Chasing away Chubby

Back on the wagon

Posted lodyangel on May 18th, 2009 | Filed under General

You all knew I would be back when the drama, the stress,  the excitement, the celebratory eating were all over.  And it is. 

It’s over finally!  I graduated!!!   The ceremony was supposed to be outdoors but thanks to the crazy KY weather they decided it would be better to have it inside in the old, ugly gym.  I can not tell you how great it felt to get that diploma in my hand.  I know I was beaming, grinning ear to ear, which is why I was so distressed to find out that my family had let my 11 yr old take the pictures and he did not even take one of me recieving my diploma!   I wanted to bask in the glow of the moment, my long hard won victory, but afterwards the family  just wanted to leave.  No one hugged me, no one said congratualations which hurt me terribly.  I wanted to enjoy my victory, but they were more concerned about getting home (mom) or getting to the restaurant and eating (kids).  At the restaurant the family redeemed themselves and we had a nice time.  However, I still felt empty.  Which just goes to prove that attaining your life’s goal does not always fill you up the way you thought it would.  I felt sad that my family was not more excited for me, sad that this chapter in my life is closed, sad to leave the college, and sad to leave the girls I had gotten to know and like!   I feel proud of my accomplishment, but it still doesn’t feel real to me. I guess maybe because it is only half the battle, the other half is actually getting a job.  Something that will be extremely difficult in these tough economic times, with school systems cutting teaching jobs.

So now I am free.  It feels weird not to have so much to do, not to be constantly busy. However, now there is no excuse.  I have to put me first and work to get this weight off, once and for all!  I gained some during studenteaching.  I weighed in this morning at 223.  My high had been 228!!  A tie for my highest weight ever.  Yep, I ad managed to gain it all back, but now I am going to get it all off- starting today!

The plan: 3 meals,  no snacks

Breakfast will be some sort of juice- acai berry or protein.  250 calories or less.

Lunch- Lean Cuisine. Less than 500 calories.

Dinner- portions measured calories counted.  This is usually where I lose all control.

workouts: 1 hour./ 5 days a week.

If I get serious and really work at it, I can lose 40 pounds by the end of September.  I can do this, time to start working at it.

I’ll be here everyday!  I promise!