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binge, gorge, binge, gorge!

Posted lodyangel on December 10th, 2007 | Filed under General

I’m sitting here hating myself.

I had done okay food wise.  After supper I had in about 1700 calories.  Respectable.  So what happens after dinner.  I continuously continue to think about eating.  For 3 hours I fight the urge.  I chew gum, drink, drink, drink.  I Still wanna eat.  So I decide to eat a sandwich.  It would be about 250 more calories, so I eat that.  Then DS4 decides he wants a snack of popcorn so I gorge myself on that then I eat 2 pre-cut cookies out of the cookie dough.  Then I eat some candy I found up in the cabinet.  Gorge, gorge, binge.  

I hate myself!

Ican’t stop eating!  WTH is wrong with me!?! I know that TOM is here and that is a big culprit to my bad eating…but why can’t I control it like I did back a few months ago.  Why can’t I just say no and get and stay on plan???

Why?

Why?

Why?

On top of that I did not work out.

For 2 days in a row!

Motivation.  I NEED motivation.  I feel like it is coming back and then, I slip off and am back here again.  Grrr!

Well I am going to bed.  I am getting my ass up out of bed, like it or not to work out some BEFORE work.

I hate TOM. 

Hormones suck!

BLAH!!!



2 Responses to “binge, gorge, binge, gorge!”

  1. anngirl Says:
    December 11th, 2007 at 12:16 am

    Shit babe -we’re in the same goddamn boat.

    hang in there boo - it’ll pass :)

    Damn!
    xoxoxooxoxooxo

  2. soclose Says:
    December 11th, 2007 at 12:12 pm

    All I can tell you is that sometimes my willpower is great and sometimes it’s nonexistent……I’ve even thought of learning some type of self hypnosis or going to someone…

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