Chasing away Chubby
…my scandelous pursuit of 155!
I am pulling myself up by my bootstraps and getting my Sh*t in order! I’m sick of being sick, and feeling bad, and not feeling like myself. I have things I wanna do. Things I wanna accomplish and I gotta get over this gunk I have and get on it!
The last few days I have spent mostly sleeping. I think its partly the illness, partly depression- very mild depression– and it comes and goes. I do really well until the Ex comes around trying to be my “friend.” Then I think about all the crap he’s done to me and I let it get to me. I’m just gonna keep him at arms length. If I don’t let him worm his way back in, he doesn’t have that power over me unless I allow him to have it. He gets it no longer. I don’t want him back, but I am still so angry with him for what he has done.
I got up this morning and took the kiddies to school. I them went to the park and ran/walked. It felt soooo good. I didn’t want to stop. I did 40 mins of run/ walking. It felt sooooo good to run! I ran like I do when I dream of running…fast, light, painless, free. I know that the next time I run my body will be tired from working out and my joints sore from the pounding I gave them today, but it will all be worth it if eventually the majority of my runs feel like this in the future. LOVED IT! There were two skinny girls running behind me and they couldn’t catch me. That part was great…and to think I hadn’t ran in well over 2 months!
Would like to do insanity and get a bike ride in tonight but don’t want to over do it. I think I will just do the bike ride tonight and get up early tomorrow and do insanity (I think I am suppose to work). I think I will do a 20 minute biggest loser workout today. That will give me well over an hours worth of sweat time.
Meals today? Breakfast will be a smoothie with a protein shot mixed in. Lunch will be LC spaghetti and a string cheese. Dinner will be enchiladas rancheras, with lots of lettuce and tomatoes. The kids won’t eat that so I think they can have left over tacos from last night! They won’t care they love tacos.
Well here is my schedule for today.
10:00-12:00 Breakfast/Job hunting
12:00-12:30 BL workout
12:30-3:40: Lunch/ housework/ grocery store/ pick kids up from school
3:40- 4:45: Kids homework and chores
4:45-5:45: laundry/ dishes
5:45- 6:45: Dinner
6:45-8:00: Bike Riding
8:00-9:00: Get kids ready for bed.
9:00-???: FB/ reading/ Free time
Well Chickees…Have a great day!! <3