Chasing away Chubby

The end of the weekend…

Posted lodyangel on January 24th, 2010 | Filed under General | 3 Comments »

Tired…

very tired…

The weekend was decent. Friday night we went out to eat at Ruby Tuesday’s and I had a salad to start and a potato minus all the good stuff, and steak. Saturday was stressful, since BF and I were arguing. I did okay food wise, and today i did great food wise. I had 1 egg and bacon for breakfast.  A mousse sundae for lunch (see in my recipes) and dinner was shrimp and grilled tilapia and steamed veggies. Dessert was popcorn.

Since reading the Dr. Phil book I have been trying very hard to pay attention to what I eat and to savor it more. I also am trying to pay attention to my food cues.  I never realized how susceptible I was to suggestion when it came to food.  Last night while I was lying in bed I was watching WKRP in Cincinnati. In one scene Venus was feeding this girl crab puffs. I don’t even like crab puffs, but instantly I was hungry…I mean really stomach growling hungry…and there should have been no reason why I should have been hungry. So I waited awhile and several minutes later was still hungry, so I got up and ate 3 clementines.  That seemed to help and I brushed my teeth and went back to bed.

I also have been doing a better job about turning down food that is offered to me. BF made crescent rolls after dinner and was trying to get me to eat one and I refused. Didnt need or want it.

Tomorrow I am going to go through the cabinets and throw out the junk that could be tempting to me.  There really is not much there. But There is leftover Halloween candy there, but it is WAAAAYYYY on top of the kitchen cabinets and is hard to reach. AND all the good candy is gone so its usually not much of a temptation, but there is a bowl of candy there and I think that I will put it with the halloween candy and forget it exists.  Really the worst thing in the cabinet is poptarts…and those are the kids. I say…ewwww!  Can’t take those at all. Wish Gavyn would stop eating them but he is in the middle of his “little kid food obsession phase.” Eventually he will burn himself out on them!

WOrkout today was 25 mins TBL BootCamp and 10 Mins Last Chance Workout with 8 pound weights. I really pushed it and was sweating and breathing hard, and crying out in pain when my muscles cramped up.  Don’t know what its up with that.  My leg muscles were cramping yesterday during my run and then today during my workout.  I have been eating bananas and potatoes for potassium.   I also did 10 mins of running on the Wiifit. I planned to do more but Trini bugged the piss out of me until I let her play. I told her I would not play with her anymore if she doesn’t let me finish my workout.  She’s just excited about our race and wants to “train.”

Tomorrow is back to school and back to the daily grind!  See you all in the morning!!

Doing the work

Posted lodyangel on January 23rd, 2010 | Filed under General | 2 Comments »

I have been reading the Dr. Phil book in the bath every night and the Shrink Yourself book every night before bed. It has been helping. I have been making better decisions and eating less, though I think I am still overeating. But its a step in the right direction!

Went running today with Trinity and Devin. Trinity is like her Mommy!  A natural born runner!! She was 50 feet ahead of me and Devin (Dribbling his soccer ball) was 50 feet behind me.  Trini and I decided we are going to run a 3K in March. She is super excited! I am too!  It gives me something to train for!! Devin is training for the soccer try-outs for the middle school team in February.  He has to be able to run A LOT!! I am hoping he sticks with it to make the team.  He is working so hard.

I’m very proud of my kids today!

Finally! The difference between Northerners and Southerners explained…

Posted lodyangel on January 22nd, 2010 | Filed under off topic | 3 Comments »

I thought some of you would enjoy this. as a southern girl, it made me smile!

The difference between the North and the South - at last, clearly explained….

The North has Bloomingdale’s , the South has Dollar General .

The North has coffee houses, the South has Waffle Houses ..

The North has dating services, the South has family reunions.

The North has switchblade knives; the South has .45’s

The North has double last names; the South has double first names.

The North has Indy car races; The South has stock car races .

North has Cream of Wheat , the South has grits.

The North has green salads, the South has collard greens .

The North has lobsters, the South has crawfish .

