Chasing away Chubby

LOL!  remember that song????  Gosh, I love Aerosmith!

Things have been…welll?  Crazy.  I did really well on my one meal-a-day diet, until the weekend and I slid off of it.  We went to the Zoo Saturday which made it impossible to just eat one meal, and then Sunday…I just had no willpower.  I realized why on monday when TOM arrived.  So this week has been trying to avoid one binge after another.  As Annie says “NOT CUTE!”  So today was not so bad.  I ate my first meal about 2:30 and was satisfied until I got home about 10:30 PM.  Then I was hungry (real huinger…not that fake wanna stuff something down my gullet shit that I fool myself with!)  so I ate a SB meal and 3 dove dark chocolates.  Hey!  I have been good.  Tom has been here all week and my chocolate consumption  has been- twice this week.  That’s counting my measly 3 pieces tonight.  I was still wanting to snack, but I was putting the groceries up and was pouring the new Wal-Mart brand generic Splenda in with the real splenda already in the canister and I thought…I wonder if it tastes the same?  So I dipped my finger in one and in the other, and there really isn’t much difference.  Splenda may have a sweeter aftertaste, but other than that no difference.  It was then that I realized.  I didn’t wanna eat anymore!!  Maybe tasting splenda will help stop cravings!?!  I will have to try this at a later time and let you ladies know. 

Classes have been crazy.  I have also been doing a great deal of reading.  I have been reading Karen Kingsbury.  She’s a contemporary christian author and she ROCKS.  Also I just finished a few books with chubby heroines that you ladies HAVE to read.  They are: Good in bed,  Certain Girls (by Jennifer Weiner), Night Swimming (By Robin Schwarz), and The Perfect Fit (By I can’t remember).  I haven’t finished the last one yet, as the Karen Kingsbury books have gotten in the way.  But Good in Bed and Night Swimming are AWESOME!!!   So check them out.

Ya know… I was looking in the mirror this morning…naked….and I noticed that if I could sut off my stomach, the rest of me wouldn’t be so bad.  i have that hideous apple shape.  Get rid of that and, I would be a little thick, but not so bad.  How can I get rid of my gut, any suggestions?

I started reading Intuitive Eating.  (Thanks Leeda).  I have only gotten a few chapters in, but I discovered I am the refuse -not unconscious eater.  Yep, I eat food not because I am hungry, but just because it is there. (DUH?!?)  So the ladies bringing food for the entire class every night?!?  Yeah, that shit is killing me.  So I emailed them all tonight and told them I am bringing my fresh fruit salad (Any fruit you choose thrown together and sweetened with Splenda).  That should keep my ass from eating the evil…but tasty crap they bring! 

Well I am off to bed, so I can get up early and go run/ walk.  I am really sick of being fat so I gotta do something to lose this.  I just have to get in the habit of a morning run or walk or something.  I want this, I have to get off my ass and get it.  God, knows if exercise was a zinger I would  have gotten off the couch, walked across the room,  and devoured it faster than I could type this!  :lol:  no more excuses!  It’s summer.  It’s beautiful and down right HOT (91 degrees today).  I need to do this.

Posted on June 5th, 2008 by lodyangel
Filed under: General