Here I am again; starting over. But that’s okay. It’s much better than giving up which is what I usually do when I screw up with my eating and exercising (or lack thereof). Yesterday was my bday. I turned 41 years old and happy to be there, let me tell ya.   :)  Age really doesn’t bother me; it’s just a number and it’s one year closer to heaven. But, I ate until I felt like I was going to pop! Friday night, I kicked out the DH  and we had a girls night here; two of my best friends and my two girls stayed up until around 3:00 a.m. watching chick flicks. (DH and my bro watched he-men, war stuff at bro’s house). Then Saturday we grilled out at my bro’s house and had a great time. But there was so much good stuff and I really did eat too much. Plus, I had an ice cream cake on Friday and a regular cake on Saturday. Way too much food.

Today, however, my best friend and I started doing the Bible study together. I tried to just pick up where I left off last week but felt I needed to start at the get-go again. So, Reese and I started again today and are going to pick a day to meet every week for accountability. Tomorrow, the Y is on my morning schedule. 

This time of year is difficult for me. May 6, 2008 will mark the 8th “anniversary” of my mom’s homegoing. It falls three days after my bday and right before mother’s day so this time of year, on one hand, really sucks. I still miss her something terrible and there are still times that I think about calling her or something. But, she’s in heaven, at peace and whole physically which is something she wasn’t in this life. Since I can remember, my mom was fighting various illnesses with heart failure being her ride to heaven, so to speak.  :)  Pastor preached about heaven today and I’ve been reading the book entitled “Heaven: by Randy Alcorn. I truly don’t know how people cope with loss without the Lord. It brings me great comfort to know that this often times miserable world is not my final destination. I was so grateful for the times I did have with my mom and incredibly thankful for the legacy of faith she left to all of us. If I can be 1/2 a measure of the woman of God that my mom was, I will consider this life a success. I’m also grateful for the good things that God has placed in my life at this time of year to balance the sorrow. My first date with my DH was on May 6, 2002. My bro-in-law rec’d his master’s in May of 2002. One of my friends at church informed me today that she is pregnant. My oldest DD graduated in May of 2007 plus many others.

So, instead of allowing my emotions of missing her dominate my thoughts, I will concentrate on all the good things she gave me. I will do something positive in her memory. I will comfort someone else who is going through the same thing. I will pay it forward. I will allow GOD to comfort me instead of turning to food. And I will rest in the promise that, after I’ve had a while to talk to Jesus and worship my God and savior, I can love on my mom again; never to be separated.

Okay, time to saddle up and read my Bible study again. Have a great day.