Chasing away Chubby

Back so quickly??

Posted lodyangel on June 8th, 2008 | Filed under General

***This was suppose to have posted 2 nights ago after the “crazy” post, and for some reason, didn’t.  ***

I hate myself.

I am just going to have to come to terms that I can’t eat.

 I ate the SB thing I mentioned in my earlier post and now my stomach is bothering me.  I have had this problem the last few days.  I had been eating junk and it was making me sick at night.  So sick I vomited last night.  So sick that I swore to do better today and not eat anything bad or greasy. 

Now after eating something “good” I am sick again.  WTF??

I guess I am just going to have to stick with the one meal a day thing.  If I eat more than once the I am disgustingly sick, and I hate this feeling. 

I’d rather be hungry then feel this way.

I forgot to mention.  I did my CT scan back in May and it came out okay.  My lymphnodes had not gotten any bigger, but they were still swollen and inflamed.  I hate it cause I just feel like I am sitting around waiting to get lymphoma.  Isn’t there anything they can do? And if they are still inflamed and my stomach is still being stupid then I guess that means that whatever was wrong with my stomach last year is still wrong with it.  Last year I had a scope and it was red, irritated.  But there was no holes, no ulcers, no erosions.  It was just red.  They could not give me an explanation.   They could not tell me what I should do about it.  The surgeon said usually it means that you are taking something to cause it. 

Like what???

I quit drinking Pop 2 years ago.  I rarely take diet pills.  What could be doing it?

I’m gonna go pop a prilosec…just in case.

did I mention i have a cold??? In the

Tomorrow I am strictly back on water- no tea. Not that I think that is doing it, but I gotta do something.   And no night eating…only one meal a day.  If I eat more I will be sick. 

And frankly, for the first time…food isn’t worth feeling this way.