Yo-yo no more

Hello everyone! I’ve had a fairly decent day. I started feeling like another anxiety attack was coming on today - but it never got full blown! (Thank you God!). I’ve noticed that my anxiety attacks coincide with either my ovulation or my PMS days. So, I’m starting to think it’s all hormonal. Maybe through my blog, I can get a better idea of when it happens. I know that according to the site that I keep a record of my periods and PMS on (there’s a link in my link section) - I was supposed to have ovulated around the 22nd - which my bad anxiety attack happened on the 21st! Silly hormones! I’m going to start making a note of when I have anxiety attacks/ symptoms - and then see if there’s any link between the ovulation and PMS (both of which involve a change in hormones).

I’ve done great with my points the last few days! It makes me so proud that I’m learning about portion control. I don’t ever feel hungry anymore - yet I’m eating less than I used to! Having to measure my food has really opened my eyes to how I was living/eating the past 20 some-odd years! I want to make sure that my kids grow up learning how to eat right (and learn that they can have treats and not have to be deprived as long as they learn about moderation!). I never learned that, and in fact - I think I probably learned to rely on eating as a comfort from my mother. I don’t *blame* her for my obesity at all, but if you were to look at my moms side of the family, you’d see that she and a 3 out of 4 of her sisters are obese, and that the ones that are obese all eat either out of boredom or out of comfort. And, seeing how as depression runs (no…GALLOPS) in my moms family - they did a lot of eating through their depressions! So, I’m determined to break that cycle so that my 2 and 1 year olds don’t pick it up. I want to break the cycle of emotional eating and of depression in my family!!!

Lastly - for those of you who believe in the power of prayer and in the power of God Almighty - please pray for my husband and myself on Monday. I can’t really write much about it now - but I will certainly write about it after it’s all over. On Monday, we have a HUGE court date coming up. This is the HUGE stress-laden fiasco that’s been going on since January. It has caused us SO much undue stress and emotional problems… and it could all end Monday. So, please believe with me in prayer that God will work on our behalf on Monday.

Okay - it’s 1:30 in the morning, and I need to get some sleep!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent, yet again! This is so much cheaper than therapy… haha!

Until next time

Lady J