…again.

Weighed in with only 1 pound lost last week. Weaksauce. I had been sneaking peeks at the scale and Sunday, Monday and Tuesday I gained 1 pound. 252, 253 and 254.  But official weigh day was 250.8. I wonder why it was so low all the sudden? Oh well, a loss is a loss and I am happy with that.

At least I assume they do. No one has actually come right out and said so anyway. I don’t say things like, “I can’t wait until… (fill in the blank regarding weight loss)”.  I don’t because I think someone will say something about the fact that I rarely if ever make it past the 2 month/30 lb point.

I think everyone thinks I’m going to quit. I am not going to quit. Just to prove those people wrong. Even if they really aren’t thinking it. Even though they probably are. I think maybe I am. But I am not going to quit!!!!!!

Just wanted to let that out.

Weigh in tomorrow.

Ok so my last post last November (!!!) I was scared that I was losing my motivation. Well I did. It was gone, and I let it go. I let myself gain ALL 26+ lbs back between December and May. Seriously. I am totally kicking myself in the ass.

Plus side… I have lost 11 lbs since May 1st. Doing it all over again, and I have a slightly different strategy. I am not that into it. It seems odd, but every other time I have lost weight it was so crazy, HUGE changes… different foods, massive amounts of exercising, weight loss tv shows were all I watched, weighing at my sisters, measurements, pictures. It’s all too much. I got burned out. Fast.

This time I am so casual about everything. I am counting calories. If I want to exercise fine, if not oh well…. I watch Biggest Loser whenever I feel like it on the DVR. I have my scale here, I weigh in whenever I want. I haven’t taken any pictures, but I will sooner or later. I just have a “meh, whatever” attitude and I think it helps.  Small changes are better than none anyway.