Yo-yo no more

Another new quote, courtesy of MarinePrincess:

“I can’t lose 100 pounds, but I can lose 10 pounds 10 times”

I love it!!!!! It makes weight loss seem a heck of a lot easier!

I passed my exercise goal last night!!!  So, I’ll just keep adding to those totals until Labor Day - and then it’s time to start my Halloween Goals!!!  I already have them written out.  I’m not sure why I get so excited about setting mini-goals.  I think that it’s the fact that it means that setting a new mini-goal means that I’ve accomplished one mini goal.  I like having little attainable goals that are within reach and I like seeing the ticker move down too! So, I’ve met my Labor Day walking and exercise goals!  My mini-goal for my weight is still…………. there. 

We walked with Kyle & Marisa again last night.  So, I walked a total of 6 miles yesterday!  I have the blisters to prove it.  So - I’ve got to do something about my shoes.  I get blisters on the bottom of the tip of my pinky toe, and in between my big toe and the toe next to it.  I wore 2 pair of socks last night and filled my socks with Corn Starch to help with the moisture……. I’m not sure what else to do and I’m really getting into this whole walking 6-7 miles a day thing!

Anyway - OH!!!!  I have applied to go back to college in the Spring!!  My husband and I have both applied.  This is HUGE!!!  We’ll be able to do everything online through a state university here in town. I am SO excited!!!  I’ve got this overwhelming urge to learn again!!! 

Anyway - I’m off of here for now, we have pictures to edit!!

The Lady

Pre-PMS is in full swing with bloating and cravings galore!!  I have the desire to graze, to keep eating all day long!  At the moment, I could go for a bag of potato chips.  So, I’m in here, writing a blog to get my mind off of it!!!

I walked 7 miles yesterday!!!! 7 MILES!!!!  I did my normal 3 miles on the treadmill.  Then, Kyle & Marisa called and they’re wanting to start losing weight for their wedding next year and asked if we wanted to go walking with them.  So, the 4 of us walked 4 miles! I can’t even believe I walked that much.  That’s just nuts!!!  So, I only had 1 mile to go to complete my Labor Day walking goal (which I walked 2 miles today! - so I’m a mile over! whoohoo!!!).  I got on the scale today and it’s still reading about 6 pounds more than my weigh-in last week. I know that will all the walking and watching of my points that I’ve done, there’s no way I gained 6 pounds!!  So, I’ll just patiently wait until TOM gets here.  *sigh*.

My dear sweet wonderful Florida Gators start their football season this Saturday!! WHOOHOO!!!  I have loved them since 1996 and follow them closely!  So, You’ll probably hear a lot of talking about them. 

Okay - I’m off to go play a game or something….I must not eat, I must not eat, I must not eat…….

Lady J

Okay, I weight myself yesterday, and the day before that, etc….because I like to kind of have an idea of where I’m at.  I was on track to weigh-in today, but I stepped on the scale this morning and it was up 5 pounds!!!! I stepped on it again, same reading.  Now, I know that I can’t put on 5 pounds overnight (literally) - and I know, also, that I am due to start my period in the next 5 days or so - so I’m thinking that this is PMS Bloat!  So, in order to not make myself discouraged by having to post a ticker with a weight that I know isn’t true, I am going to postpone all weigh-ins for the next week to week and a half until TOM gets here.    I also noticed that my ring isn’t as easy to get off this morning….another tell-tell sign of water retention.

So, I’ll still be blogging until I weigh in again - I just wanted to post a reason for not weighing in today.

Julie

Last night, we had another game night with Kyle & Marisa (we typically have these every week).  I had saved up all of my extra points all week just for last night!  I had 35 points to work with - but I did well, only consuming 23 of those!  I was proud of myself when I woke up this morning.  I planned out what I wanted before I dished up my plate - so I knew exactly what I could eat.  So, with those extra points that I had, Marisa and I went to a Bridal Show in Tulsa today (she’s getting married to Kyle Oct. 2008), and they had chocolate fountains and wedding cake vendors! :D  So….. I had a couple chocolate covered marichino cherries and a sample of red velvet wedding cake.  We had a BLAST at the Bridal Show though.  I’m a Bridesmaid in her wedding, but since her Maid Of Honor lives over 7 hours away - I told her I’ll be her “Fill In Maid” and do Maid of Honor things with her….. so, I have a goal date to be down to my goal weight (or close to it).  Hopefully it’ll happen before her wedding!

 That’s it for now -

Tomorrow is weigh-in day!!! *yikes*

Hello everyone! I’ve had a fairly decent day. I started feeling like another anxiety attack was coming on today - but it never got full blown! (Thank you God!). I’ve noticed that my anxiety attacks coincide with either my ovulation or my PMS days. So, I’m starting to think it’s all hormonal. Maybe through my blog, I can get a better idea of when it happens. I know that according to the site that I keep a record of my periods and PMS on (there’s a link in my link section) - I was supposed to have ovulated around the 22nd - which my bad anxiety attack happened on the 21st! Silly hormones! I’m going to start making a note of when I have anxiety attacks/ symptoms - and then see if there’s any link between the ovulation and PMS (both of which involve a change in hormones).

