Okay, imagine the best Valerie impression from “Princess Bride” voice. :)  I’m sitting here at work, on break, feeling like a total liar and hypocrite. I just went onto a new web blog and left a comment encouraging them and telling them they can do it and not to give up…. you get the picture; when I myself am struggling-major struggling. I read some of the comments on my blog and think, you know what, I don’t deserve what’s been said to me; about me.  I haven’t exercised since Friday. Today alone, I’ve had a bag of chex mix, a bag of frito’s corn chips and a twix candy bar. So, why am I in this stinky place today? I’m not 100% certain. Part of it is my TOM. I have headaches, migraines sometimes, and am extremely tired (anemic) which sometimes keeps me from exercising like I want to and should. Of course, if you mess up on one part, it’s easier to mess up on another part. Part of it is stress; new work situation, people here I’d like to flog sometimes; you know, the usual work stuff. Part of it is just being afraid to embrace the unknown. At least in my chubbiness, I am familar and comfortable with my surroundings. The last part, I think, is just overcoming medocrity, which ties in to wanting to have one thing in my life that is easy, ya know? Life is hard; just let me eat the chocolate!

So, what do I do about the liar inside me? The one that can encourage and uplift others but cannot or does not do the same for myself? Good question. First, it helps to come here; write it out; see what’s really going on. Second, your encouragement is most helpful and appreciated. Third, I think, I just gotta get over myself.  I have to eat more beef and raisins during TOM for more iron. I gotta at least try to go for a walk during TOM; even if it’s only for 10 minutes so I stay in the habit. I have to start eating to live instead of living to eat. I have to start turning things over to God. I cannot do this by myself. Sometimes I think; okay;  why does God care about my physical being? Because I believe He does.  I mean, He has so many other things to take care of why be concerned if one of His kids is obese? But, then I think about my own kids and how concerned I would be if they were obese; how I would long for them to let me help and to see them reach their full potential in this life. Okay, now I see why God is concerned.

So basically, no more excuses or delays. I am worth the effort. I do deserve the blessings and benefits that come from being healthy. I can do this; especially with God and friends and family supporting me.  I just need to remind myself every day, probably more than once a day, that it’s just for today; stop worrying about tomorrow and take it one day at a time. No more “eeyore” attitude. I wanna be tigger!

Have a great day!