The North has the rust belt; the South has the Bible Belt ..

FOR NORTHERNERS MOVING SOUTH . .. ….

In the South : –If you run your car into a ditch, don’t panic. Four men in a four-wheel drive pickup truck with a tow chain will be along shortly. Don’t try to help them, just stay out of their way. This is what they live for.

Don’t be surprised to find movie rentals and bait in the same store…. Do not buy food at this store.

Remember, ‘Y’all’ is singular, ‘all y’all’ is plural, and ‘all y’all’s’ is plural possessive

Get used to hearing ‘You ain’t from round here, are ya?’

Save all manner of bacon grease. You will be instructed later on how to use it.

Don’t be worried at not understanding what people are saying. They can’t understand you either.. The first Southern statement to creep into a transplanted Northerner’s vocabulary is the adjective ‘big’ol,’ truck or ‘big’ol’ boy. Most Northerners begin their Southern-influenced dialect this way. All of them are in denial about it.

The proper pronunciation you learned in school is no longer proper .

Be advised that ‘He needed killin..’ is a valid defense here.

If you hear a Southerner exclaim, ‘Hey, y’all watch this,’ you should stay out of the way. These are likely to be the last words he’ll ever say.

If there is the prediction of the slightest chance of even the smallest accumulation of snow, your presence is required at the local grocery store.. It doesn’t matter whether you need anything or not. You just have to go there.

Do not be surprised to find that 10-year olds own their own shotguns, they are proficient marksmen, and their mammas taught them how to aim.

In the South, we have found that the best way to grow a lush green lawn is to pour gravel on it and call it a driveway.

AND REMEMBER: If you do settle in the South and bear children, don’t think we will accept them as Southerners… After all, if the cat had kittens in the oven, we ain’t gonna call ‘em biscuits.

I defeated the “all you can eat” Pizza buffet!!

Posted lodyangel on January 21st, 2010 | Filed under General | 5 Comments »

Read my headline. Now read it again!  Yep, I whipped its tail!

Gavyn was sick today so I kept him home and took him to the doctor. His allergies are acting up. Afterwards he wanted to go to the pizza joint that has a game room. I planned to order a pasta salad and drink water. When I got there I realized it was lunch time and the all you can eat buffet was open!!  *Horror!!!  But i stayed the course.  I first made a small salad, wtih lettuce, cucumber, tomatoes, potato sticks-2T, and 2 T of Ranch. I ate that then had half a cup of pasta salad and then ate 1 piece of pepperoni pizza.  I feel proud because this could have went so very wrong!!!

Then we played games and I won 3 stuffed animals out of the claw machine.  My family has a claw machine addiction. This year instead of allowing the kids to keep all these stuffed animals that I then just have to throw out, we are saving them and are going to donate them to the angel tree program here at Xmas. Better then playing with them for a few months and then throwing them out!  Next we went to wal-mart where I priced the dumbells.  $15 a piece. OUCH!  I will just share mine with Christian for the foreseeable future. I bought Trinity a scooter for her B-day in March and bought myself the 50th Anniversary Superstar Barbie. I had her when I was a little girl and have been eyeing her since she came out last year.  She was on clearance for $30, so I bought her.  Yes, I collect Barbie Dolls!

So a good afternoon indeed!

Thirsty Thursday…

Posted lodyangel on January 21st, 2010 | Filed under General | 2 Comments »

and I am thirsty!  I just got done doing TBL Boot Camp workout- Level 1 and I am in LOVE!!!  It was fun, but just the right amount of difficulty. I was SWEATING and my heart rate was through the roof!  I LOVED it!! I did it with 8 pound weights and something became very evident…its time to raise the weight amount AGAIN!!  In January alone I went from 3 lb to 5 lb and then to 8 lb.  So I guess its time to shop for 10 pound weights. I have a set of dumbells that I can change the weight amount all the way up to 20 some pounds, but Christian has been using those and I get tired of switching the weights back after he’s added 20 pounds to them. So I guess I will go shop for new weights!! Not a bad thing!

