Chasing away Chubby

Merry Christmas everybody!

We had a WONDERFUL Christmas this year.  It was really nice.  Everyone was happy and the kids got everything they wanted.  I feel truly blessed.  BF and I got along great and I miss him terribly now as he went home awhile ago.  The kids are worn out.  Our Xmas starts Xmas morning as we get up and go to BF’s house and open presents, then go to Nana’s house and open presents and then to the kids great aunts house and open presents, and then back to my Mom’s to open presents.  We usually leave there at 10 o’ clock.  Today we went to my grandmothers for  lunch, then to Nana’s for dinner, then back to my Mom’s for dinner.  So in a flash of lights, wrapping paper, and ribbon Christtmas quickly comes and goes and again I am sitting here wishing I had “done Xmas right.”  Every Xmas night I sit around and lament about how fast it goes and how next year I am going to do some things to stretch it out.  It seems there is never time or money to do that.  So here are some ideas for next year to stretch out the holiday season a little more.

#1 Visit the Rosemary Clooney “White Christmas” house- Take DD

#2 Take the kids to see a holiday movie at the movies

#3 Have sisters each host a noght where everyone can come over and do something to get in the Xmas spirit.  Ideas are: Christmas decoration night, Xmas cookie decorating night, Xmas movie night.

#4 Drive around and look at Xmas lights.

#5 Southern lights at Horse park

#6 Xmas parade

I think tomorrow I am going to do a Christmas craft with the kids about Jesus’ birth.  I think they need to here the story again and maybe do a craft that can go along with it.  I will have to see what I can find on DLTK-kids.com.

My littlest, DS5 wrote a thank you letter to santa tonight- it was so cute.  He had me go to emailsanta.com and we emailed a letter to him. 

I am worried about my grandmother and wonder if this is going to be my last Christmas with her.  She has lost weight visibly since Thanksgiving.  The light has gone out in her eyes.  She was always such a tough old bird, and now she is so small, and frail looking.  My Mom actually got upset and cried yesterday about it.  We know that it won’t be too much longer.  She is 84.  In the past when I would hug her bye she never got too close, never too emotional.  Today when I hugged her she pulled me close and held me extra long.  I think she knows she is going to pass on soon, looking forward to joining nearly everyone from her generation.  She is the last from her family. All her brothers and sisters are gone.  Just thinking about it makes me cry.  Even though I wasn’t so terribly close to her- tough old bird, not emotional-, I love her dearly, she has been a constant my entire 34 years on this planet and it hurts like hell to think of her no longer here with us.  I’m crying just thinking about it.

That is why I do the genealogical research.  I do it so no one will be forgotten. Because, what are we really after we are gone but a few memories and a cold stone on a hill? A name in a bible?  I want my family to know about the people before them.  Not just their names but who they were, what they stood for.

On top of that, BF’s grandfather isn’t doing well at all.  He lives in a nursing home (he’s 90) and 2 weeks ago began to fight the nurses over takig his breathing treatments.  So Hospice told the nursing home to cease his breathing treatments.  Today BF wanted to stop in and see him but I was horribly tired  and I had 2 of 3 kids in the backseat asleep, plus his parents and his Bro and my sis were going to visit, so I begged off.  Then when we get to Mom’s my Sis (who is married to BF’s Bro) told me about their visit with him, that he was talking out of his head some, that his fever was 104, and that they were taking him to the hospital.  Well I feel awful about not stopping now.  I am scared that he may pass away before we get to go see him tomorrow and that BF will never forgive me for not wanting to stop.

So for you praying chickees out there, Pray for these 2 dear, old, people for me.  Pray that they will live a little longer so that we all can have a few more memories with them, and pray that when God does bring them home it is quick and painless for them.

I know you would think I would be incredibly sad, but I am not. I feel very blessed tonight.  I managed to pull out a great Xmas for my kids with no job-thanks to the credit cards, but I will pay them off with the tax return- and It was a very nice Christmas.  BF got me a heart necklace, and a BEAUTIFUL gold rope bracelet that shimmers when you move, and a new pair of Asics gel running shoes which will come in handy when I get back to running soon, and a $60 gift card to American Eagle. From the family I got lots of dress clothes for student teaching-  Which I needed. I got BF a GPS, and a black hills gold “dad” ring. He seemed to like it.

Overall, a blessed holiday.

I hope everyone else’s Holiday was as special as mine.  God Bless you and Merry Christmas!! Happy Holidays!!

Posted on December 25th, 2008 by lodyangel
Filed under: General