Chasing away Chubby

Ugh!

Posted lodyangel on September 8th, 2009 | Filed under General

Josh’s grandfather passed away on Sunday. He was 91 and very much ready to go to heaven.  Granny H, his wife, passed 2 years ago and ever since then he has been waiting for the lord to take him home.  He gave up his fight Sunday with his children around him. Praise God that he has gone home. That does not help the ones who are left behind however. Josh got drunk and acted like a total ass yesterday. Because I have been sick (more in a moment on that) and I laid down for 30 mins he accused me of not being there for him. The freaking ass!!  When my grandmother passed away I was 6 mos. pregnant with Devin.  He didn’t even go with me to the hospital to visit her, he didn’t go with me to the visitation, or to the funeral.  If I rememebr correctly he was out partying with his buddies while I was laying my grandmother to rest, and he wants to accuse me of not being there for him!!  I am so sick of him and his drama-queenness!!!  Its ridiculous that because of his alcoholism that we can never concentrate on what matters because he has to act like a drama queen.  Its not like I didn’t love his grandfather too. I have known him for 15 years and he was a good man.  I am still so pissed off that I think I may go to town and not be here when he gets home. I am that angry with him.  He thinks I am never there for him, well lets see how he likes it when I ma not here at all!

I feel awful. Those of you who have read my blog know about my stomach issues and they have started again. Probably due to my weight gain and my bad eating habits. Funny, though how it started acting up when I switched to my good eating habits again.  Weird?  So today I am eating a liquid diet until dinner and then I will try not to over do it and see how my tummy feels.  I took a loratab I had left from 2 years ago, my last trip to the ER, last night to make it stop hurting, and this morning I have a bounce back migraine. I took 2 Ibuprofen for that and slept til 11:45. My head is still hurting but not on a migraine scale. I was really looking forward into forcing myself to walk this week, but until I feel better that is gonna be hard to do.

Good news.  I have lost 3 pounds since I began watching what I eat.  227 this morning. So yay for that. Also, the bleeding has subsided some. (See previous post). It is now down to a pink discharge…almost like after you have a baby. Weird??  So I am relieved for that. I think total I bled for 20 days…totally not cool.

Today I am going to clean up around here, run to town to buy some cheese for the enchiladas I am making tonight, start the crock pot with the mexican pork roast ( Pork roast (not tenderloin) in a slow cooker seasoned with whatever veggies you like and 1 packet of taco seasoning. Its delicious and sooo easy!! Roll it up in a tortilla or pour it over a cheese enchilada and you have HEAVEN! MMMMM!) Anyway, can you tell I have sustained myself today on jello and water??  I am off to face the day. Hopefully what is left of it won’t be as bad as the past few days.

I want to say that I have been completely touched by one lady’s complete generosity. Round has offered to help me in a way that still astounds me. She is a wonderful, giving human being and I will be praying for her constantly for her to heal quickly from her cancer ordeal, and that she will be able to become a parent within the year. Thank you so much Sarah!