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It was my birthday yesterday -croissant for breakfast, healthy lunch, jaffa cakes (!) then japanese for dinner (creamy scallaps, blackend cod and creme brulee for dessert! Oh dear). Along with all of this a half a bottle of wine. I think I went at least 500cal over my limit.

The positive in this is that I don’t feel guilty about it and I haven’t beaten my self up at all, which I think is a sign of how my attitude to getting healthy has changed. I’m feeling a bit smug about it in any case.

A negative is how horrible I feel this morning! I think it is the food as well as the wine, dinner was very sweet and creamy (and amazing). When I drink, I smoke - I had a cigarette for every drink yesterday, and a cigarette for every conversation with a family member over the phone (I have a big family). So in general I feel very crappy.

I think today will be a good one - healthy breakfast so far.

I just need to get out there and excersise! I am too afraid of people seeing me jiggle about to run, and definitely not looking forward to getting my bathers (swimmers, trunks) out for the summer. I’ve got to start somewhere and so far have not decided where or when that somewhere will be.