I am worn out from my morning workout. I felt SO STRONG while doing it. I really do feel better this morning.  Not like yesterday.  I was so tired yesterday.  So sleepy. I didn’t even workout like I had planned. I was just too tired.  I went to bed early, but didn’t get to sleep until about 11:00.  The kids wee fighting, running in and out of the room, and of course BF decided we needed to “officially” make-up.  Interestingly enough though I got a compliment about my body from him last night. Compliments from him are really rare,  but he noticed that my boobs were firmer. I said “that’s what happens when you workout like I have been”, and he told me to keep it up. 

I bought another book on my Kindle last night it is about emotional eating.  It must be good because it had a bunch of reviews and its average rating was 4.5 stars.  I started reading it and feel like it is helping me already. The book is called Shrink Yourself: Break Free From Emotional Eating Forever By Roger Gould. What I have read has given me a great deal to think about. The book says that most people know the point in time when they began to abuse food. I have always had an inappropraite relationship with food, but it didn’t really become abusive until I started dating BF and things went south. Back in the day I was the DD EVERY SINGLE Night.  I was so miserable. I was deeply hurt from his cheating on me, and I hated DD’ing these losers around every night. The beginning to the evening would consist of going to my favorite restaurant where I would GORGE myself on food.  I would literally eat an entire appetizer and a meal all by myself while they sat there and drank margaritas. I would be miserable, because I knew the night would progress and  would end with me breaking up fights between his friends. or fighting each other, and just pure drama, drama, drama.  That was the first time I remember being ashamed of the amount of food I was eating. I thought I should be allowed to eat that much becasue I had to corral all these hoodlums all night.  I felt powerless.  And that is why I was shoving food in my face.

I eat when I am upset, happy, and bored. The only time I don’t eat is when I am heartbroken.  For some reason the addiction short circuits when I am heartbroken.  When BF and I were broken up I would lose alot of weight.  I always thought I ate when I was happy, and I do, but the book is telling me I have that overwhelming urge to overeat because I feel powerless. I do feel powerless. I feel powerless a lot of times about my BF, who does what he wants, when he wants.  He’s been well behaved lately, but because of the past I have a hard time trusting him and having faith in him.  There have been times that I know myself I have pushed him to leave because there is a part of me that is waiting for him to leave me.  Now when I push he doesn’t leave, but it doesn’t bring me any peace.  I eel like our relationship is suspended in limbo a great deal of the time because of the betrayals. At the same time We have built a life together, and I don’t think I just want to leave that either.  There are days I love him madly, and days I hate him.  His personality is very bipolar and that affects me.  We will go days with things going smoothly and then out of now where he will just up and act like an ass, ruining everything. That makes me crazy, and I blow up. It’s like we live going from one drama to the next. I am just sick of the drama.  So do I overeat because of BF’s presence in my life? Maybe?

Is there a hole in me I try to fill with food? I definitely think so . Do I feel powerless? YES! Powerless to control my weight, Powerless to control my life, my job prospects, my relationships. I’ve gotten better. I am more proactive now about going after what I want.  But at the same time I have to watch myself because I will self sabotage my goals.  I will give up when something is within my  grasp. I really have to keep what I want in the front of my mind or it just won’t get done. That’s why weight loss is so exhausting. It takes so much complete effort and  dedication. Because when you think about food all day you have to be on your toes constantly. There are times when I will eat something and never seriously think about not eating it, the binging is so ingrained in me.

I guess that this is a process and it takes time. I will have to keep working at it.

A lot to think about!  More later!

Food Log 1/21/2010

Posted lodyangel on January 21st, 2010 | Filed under General | Comment now »

Breakfast

hamburger 93% FF: 340

RF cheese: 100

WG english muffin (2): 240

water

Total: 680

Snack: 2 dove chocolates/ 1 T natural peanut butter: 189

water

Total: 869

Lunch: Pasta Salad- 360

water w/ lemon

Total 1229

Dinner: Turkey Salad

Update

Posted lodyangel on January 20th, 2010 | Filed under General | 3 Comments »

Did not sleep well last night, so I did NOT get up in time to workout this morning.  That’s okay cause I will get it done this afternoon. My lack of sleep is making me short with the kids here at school and I hate that!  They are a rambunctious bunch today and really need a great deal of patience.

