Wow; it’s been a while since I’ve been here! The first thing I want to say is that I love my small town. I know I’ve said this before but I really do. I walked to my bank today and saw a friend I hadn’t seen for a while and we just stood around and talked. Then, as I was walking to Subway to get a healthy lunch-you know-to balance out the donuts I had for breakfast-there was a family eating lunch in the gazebo on the town square. There were people sitting under shade trees in the court yard enjoying the spring weather. It was just nice.  I thought, yep, Americana is alive and well in Kentucky.

Now, on to the diet, or lack thereof, part of this blog. Send out the bat-signal and find me a personal trainer/cook because, holy mackerel, batman, I gained 5.5 pounds! Also, if food had an alcoholic content to it I would have been passed out dead after kneeling in front of the porcelain throne Wednesday I ate so much!

I am really struggling again.  Of course, part of this is because I’m not doing my Bible study. I’m three, I think, days behind. Plus, I’m not exercising; I’ve been twice, I think, this week. Not nearly as much as I need to be exercising. I have things going on with my body that I know would get better, if not completely disappear, if I would lose weight. So, I’m trying to figure out why I cannot break this cycle. I believe it’s a spiritual battle.

I honestly think it is a trust issue. Do I really trust God to be enough? Is God enough? Is Jesus enough? Or do I need to supplement my spiritual diet with overeating in order to feel secure? Of course, logically, I know God/Jesus is-should-be enough. BUT do I trust that enough to really let go? 

I also believe that there is a reason that satan wants to keep me stuck in this cycle. Maybe something that God has planned for my future that I will be recluctant to do or outright be disobedient if I’m overweight.

I’ll tell ya one thing; I don’t want to have a heart attack or a stroke to get my serious about being healthy. I do well for a while and then life closes in and BAM! SOCK-O! BOOM! I’m right back on the rollercoaster again. What do I have to do; let go of; turn from; in order to turn completely away from this sin of gluttony? Maybe that’s the key; calling it sin and not a “weekness” or “it’s just the way I’m made” or ”I’m a big boned girl” but seeing it for the sin it is and realize that this sin is just as much an affront to my Lord and Savior as is the sin of murder. God does not classify sins the way we humans tend to do; it’s all just sin: no big ones or little ones.  

Okay; so, I’m going at it again. I’ll get caught up on my lessons tonight. Seek God’s face for strength; tell my accountability partners to be on their toes and call me out. 
Do my part; let go off food; grab onto God and let Him do the rest.  I’ll let you know how it goes.

 Quote of the day:

You don’t drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there. Author Unknown