Chasing away Chubby

I woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed this morning. That is not like me.  I have had a semi-productive morning. I have started a load of laundry, a load of dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, and taken the dogs out. All before 9:00 AM! 

Yesterday was another good day diet wise!  I am not sure that I even ate my 1600 calories.  I had 1006 calories left by dinner time and I ate 1.5 chicken cordon bleu (Less than 500 calories), 1 little debbie cake (I know, Linda…not good cake but the chocolate creme cakes are delicious!  Really I was surprised how good they were!  Plus its TOm and they satisfy my craving for creme filled empty calories.) at 190 calories, 1/4 c peas, and 1/4 c mashed potatoes.  So I did not do the final calorie figurings but I should have been under my calorie goal.  My stomach must be shrinking because I was stuffed with what I had for dinner and usually I can eat ALOT more.  So yay me!

I did not work out however because as the day progressed my ankle hurt increasingly more.    I am going to today.  I am going to do some Denise Austin exercise ball workouts.  LOVE those workouts!  I love the ball!  This will be fun!  :)   (Am I doing a convincing job being upbeat and looking at the bright side of sweating and making my muscles sore???)

Breakfast this morning was a fiberPlus antioxidants chocolate and almond bar (130 calories) and 6 ounces of green goodness fruit smoothie (95 calories).  Lunch will either be a ham or turkey sandwich or a lean cuisine.  Dinner, as always, is up in the air at this point.  DD has dance recital rehearsal tonight so BF will cook dinner again.  Hopefully it will be something good and unfattening.  (Is unfattening a word?  :lol:   )

I did some playing on flufffriends and farm town on FB.  I am going to try out some of the different apps and see what I like.  I have been addicted to fluffriends but only when they are having some sort of scavenger hunt thing.  The rest of the time it is pretty boring.  Everyone else seems to be addicted to farm town.  So I am trying it, but yesterday was not all that impressed.  So we will see how it goes.

Well I am off, the dishwasher and the washing machine are silent, so they are waiting on me to empty them.  Have a great day chickees!

Posted on May 20th, 2009 by lodyangel
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Bust   45.5″

upper waist  38.75″

lower waist 48.75″

Hips  48″

thigh   26.5″

calf     16″

bicep  14.75″

Posted on May 20th, 2009 by lodyangel
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You all knew I would be back when the drama, the stress,  the excitement, the celebratory eating were all over.  And it is. 

It’s over finally!  I graduated!!!   The ceremony was supposed to be outdoors but thanks to the crazy KY weather they decided it would be better to have it inside in the old, ugly gym.  I can not tell you how great it felt to get that diploma in my hand.  I know I was beaming, grinning ear to ear, which is why I was so distressed to find out that my family had let my 11 yr old take the pictures and he did not even take one of me recieving my diploma!   I wanted to bask in the glow of the moment, my long hard won victory, but afterwards the family  just wanted to leave.  No one hugged me, no one said congratualations which hurt me terribly.  I wanted to enjoy my victory, but they were more concerned about getting home (mom) or getting to the restaurant and eating (kids).  At the restaurant the family redeemed themselves and we had a nice time.  However, I still felt empty.  Which just goes to prove that attaining your life’s goal does not always fill you up the way you thought it would.  I felt sad that my family was not more excited for me, sad that this chapter in my life is closed, sad to leave the college, and sad to leave the girls I had gotten to know and like!   I feel proud of my accomplishment, but it still doesn’t feel real to me. I guess maybe because it is only half the battle, the other half is actually getting a job.  Something that will be extremely difficult in these tough economic times, with school systems cutting teaching jobs.

So now I am free.  It feels weird not to have so much to do, not to be constantly busy. However, now there is no excuse.  I have to put me first and work to get this weight off, once and for all!  I gained some during studenteaching.  I weighed in this morning at 223.  My high had been 228!!  A tie for my highest weight ever.  Yep, I ad managed to gain it all back, but now I am going to get it all off- starting today!

The plan: 3 meals,  no snacks

Breakfast will be some sort of juice- acai berry or protein.  250 calories or less.

