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Yay! Finally! It is an interview with the Hilton, who I interviewed with a few weeks ago and got a rejection letter “we are sorry to say… keep you on our shortlist.” Yeah right, I thought. Well obviously they did! Huzzah!

I’ve been pigging out all weekend - yesterday my -in law’s mother came over and I cooked a big lamb roast with veg and steamed greens. She baked me a birthday cake (lovely!) even though my birthday was two weeks ago nearly. So I ate a lot lot, probably about 2500cal. erg. But now I am going to go put on my interview skirt (which is TIGHT) to remind me not to pig out today. I’m at about 800cal so far, so hopefully today is redeemable.

Got it on and it’s not as tight as I thought it would be. WOOP. Still, I do feel as though I’d hang out the top if I didn’t have such stacked heels to wear with it (do wonders for posture, heels).

I LOVE living in London. I love that I can be super dressed up and made up with heels for work and not feel like I’m overdressed, or even out of the ordinary. It is my dream to have a job where I get to dress like a GIRL. No apron, no sensible shoes, no man’s shirt, no bleach stains, no horribleblandpractical ponytail, no food to get all over myself when cooking. No COOKING. Yesssss. A non-food related job is all I ask for. That and looking like a girl.

I’m going to start sorting out my excersise. I’ve realised that I’m not going to get anywhere by sitting at home all day counting calories. I will still count calories, but by just getting out of the house I will stop giving myself the opportunity to just have a little more of everything. I will stop boredom eating. I know that I am capable of being uber-fit, and I know that I enjoy the feeling, it’s just the getting fit part that is sooooo difficult. So rather than going for a walk and saying “that’ll do, at least I did something” I’ll be pushing myself to my limit when I can. Who cares if people on the street laugh at the fat girl jogging? At least I know I’m a better person than they are. How do I know that? I don’t laugh at fat girls jogging. HA.

Fitday fitday fitday. I don’t know if anyone reads this, and congratulations if you’ve made it this far, but I was wondering if anyone else has the same problem as I do. When I have a horrible eating day I don’t enter it on fitday - like if I don’t record it, it didn’t happen. Which is TERRIBLE because I’m not holding myself accountable for what I’m consuming, and since I have no-one else to do that for me I can have massive blowouts and get away with it.

I’m going to do my fitday now.

Ta ta!

aaaaaaiiiiiieeeeeeeee!!! The absolute horror of it. I knew that diet coke wasn’t particularly good for you, but not until yesterday did I realise that it actually contributes to that super unhealthy middle-fat. Oh woe. Not that I drink a lot of it, either one 330ml or one 600ml bottle per week. Diet coke my ARSE. Chubby stomach cola more likely.

Why can’t there be an addictive carbonated sugar free drink that contributes to an hourglass shape?

*Side effects - a trimmer waist and larger bust. Some booty may develop.

That would be a drink I would drink.

Other than that - I’m back on my fitday today, recording all. I am determined not to blow out, I have removed temptation from the house and am in a much more positive mood this morning. If I start off well, I usually keep going that way.

I have also updated this blog site with a page focussing on my daily goals. I have never been much of a ’see the bigger picture’ type of person, and I find it hard to visualise the end result of anything. Which is why, I think, I have been known to give up from time to time. By making my goals extremely short term, day by day, I think I have made the work needed achieve them seem not so intimidating.

Baby steps.

Loves!