Someone left a comment and asked if the junk I devoured Tuesday/Wednesday was in my house. Well, she said it a little nicer than that but same question. :) The answer to that is that the donuts and chips were at work in the kitchen; general public area and up for grabs. The cookie dough, however, was bought very deliberately at the grocery store, eaten on the way home from said store and then the leftovers were thrown away at the gas station. Devious little overeater, aren’t I?
So, totally impulsive overeating. I’m searching and praying for a solution to this issue. So much of this battle is in my mind. Like girlygirl said, we have habits that are so ingrained in us that it’s a constant mental battle to overcome. But it can be overcome. All you have to do is go to the goal posts (hee, hee-goalposts-sorry-football on the brain right now-YEAH GIANTS!!) anway, check it out in the forums; definitely inspiring.
I have confessed this overeating to my sisters, my best friend and here. Maybe between all of us, we can get me and keep me on the right track. Ultimately, though, it’s up to me. I know all the advantages of eating healthy and doing the right thing. But I also know, as mentioned above, that it is a mental battle. Am I prepared to do what it takes to be healthy at all costs? Am I willing to take meds for the rest of my life? Am I willing to accept that if I don’t take care of myself that I will, undoubtedly, have significant heart problems? Loaded questions, eh? And there are no easy answers. You’d think there would be, don’t ya, when you’re talking about living or dying. I know that sounds drastic but the truth is, if I don’t take care of my health problems, it WILL shorten my lifespan. No getting around that little piece of info.
Part of me wants to say, I will succeed. There is no way I’m going to be on meds the rest of my life when I might be able to change it. Another part of me wants to say-stuff it. I’m tired of the constant battle! So, what will I do? For right now, I’m going to pray really, really hard that God will give me the motivation I need. I mean, seriously, Jesus suffered to the point of death b/c he knew it was what needed to be done. Surely, I can “suffer” and get rid of the food that is bogging me down. Surely, I can ask for a change of mind and heart and willpower. Maybe that’s been my problem; maybe I’m not tapping into God’s higher power like I need to. I think I’ll do some reading and more praying and see what God wants to do with me, through me and for me.
For fun: I especially like the last quote. 
‘Beauty’ Quotes:
“Beauty is only skin deep, and the world is full of thin skinned people.” - Richard Armour
“There are no ugly women; there are only women who do not know how to look pretty.” - Antoine P. Berryer
“Looks are so deceptive that people should be done up like food packages with the ingredients clearly labeled.” - Helen Hudson (I really like this one).
“I’m tired of all this nonsense about beauty being only skin-deep. That’s deep enough. What do you want, an adorable pancreas?” - Jean Kerr “The Snake Has All the Lines”
“The reason the all-American boy prefers beauty over brains is that the all-American boy can see better than he can think.” - Farrah Fawcett Majors
You know what thought from the Bible inspired me to put a new spin on my weight loss? Our bodies are God’s temple. So, do I want to take care of this temple that God has given me (to show my appreciation & thanks for life), or do I want it to be like the temple where Jesus overturned the money changers’ tables (full of deceit & excuses as I try to fool myself into thinking that I am healthy)? Of course it goes deeper than that, because I’m trying to work on my part of my relationship with Him, but it’s what helped to spark the desire to take care of myself.
We may have our ups & downs, but if we keep Him involved, it won’t seem like a hopeless journey!
February 7, 2008 @ 11:45 amI have been in your shoes. Eating cookies, cookie dough, ice cream, etc. in large quantities and hiding the empty package so no one knows. I learned this from my mother who has been over weight most of her life. I am currently attempting to lose 50% of myself. I have lost large amounts of weight 3 times in my life only to gain back what I lost, plus more. One thing I have learned is not to dwell on the slip ups. Acknowledge it, learn from it, figure out what can be done to avoid it, and MOVE ON!!! I am currently on day 24 of a journey I have alotted myself 485 days to complete…so far I have had no “Slip ups”. One thing I have done is told myself, “Fine if you want to eat those cookie…work for them!!! Get on the treadmill and walk, FAST for 20 minutes. Then If you still want the cookie go ahead, knock yourself out.” When I got off the treadmill, I didn’t want the cookies. Maybe this will work for you. Just remember the weight didn’t go on in a day, it won’t disappear in day. Don’t Give Up!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
February 7, 2008 @ 1:20 pm