Breakfast today was a trail mix packet 120 and a banana, 105. Lunch was a LC pepperoni pizza 350; SF pudding 60; 3 clementines 105.  Lots of water today. I feel thinner today.  I forgot to weigh in this morning s I am not sure if I may have dropped a pound. Don’t know what Dinner is tonight. 740 so far.  660 left for dinner.

Short entry

Posted lodyangel on January 19th, 2010 | Filed under General | Comment now »

I have decided that the days that I work I will count calories and the days I am at home I will do the one meal a day thing.  I have done this “diet” before and it worked for me. I lost 30 pounds.  So I am not gonna defend it again.  If you want to know more about it read my “about me and my diet” page.

I’m super tired and need to get to bed. I have to work tomorrow and I have to get up at 5:00 to workout before work. Tomorrow will be different because I will work out before work and then run after work (hopefully with my son).  If its raining we will come home and run on the wii fit. Not exactly the same, but its a running workout.

Dinner tonight was 4 fajitas (Chicken, peppers, onions, tortilla, salsa).  And my strawberry moussse sundae (in my recipes). My calories were somewhere around 1700.  Not awful but not great. That’s why counting calories doesn’t work for me…I am a binge eater and I can’t stop eating once I start. (That’s why the one meal a day thing works so well for me.  I can’t binge in one meal. and I can easily eat my daily calories in my one meal.  I DON’T starve.

I am still reading the Dr Phil book a little at a time. There are some issues that I want to address here. I just haven’t had time. Hopefully I will get on that in a few days.

G’night all!

Good start

Posted lodyangel on January 19th, 2010 | Filed under General | Comments Off

I got up at 5:00 AM to workout before going to work. I did 10 mins flexibility (To stretchout my tight back) and 20 mins TBL Powersculpt. Tonight after work I plan on doing 20 mins TBL Boot Camp and maybe some more. I have to work today and that is good. I planned my food out today. Yesterday I did my one meal a day thing and found my weight up a few ounces this AM. This I believe is for several reasons…#1 I weighed in earlier that usual, #2 It had been like 8 hours since I ate, and #3 The salt content in hte food I had last night was a little high. Today’s menu is: 4 pcs bacon…70 cals, eggs 30 cals, 3 clementines 105 cals…lots of water. 4 fish oil pills…40 cals. Total: 245. Lunch will be Chili (1 cup) 250; Banana- 105; string cheese: 70; SF pudding- 60; Total:485 Total for day so far:730 that leaves 670 for dinner which will be chicken fajitas on the george foreman grill!! Well have a great one! I am off to my day!

Monday…Ugh!

Posted lodyangel on January 18th, 2010 | Filed under General | 3 Comments »

Pissed that I was only 231this morning. Just not happy at all with htat number. Its all I have seen for the last 2 weeks!  I want 229!

So since the counting calories thing is not working. I am going back to eating whatever I want- once a day.  It works for me, so that is what I am doing. I also am going to do 20 Mins. TBL sculpt today and run/walk 40 mins doing week3 of C25K running 1:30, walking 1:30, running 3:00, walking 3:00.  I can ‘t wait to get out there.

BF and I have been fighting the last 2 days, so bad that I didn’t sleep with him the last 2 nights. I don’t htink it will be any better tonight. He told me not to call or text him so I didn’t but he calls just to ask if he left the coffee pot on.  WHATEVER!  That was an excuse to call, but I just hung up on him. If he can’t admit he’s wrong, then I’m not letting him out of this until he does. I am sick of forgiving and forgetting. He can leave if he wants…I DON’T CARE!!!  I am tired of fixing everything he screws up. He’s a grown man, if he can’t say he’s sorry.  I am not doing it for him.  Now, enough of that.

Time to go make something positive come out of this day!!