I want to give a big shout out to “round” who left some comments that shed light on my issues from another perspective.  Here’s some of what she said:

      “I do understand about you believing all of this is a spiritual issue for you, and that may well be a big part of it, but I wonder if you’re not also demanding perfection of yourself (and then beating yourself up when you fall short?).

      Some weeks getting exercise 2 days a week is a big accomplishment. Try to focus on the good things you DO instead of the distance to perfection.”

Thanks. I did need to hear that. I am very, very hard on myself and not just in the lifestyle arena. I expect myself to do the very best and when I don’t, I sigh and give up. So, I’m sure this is a part of it. But, to me, this is once again tied to my spiritual life b/c I’m depending on myself instead of depending on God. I am aware that I’m hard on myself but I am getting better. I even go to bed with dishes in the sink sometimes which is tantamount to blasphemy for me. I had to have my hubby get on the phone with a friend once and tell her I left dirty dishes in the sink overnight b/c she didn’t believe me when I told her! That’s how bad I was. I know I need to be kinder to myself but with me, the trick is finding the balance: either I’m too hard and expect too much or I’m too easy and “reason” myself right into a gallon of ice cream! So, I need to learn moderation in all things. 

So, that’s it for today. I’m going to get my Bible study done and I think my accountability partner and I are going for a walk after we grill out at their house this evening. Should be perfect weather for it.

Round-thanks again for your encouragment. This is why I love this place; the truth is spoken with love; never judgment; just concern from one sojourner to another. Isn’t great?

Quote of the day:

 Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow; Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead; Walk beside me, and just be my friend.
– Albert Camus