I’ve done great with my points the last few days! It makes me so proud that I’m learning about portion control. I don’t ever feel hungry anymore - yet I’m eating less than I used to! Having to measure my food has really opened my eyes to how I was living/eating the past 20 some-odd years! I want to make sure that my kids grow up learning how to eat right (and learn that they can have treats and not have to be deprived as long as they learn about moderation!). I never learned that, and in fact - I think I probably learned to rely on eating as a comfort from my mother. I don’t *blame* her for my obesity at all, but if you were to look at my moms side of the family, you’d see that she and a 3 out of 4 of her sisters are obese, and that the ones that are obese all eat either out of boredom or out of comfort. And, seeing how as depression runs (no…GALLOPS) in my moms family - they did a lot of eating through their depressions! So, I’m determined to break that cycle so that my 2 and 1 year olds don’t pick it up. I want to break the cycle of emotional eating and of depression in my family!!!

Lastly - for those of you who believe in the power of prayer and in the power of God Almighty - please pray for my husband and myself on Monday. I can’t really write much about it now - but I will certainly write about it after it’s all over. On Monday, we have a HUGE court date coming up. This is the HUGE stress-laden fiasco that’s been going on since January. It has caused us SO much undue stress and emotional problems… and it could all end Monday. So, please believe with me in prayer that God will work on our behalf on Monday.

Okay - it’s 1:30 in the morning, and I need to get some sleep!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent, yet again! This is so much cheaper than therapy… haha!

Until next time

Lady J

Just an update to yesterdays blog.  Today, I woke up and didn’t feel like I had the weight of an elephant on my chest.  Hopefully today will be a better day than yesterday (it already started out better).  We are out of town at the moment house sitting for my parents while they are on vacation.  It’s nice to get away - but I miss home already.  We have a lot of extremely stressful things happening in our lives right now.  It could all be over on Monday - we’re praying that it will all be over on Monday!  This thing has been the most stress I’ve ever felt in my life and it’s been going on since January!!!!!!!!  So, to have it off of our shoulders, well, we wouldn’t know how to feel   But I look forward to feeling that way.

Anyway - I just wanted to update everyone.

Lady J

Around July of last year (2006) , I started having anxiety attacks. My doctors figured that it all originally started with having Post-Partum depression after my daughter was born last February (2006). Then, in July, my husband moved to Oklahoma to get a job and get established while I stayed in Missouri (with our 2 kids) to sale our house. So, add all of that stress in with PPD and *viola* anxiety attacks abound.

I was put on medication to help with depression / anxiety in September of last year. It worked to level me out. At that time, I was having anxiety attacks 2, 3, 4, or more times a day! It was hell!! I would feel a warm tingling sensation starting at my head and it would work its way down my body. I’d feel the need to gasp for a breath of air… not so much from not feeling like I could breathe - but just that the sensation would catch me by surprise. Then I’d feel a heaviness in my chest (not pain - just heaviness) and my stomach would start wrenching. From there, my heart would race, my face would feel flushed, and I’d feel such a sense of not being in control of my body. I’d get so scared I was having a heart attack, or that I was going to pass out. In fact, I was so sure I was dying, I went to the emergency room twice, a cardiac center once, and an after hours emergency care clinic once. All from July 2006 - December 2006. I wore a Holter Monitor twice (both times for a 24 hour period) and had 3 EKGs done. All conclusions were that they couldn’t find anything wrong with my heart. All the symptoms that I was having was all attributed to anxiety. So, I was on medication from September 2006 until January 2007. I weaned myself off of the medicine because I was convinced that it was the reason why I wasn’t able to lose weight. I have done wonderful being off of the meds. I’ll have an anxiety attack once in a blue moon. Today was that blue moon. The last time I had an anxiety attack was probably 3 weeks ago. Today I was sitting in the livingroom and felt that tell-tell warm tingling. I knew exactly what was happening and what was about to happen - but nothing can fool my brain. Even though I know it’s just anxiety - my brain goes into overdrive about death and heart attacks. Luckily I’m on the other side of it now. The after effect of an anxiety attack is that I just cry. I cry because I let myself get worked up over it, I cry because of how much of an emotional overload it causes me, I cry because I hate feeling anxiety attacks - and I just want to be normal. I want to be how I was before the anxiety attacks originally started (back in 2006). So - that’s where I am at this minute….. crying.

I know that I’ve been getting into shape - bettering my health. And, I’m almost convinced that when I lose enough weight, I won’t have to suffer with the anxiety and depression anymore. I’m sure that my weight has played a significant role in all of this.

Not sure why I wrote this blog, I just needed to get things out - air out my brain! I know that you all understand that.

Anxiety will not control me, will not control my life. The same way - food will not control me, will not control my life. Both diseases will be overcome. They may be completely different - but they are one in the same in so many ways!!! One grows and feeds off of the other. So, once I kill one - the other will go down with it!!

Okay, I’m gonna go now. Thank you for letting me vent.

Lady J

I just love those 3FC women!  Someone has posted yet another quote that I love! Thank you, Fooled for this quote!

“As long as I keep trying, I am not failing“

Labor Day Goal:

Ultimate Goal:

Yes…. I lost 3 pounds this week!!!!! I am so excited! Weight Watchers is working, I’m not feeling hungry, and I am slowly working on my emotional eating / eating out of boredom problem. I think KNOW that I can meet my Labor Day Goal! It’s my first mini-goal - and I can’t wait to blow it out of the water and set a new mini-goal!  We are at my parents house to house sit for them this week.  We brought our scales with us so I can check in.  I’m also going to measure myself and post those measurements with my weigh-ins.  I may not post them every week like my weigh-ins, because I’m not sure what the change will be.  But, we’ll see.

For this week, I’m happy.  I’m going to really push  myself to that finish line for Labor Day though!  I’ll have to have 2 more re-peat weeks like this past week - or better. I also have walking and exercise goals to meet as well.

Teenertown, here I come!!!!!

Until Next time -

Lady J