Lunch- Lean Cuisine. Less than 500 calories.

Dinner- portions measured calories counted.  This is usually where I lose all control.

workouts: 1 hour./ 5 days a week.

If I get serious and really work at it, I can lose 40 pounds by the end of September.  I can do this, time to start working at it.

I’ll be here everyday!  I promise!

Posted on May 18th, 2009 by lodyangel
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That just sounds perverted! 

I am so very tired!  I had a full day of teaching, and then had to go to class.  We were there for over 2 hours.  I worked out for over 30 mins at Curves.   I did not get up early.  For some reason my 1st alarm did not go off in time.  I will try agian tomorrow morning.

Food today was a tad better but not much.  I have started reading Dr. Phil’s book but have not gotten past the first chapter.  This time I am gonna get through it.  LindaT says it really has helped her.  I have read about half of it several times efore but I have never finshed it.  Maybe if I read and get all 7 keys it will help me do this for once.

Well ladies.  See ya tomorrow!  I am off to bed!

Posted on April 8th, 2009 by lodyangel
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Where has the week gone?  I have done nothing but spring clean all week long.  :/  The house is looking better.  Today I have to tackle the kitchen. 

BF has moved in.  I know many of you will see this as a dumb move on my part, but I can not make the rent now not working.  I am out of $$$.   It seems I only blog about BF when he is being a complete asshole.  I don’t give him enough credit most of the time because I am always so angry about the things he has done to me in the past.  He has grown up a great deal over the last couple years.  We have really been doing okay, with the exception of his cheating incident with the girl who turned stalker. (BTW, changing his phone number seems to have stopped all that nonsense.  She called a few of his friends a few times after that trying to get his new # and we have heard nothing since! YAY!) I know we will have rough times, but for now it has to be.  He knows if he does not walk the line then he’ll have to leave, and so far so good.   We got in a few arguments during the move this past weekend, but moving is STRESSFUL.  Especially when you are moving a neat freak into a cluttered mess of a house, and you are trying to decide what to keep and what to toss, whose furniture to use and what to get rid of.  Things have been better since then though.  

I have been so busy, literally working from sun up to sundown that I haven’t had time to work out.  That seems to be working for me though as this morning I am back down to 222!  That is 3 pounds gone in about a week!!  I think the diet for me is no diet at all.  I just need to stay busy and not worry about what I put in my mouth,  I literally eat less when I am NOT dieting.   Dieting puts an unhealthy focus on food, and for a reformed binge eater (I say reformed because I used to binge DAILY, now my binges are less than monthly.  Now I just overeat.) that spells disaster.  When I diet, all I think about is food, I count the minutes down to my next meal, I daydream about what I am going to eat, and I will inevitably overeat because food is my focus.  But no more.  I just need to stay focused on what I need to do, work my ass off on cleaning out this clutter and getting the things done I need done, and let food fall by the wayside.  It is important for energy, it is not important for my life.

I am going to start training for a 5K in September.  I will start that soon.  That will help get this weight off.

So today is clean the kitchen and get the mini deep freeze of BF’s in there.  Then I need to go to the library, DD has dance tonight, but I may see if her Nana will  take her so I can do some more around here.  Bf will be home arounfd 3:00 since his factory has cut out overtime this week.  Hopefully, it will not last very long…he doesn’t think that it will.  They build garbage trucks and that is one thing the world will sadly always need. 

Well I am off to my day!!  I will try to comment later!

Love to all!!

PS.

I am always down on myself because I am so fat and I hate the way I look.  I may only weigh 6 pounds less then when I started this 2 years ago, but I am healthier, happier, and have a ton more self esteem.  I can run (I ran last week the first time in about 6 months since I had seriously ran and I wasn’t sore~ at all!!!), I am strong enough to lift a pressed board desk over my head and carry it 50 feet to the street, up and down steps, by myself!  I know that if I really try that there is nothing I can’t do.  That is an accomplishment, a miracle really, unto itself.  I can do this.  I know I can.   Now I just have to get my ADD butt in gear and keep my focus and make this happen for me.

Posted on April 2nd, 2009 by lodyangel
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