I have completely fallen off the proverbial wagon since Thanksgiving. Eating things that are awful for me, loaded with calories and not exercising. Sincerely need to get back in there and try to move in the right direction again.
I am glad we have the cooler mornings and nights – time to reflect and enjoy all that we have. I am very grateful for my family and friends that I love. It’s nice to sit back and appreciate all the beauty and wonder that surrounds me.
I plan on staying on track this month! I did very well in October and lost almost 15 pounds! The only time I went off plan was when I had a Snickers candy bar for a snack. I weighed the pros and cons. I wanted it. I hadn’t had anything at all that wasn’t on plan in weeks. I figured I would eat way too much of something else trying to fill up the space that wanted the candy bar. I really did weigh the options – it took me fifteen minutes to decide to eat the stinking candy bar. LOL. But I did eat it and had a very light dinner and went to bed that night completely satisfied and happy. It was a nice treat for myself and one that I didn’t feel guilty about because it wasn’t a reaction to a stressful situation, it wasn’t me grabbing the first thing around because I was starving and hadn’t planned my day well . . . it was just me wanting a candy bar for the simple reason that I wanted a candy bar.
It’s a small thing. Not that big of a step in this long journey, but an important one to me.
I weigh less now than I did when I got married!
I can’t remember my exact weight when I got married but I recall it being around 230. I wore a size 22 wedding dress. I can now wear some size 20’s, even though it depends largely on how they are made. Size 18 here I come!!!! And then size 16, and then 14, etc. . . you get the picture!
The scale is ever so slowly creeping down. I have lost almost 11 pounds this month and that’s a good thing but my goal is 15 pounds. It’s so close to the end of the month I seriously doubt that I will make my goal. I haven’t been able to exercise as much as I wanted but maybe if I kick that back up a notch I will get closer to 15 pounds this month. Just feeling a little frustrated right now.
The last few days have been hectic. I have been working on a quilt that I really want to finish soon. My sister-in-law’s mother-in-law (get that?) was in town visiting and she has been sewing for over 50 years. So, she came over to the house for dinner (my not so subtle attempt to get in a sewing lesson)! She ended up showing me a rather quick way to do mitered corners on a quilt and I am so ready to be done with my latest quilt so I can get to the binding and try out my newly acquired skill! Usually I hate the binding because it is so frustrating but I’m armed and ready this time!
My weight has seen an uptick this weekend I think because it’s that TOM. Oh well, I have eaten more or less on plan. Saturday I went over about 200 calories because I made chili and had to have a corn muffin to go with it. It was worth it – so yuMMy!
No treadmill this weekend but I was outside cleaning out the garage – well, it was really helping my husband clean out the garage. I believe I got my exercise in for today doing that. My muscles say I did anyway.
Well, my weight wasn’t so much an issue the last few days. My five year old had a seizure on Monday morning and off we went to the ER only to be admitted to pediatric intensive care. We’ve been there before (he’s had nine brain surgeries). We have spent 72 days there when he was 2 1/2 years old (I practically moved in because I wouldn’t leave my little angel and of those 72 days, I only let my poor husband stay one night). Thank goodness this visit was only overnight. Apparently while having the seizure, his CO2 in his blood became really really elevated so they had to put him on a bipap machine to clear out all the CO2 and replace it with oxygen. My sister who used to be a respiratory therapist (now a nurse) says being on the bipap machine is the equivalent to sticking your head out the window of a car going 60mph – lots of air in.
Anyway his CO2 level went from 88 (really awfully dreadfully bad) to .02 (yay good!) overnight. So, we are home and happy. He didn’t get to eat for 24 hours and he really didn’t like that. He was able to eat this morning and when he tasted the grits he said ‘them grits are good’ and then ‘them eggs are good’. He is developmentally delayed but at 5 he knows the correct way to say what he wanted to say (he can even conjugate verbs- my little angel!) I have an English degree and would normally correct his grammar because I want him to be able to express himself correctly but he was sooo enjoying his food that I just couldn’t bring myself to correct him.
