Thinking ‘Skinny’
I can’t say I’ve battled a weight problem ALL my life…just intermittently. I have spent most of my life overweight. The first time I reduced my weight, I lost 50 pounds. That was high school. I met my first husband and promptly started gaining it all back, plus some.
After 9 years, I went on a diet of my own making, and lost 90 pounds. I bought a whole new wardrobe that didn’t include a husband. I was accused of thinking I was too good for him, now that I looked pretty good. (That’s what happens when you don’t blab everything to your girlfriends and family.) The truth was, I decided I couldn’t live with his adultery anymore, and I was going to go out with a BANG. Revenge dieting…what a concept.
I was single and skinny for 7 years. I realized one day, that I was no longer dieting. I ate what I wanted, when I wanted. The difference was, I looked at food the way skinny people do. A bite of this or that sugary, gooey stuff was all I wanted. Not gorging myself on it. (It made me shiver!) I also realized that food was no longer the center of my world. (No offense to anyone, but I think measuring and counting, and all the rest, keeps food on the brain way too much. Just my opinion.) I didn’t make meals the focus of my life anymore. Skinny people love food. too. They just don’t help themselves to lumberjack portions!
Anyway, I married again, had children this time, and gained it all back! Plus another 60 pounds! Now here I am again, only this time, I’m taking it off for my life, for the rest of my life. I’m 53 years old now and have health problems that are exasperated by my weight. Arthritis, Scoliosis, a majorly messed up back, high blood pressure…..I could go on, but I’m tired of talking about it. I’ll never be that pretty young girl again, but I will be healthy and alive for my kids, husband, and family, God willing.
I just have to get my head right….Thinking skinny!