Chasing away Chubby

I’ve been MIA for qutie some time.  You would think that with the focus being off of weight loss that I would have ballooned…but I have not.  I have lost 4 pounds since Thanksgiving and am hoping not to gain anything over Xmas.  I have lost it almost effortlessly as I have been SUPER busy trying to get my family genealogy done to give to my grandpa before Xmas. Plus I had classes to finish up and other stuff to do.   My classes are now finished and I will make Dean’s list!  I will student teach in January!  So I am excited that I will graduate in May!  I’ve almost done it!  I am almost there!

On the down side there has been a ton of trouble around me.  It seems a good percentage of the couples around me are having problems.  BF & I too.  We are doing okay now but I am wondering how long it will last.   A few weeks ago he was acting really weird and we fought all week and he avoided me, and was an ass to me and finally by the next Monday night I had had it and I demanded to know what was going on.  I knew he had been screwing around again.  I just knew it.  So he comes out to the house and tells me he had been screwing the crack whore bitch that I beat the shit out of back in August-AGAIN!  So we fought and cried and somehow when he left we WEREN’T broke up.  How the hell that happened I don’t know.  I sort of wished we had because he has done this so many times that I know he will do it again. I mean right now, he is great-better than great.  He’s attentive, sweet, kissing my ass, crazy in love with me, talkin marriage, great.  But I know that it won’t last and some whore somewhere will  spread her legs and he’ll end up between them. I just have no faith or trust in him.  IDK what to do…  How do you get rid of someone who has been in your life for 14 years?  I just can’t fathom it. But I am not the kind of woman that will stand by her man while he porks the hell out of someone else.  It tears me up inside.  So at some point there has to be a last straw and I am wondering when my last straw will break.  Haven’t I been through enough?

Christmas is around the corner and I am praying the shit I ordered off of overstock.com comes in.  I ordered it before the last day  standard shipping was guaranteed by Xmas.  So they shipped a bunch of stuff I need by Xmas Eve-media mail!!  WTF???  I do ebay alot so I know media mail can take up to 2 weeks!   If I don’t get my stuff by Xmas Eve they are going to get an ear full from me.  Fuckin’ MORONS! IF you guarantee delivery by Xmas then by Gosh ship a way that doesn’t take a week to get here! Grrr!

Well as you can see I am just full of Holiday Fuckin Xmas cheer.  I have been listening to Xmas carols for 2 months but can’t get in the mood. We had a death in the family- my kids’ great uncle passed away, then not a week later one of my son’s friends died in a car accident. 17 years old coming home from school, her boyfriend slid across the bridge and hits a tree on the passenger side.  She was killed instantly.  My sister and her hubby have been having problems.  She caught him talking and texting to her BF- it was not a pretty picture.  So with all this BS going on.  Who the heck could get in the spirit??? I know that is a bad attitude to have. I have ALOT to be thankful for…but it is hard when it is just one thing on top of another. 

Well I am going with BF to finish Xmas shopping.  Hopefully everything will be all magic, good will, and giving thsi Xmas and NO DRAMA! Like the angels said-

Peace on earth, goodwill to men,  Bitches!

Posted on December 20th, 2008 by lodyangel
Filed under: General