Still here and still losing, just not posting as much as I want to. I love to read other weight loss blogs for motivation, and had grand ideas for making the next new inspirational blog myself, but I don’t think I have it in me. I haven’t even taken any decent pictures.
I’ve lost 33 lbs in 10 weeks. 42.9 BMI to 37.6 BMI. 12.4% of my weight gone. I think I am doing pretty well.
Still not exercising. I hurt my back really bad in November when I quit dieting last time. I went to a chiropractor but he was a QUACK and never looked for a different one, and never ended up going to my regular doctor either. I am terrified of hurting it again. It was brutal. I think that once my daughter starts the 5th grade in September I will start walking again. I can’t do it now or else I would have to carry her after 1/2 a mile, she can’t handle long distances and she is almost 10 so I don’t have a stroller or anything for her.
I know I will be okay walking, but my dream is to run the Liberty Days 5k next 4th of July. They ran right by my house and I sat on my porch smoking a cigarette watching. Next year I want to be on that road running. I will start the Couch to 5k program after I walk for a while. I have never been able to run because of shin splints, but I will figure something out.
At least I assume they do. No one has actually come right out and said so anyway. I don’t say things like, “I can’t wait until… (fill in the blank regarding weight loss)”. I don’t because I think someone will say something about the fact that I rarely if ever make it past the 2 month/30 lb point.
I think everyone thinks I’m going to quit. I am not going to quit. Just to prove those people wrong. Even if they really aren’t thinking it. Even though they probably are. I think maybe I am. But I am not going to quit!!!!!!
Just wanted to let that out.
Weigh in tomorrow.
Ok so my last post last November (!!!) I was scared that I was losing my motivation. Well I did. It was gone, and I let it go. I let myself gain ALL 26+ lbs back between December and May. Seriously. I am totally kicking myself in the ass.
Plus side… I have lost 11 lbs since May 1st. Doing it all over again, and I have a slightly different strategy. I am not that into it. It seems odd, but every other time I have lost weight it was so crazy, HUGE changes… different foods, massive amounts of exercising, weight loss tv shows were all I watched, weighing at my sisters, measurements, pictures. It’s all too much. I got burned out. Fast.
This time I am so casual about everything. I am counting calories. If I want to exercise fine, if not oh well…. I watch Biggest Loser whenever I feel like it on the DVR. I have my scale here, I weigh in whenever I want. I haven’t taken any pictures, but I will sooner or later. I just have a “meh, whatever” attitude and I think it helps. Small changes are better than none anyway.
I am a slacker. Weighed in this week at 234. 26 pounds down… that equals 10% right? I started at 260…. percentages are my math weakness.
My Sister and I aren’t doing too well. We still have the drive to lose weight but the whole motivation and everything has worn off. It’s not new and exciting anymore for sure.
I haven’t been drinking nearly enough water. I have stayed under calories most days, but exercise has been non-existant. Too cold to walk. Work out tapes are boring. Not sure what we are gonna do….
Edit: I quit shortly after this.
This week the scale said 243! That’s a 5 pound loss from last week. I rechecked 5 times to see if it was really true and I suppose when it says the same weight 5 times it must be.
Last week wasn’t even that great. We walked 5 days, I wasn’t feeling well one day and Sunday…well, I just didn’t feel like it. I honestly didn’t feel like it today either, but I did anyway.
I learned that my sister and I have NO willpower whatsoever. We took the kids to the open house at the fire department, got the kids pizza and then we had to get some too. Then my nephew wanted to get cookies from the bake sale so I gave him a few dollars to do that and what does he get?! Snickerdoodles. I am not much of a cookie eater, don’t think I really ever have been, but I <3 snickerdoooooodles. So I ate one. Stupid snickerdoodles. We counted everything we had and it wasn’t horrific, I think I was at like 1750 calories for the whole day, but knowing that I can’t control myself is scary. Need to work on that or something, I don’t know.
We did go grocery shopping last week though, got enough food for 10 meals. We looked for healthy recipes that looked good and made a huge list. The only non-healthy thing on it is knoephla soup, but that’s for the kids. I’ll probably make it tomorrow and add up the calories just in case someone else wants some. But with dough and whipping cream it probably isn’t very calorie friendly.
So even though it feels like I have a zillion pounds to lose I am afraid of maintenance. Really afraid. In the past I had been down to 207 or so and when I stopped “dieting” I gained it back and an alarming rate. It’s terrifying to think I have to lose the weight again. It is almost as terrifying to think I will alllllways have to worry about it. I know that’s just the way it is, but I hope that during this journey I pick up habits that will help me so that I won’t have to be so meticulous. It is exhausting.
So anyway… when I get to my goal…not sure what it is yet, but I think around 140 or so I am gonna get a pair of jeans custom made. You choose everything about the jeans, from color to leg style, coin pocket or no, pocket shape, everything. Then you enter your height, weight, measurements, how your current jeans fit and all that. Then for about $150.00 you get your jeans made. I think that if I do that for my final goal reward-spend more money than I have ever dreamed of spending on jeans on custom made ones then when/if they get snug I will know that I am slacking off and to kick it up a notch.
Anyway, that is my brilliant plan that I have. Now to remember it when it is actually an issue.
Oh, edited to add http://www.indidenim.com/oo/navigation/landing is the site I am gonna get them from.
