since I was under 200 pounds.  So, I think I’ll make a cake (low fat, low cal of course… and use some of my extra WW points so I can eat a piece) and I’ll invite all my friends over - and we’ll have a “Going away and better never damn return” party for the 200 mark…. I think at that time, I’ll reveal to my friends how much my starting weight was (235….. my highest was 262 the night I went into the hospital to have my youngest daughter).  None of my friends know how much I weigh, they know I’m trying to lose weight.  I just told my own mother how much I weigh - she has the same reaction as everyone else “you’re kidding!!  you carry your weight very well, I would have never guessed you weigh that much” …. THANK YOU GOD FOR MAKING ME TALL!) 

 So, at that party, I’ll reveal how much I started at, and that I’m under 200 pounds and that it’s been 10 years since I’ve been under 200 pounds….. yeah, that sounds like a great idea for me! Yay, I now have something to plan!  I plan on being under 200 by Halloween…. so I can have it the first part of November…. yeah, that sounds good.  In case you can’t tell, I’m practically going nutso over here just thinking about this….lol

I’ll keep you all updated on the party though - I’ll tag every blog that has to do with it with an “under 200 party” tag.

Lady J

I look at my kids sometimes and just cry.  They are by far the most beautiful creatures, I just get filled with so much joy that they are mine…. and it’s in those times that I’m most motivated to get my fat ass in gear and get rid of this weight that I’ve been adding on to my frame for the past 27 years!  I can’t imagine dying young and leaving my kids while they are so young!  It drives me nuts sometimes that I can’t lose weight any faster.  And, it drives me nuts that, though for the most part, I’m eating pretty well - there’s still a thread of the fat-loving, sugar-craving Julie that’s hanging on for dear life. I compare that Julie to an obese sumo wrestler type…and the new “healthy” Julie, I compare to a twig…. so the twig runs from the sumo wrestler when the sumo comes along…. We don’t typically keep junk food in the house anymore.  We do still have our game nights, where we allow ourselves to splurge - but I think I’m going to cut out the food from our game nights all together.  I think it does more harm than good.  I have, however, tried to make more WW Point Friendly stuff the last couple of game nights. 

I can tell that TOM is getting closer.  Everyday I get a little more sensitive and a little more cranky and a little more hungry!!!!  It’s been a daily struggle to keep OP the past couple of days, because I feel like grazing all day long.  And, I typically don’t have that much of a problem with it.  I just want to step on the scale and see this lard-carrying body be under 220 pounds!!!!  I fluctuate between 221 and 225 and I just can’t seem to BUDGE.  I walk freaking 6 miles a day (not just strolling….. we walk to the beat of “Sexy Back”) - and I do weight training stuff… I’m sticking to my WW points perfectly - and I have yet to see the fruits of my labors…. I lost 3 pounds the last time I weighed in (a couple of weeks ago) - and I haven’t weighed in this week due to knowing that TOM is around… but, I have stepped on the scale and I’m not happy with what I see.  I hoping it’s just “the bloat” - because I could really use a pick me up, like seeing 219 on the scale.  I can’t even remember the last time I was at 219.  I know I weighed 195 when I was 17 (10 freaking years ago).  I told my husband I will probably cry when I get down to 195, knowing that it’s been 10 years since I’ve seen that number, and even then 195 is considered obese!!!! OYE! SO, here’s praying that once TOM gets started, the bloat will go away and I will be in the two-teens!!!!!!!!!!!

For now, I’m gonna get off of here… thank God there is no double fudge chocolate brownies around here to drown my sorrow in….

Lady J