He didn’t complain about not being fed or getting stuck with the iv or getting his little heel pricked for a blood sample or the EEG hooked up to his head, but boy did his ‘loud voice’ come out when they put a bandaid on him. He absolutely HATES them. He will complain until it is removed. Usually, he holds his arm, hand, foot (whatever body part has the distasteful bandaid attached) up and away from him as if it is contagious and says ‘take it off, take it off’. The look on his face is so cute because it’s like he is suffering through this travesty and no one can see how very awful it is. Little ones – they are so adorable. Especially my little one. LOL
Ok so I got soooo much exercise yesterday cleaning my house. My pedometer said over 5k steps. That’s a lot of steps just moving around the house. I scrubbed floors, I cleaned windows, I vacuumed and mopped and dusted and cleaned cabinets and baseboards. Yeah, plenty of exercise.
Today I did the WII (boxing and tennis) for about 30 minutes. My arm is sure to be sore tomorrow from boxing but it was way fun! I am already feeling a little stiff (I exercised a few hours ago) but like I said, I was having fun. I will have to stick to the treadmill tomorrow to give my arms a rest. LOL. Not as fun, but I have to change it up depending on which part is sore from exercise the day before. Maybe one day within the next year, all of my muscles will be accustomed to working and I won’t have to suffer through the day after soreness.
This morning the scales said 238.1. Not too bad. Not great, but hey – a small loss is better than a small gain. I didn’t do so well eating today – it was a crazy day and I was all over the place. This morning I had grits for breakfast (150 cals) and for lunch (if you call grabbing something a 2:30 in the afternoon because I was starving lunch) I had crackers (100 cals) and beef jerky (150 cals) and a wedge of light laughing cow cheese (35 cals). Throw in some gum (15 cals). So 450 calories until dinner at 7:30pm which was (drum roll please) a big fat hamburger AND fries. I’m sorta weird in that I don’t like the middle of the hamburger – I only like the really well done edges but it was a big burger. I DID only have mustard and lettuce on it but still – not so good. The fries probably had 300 cals and the burger had to have at least 400 (the part that I ate). So add my previous 450 to 700 and I had 1150 calories. On plan with the calories but very very very dangerous (old habits die hard). I am stuffed full to the brim and couldn’t eat anything else if I tried which is not a good feeling. I am a sucker for french fries. I should have eaten better through the day and I wouldn’t have been so famished at dinner. Well and good to say that now that my burger and fries and digesting nicely in my full tummy. Can’t beat myself up too much about today. Good thing is 1) I exercised and 2) I didn’t eat too many calories.
It’s actually been longer than 20 days since I began my weight loss journey but I didn’t start this blog until 20 days ago (when I had already lost 12 pounds). My weight this morning is 238.6. Come on down!
I didn’t get on the treadmill last night as I had planned. But I did eat on plan and managed to get all 1200 calories yesterday so YAY for me! TODAY I WILL EXERCISE!
It’s a very long story but yesterday I learned that my five year old special needs child is being discriminated against at school for his disabilities. It is evident he is not getting an education at the school that he attends. As you can imagine, I was very distraught. Instead of getting on the treadmill last night, I spent my time filing complaints with The Office of Civil Liberties, the school Superintendent, the ACLU, the US Department of Education, the state Department of Education, and Senator Isakson. For obvious reasons, I don’t feel guilty about not getting on the treadmill last night. My son is the most important thing in my life, by far.
My weigh in this morning was 339.3! Yay! I made it out of the 40’s. Yesterday would have been a good day to have all those comfort foods I love but I managed to avoid them and eat on plan (even if I didn’t exercise).
I have in-laws coming tomorrow so I took the day off to clean up the house. I should get PLENTY of exercise scrubbing floors and windows.
Off to get ready for work. . . will try to do the treadmill tonight. Hopefully I won’t be too tired from work!