Lemondropz

who would have thought becoming pregnant was this much work. Taking prenatals, taking ovulation tests, checking cerivcal mucus, and not to mention figuring out when the right time to do the baby dance is.

So far… i dont know if i ovulated yet at all. I had my period from Feb 20-22 (3 days). I started my clomid on feb 24th. I did a calculater that said i was suppose to ovulate on the 5-10 of march sometime. I checked the whole cervical mucas and it said before ovulation its suppose to be like egg whites and stringy (check). I started taking an ovulation test every morning for the next 7 days yesterday. No on ovulation yesterday or today (although my gunk says i should be soon) Doc says to do the baby dance every other day. Im trying to not stress it. But when you want a little one so bad you already started clearing out a room its really hard to be patent. Esp when the doc says that i could possibly be suffering from infertility issues. It hits really close to home. My grandmother was a strong women. She got pregnant 13 times. She went through 9 miscarriages, 3 still borns, and finally my uncle was born. (in the process she adopted my dad and aunt… dont get me wrong she loved them with all her heart) Its weird how the looming infertility issues makes me think of and miss my grandmother even more.

The road we women travel is hard. Esp since infertility can make you feel like a failure as a women. I’ve felt that sting and I’m only 25 (going to be 26 soon)

Who would have thought I’d be excited to pay bills? Tomorrow we are getting paid as well as our federal check is coming in. Which means bills are getting paid off. Savings is climbing! And everything is going great.

My birthday is 6 days away. I have a doctors apt on March 24th to see if I’m preggers.

For my birthday we are going to my favorite bar (because they serve the best wings ever!) Of course I’m not drinking.

Hubby and I are seriously discussing moving closer to my family. My dad and step mom are a great support. Plus i miss being able to go to family functions. Being an hour away from my family is just not a good thing anymore. I will graduate college hopefully by july. I have one more class after this semester which I will be taking over the summer. I might be able to walk in May! woohoo!!

So today after about a year and six months its finally happened…. I GOT MY PERIOD!!!! Everything is going so amazingly well also. With our tax return this year we are going to be down to 2 credit cards to pay off instead of 7! We have started putting 10% of all of our income into a savings account which will only be used for 2 things. A house or a baby (which ever comes first).

I am so ecstatic about my period. OMFGs!!! I have been waiting and waiting and its finally here! Which means now we can really start trying for a baby. The doctor put me on Clomid so I will start taking that on Feb 24th (hubby’s bday) and I can possibly conceive March 9-14 (March 10th being my bday) I know i am getting my hopes up way to high. The possibility of me conceiving on the first month are extremely improbable. I can still dream cant I?

First and formost my new years resolution will be to be credit card debt free by the end of the year. Towards the end of last year we did a decent job of paying off 3 of our credit cards. We have 5 more to go and I am really optimistic about it. I figure if we were credit card debt free we will be able to pay off hubbys student loans that much faster. We are paying the bills from lowest to highest.

My second new years resolution is to eat and snack healther. I figure if i want chocolate might as well make it a chocolate covered strawberry (just kidding….. sorta) My shopping list now includes seedless grapes, apples, cantalopes, seedless oranges, and salad. I’m hoping that will give me a boost and the motivation to pick a healthy snack. It just sucks that those things go bad so quickly.

My third is to graduate college this year…. nough said! LOL

My 4th and last new years resolution is to cut out most if not all of my soda intake. I think so far this week Sun-today I had maybe 3 gulps of a soda from my husband. Besides that I have been drinking my water with the liptons green tea packets in it (I hate plain water.. this is the only way I will drink it)

Happy Xmas to all you who celebrate it!

Last night I was bad. It was a slip up. I instantly regretted it. I didnt even enjoy it. I ate theater nachos (the supreme kind) It made me sick to my tummy within 30min. I also had some godiva chocolate (which i can not bring myself to regret) I paid for it this morning by not losing as much as the scale said yesterday.

It was however a sucessful loss week. I am down 6.2lbs. Now all i want for xmas is to not gain next week! LOL think santa can get me that from his bag of goodies?

Ok sorry for making this so short. The zoo wishes to  be feed. Have a great Holiday everyone!

I just bravely published my before pics (after much serious debate!) Now I’m off to read why french women don’t get fat.

Last night hubby did eat in the car and i had a bag of 100 cal popcorn instead. Crisis averted! (doesnt mean i wasnt grumpy though)

Last nights presents where really cute. Hubby bought me a SNUGGIE! AND ITS PINK!!! He also got me the latest harry potter movie! He loved his presents I got him the something something something dark side (family guy) and we watched it right away. And also the new mario game from wii. Tonight we will exchange our last presents to each other and our socks (lol our stalkings)

Woke up this morning to the cat having redecorated the kitchen with all the garbage that i had asked hubby to take out last night.  Oh well hubby did clean it up…. and when he came inside he drapped mud all over the floor which i will have to clean up LOL Hubby can be so absentminded sometimes.

Ok so tomorrow is the offical WI but its really looking good. I am now down to 279.2. Thats almost 10lbs in 1 week. HOLY MOLY!!!

I currently feel like i want to binge eat right now. I know it will do no good. I know I’ll regret it tomorrow. But I seriously want the wendys $2.99 meal.  The chicken with bacon on it one.  Thats actually exactly what hubby is eating for dinner. Maybe I’ll ask for a bite. I know if i ask for one ill want to eat it all. I have this weird image in my head of me turning into a crazed woman and basically ripping it out of hubbys hands.

Trying sooo hard to resist….. but my tummy is yelling at me! Maybe ill call hubby and tell him to eat it in the car before he comes inside. THATS an Idea! I just did all the calculations and the meal thats only $2.99 is 770cal (without the soda) and a grand total of 18 weight watchers points!!! HOLY CRAP!!!!

i still want it :0/

Bon Jovi\’s single \’We Weren\’t Born To Follow\’

This one goes out to the man who minds the miracles
This one goes out the ones in need
This one goes out the sinner and the cynical
This ain’t about no apology
This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry
This road was paved by the winds of change
Walking beside the guilty and the innocent
How will you raise your hand when they call your name?

Yea, Yea, Yea,
We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
In that saints and sinners bleed
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yea, Yea, Yea, ooooohhh Yea

This ones about anyone who does it differently
This ones about the one who doesn’t sit and spits
This ain’t about our living in a fantasy
This ain’t about giving up or giving in

Yea, Yea, Yea,
We weren’t born to follow
Come on and get up off your knees
When life is a bitter pill to swallow
You gotta hold on to what you believe
Believe that the sun will shine tomorrow
In that saints and sinners plea
We weren’t born to follow
You gotta stand up for what you believe
Let me hear you say
Yea, Yea, Yea, ooooohhh Yea

Last night hubby gave me canvas and paint brushes. He knows I love to paint. I can’t wait to get started.
Todays weight was down .4lbs Eating has been OP since the diet started on the 17th. So far I am down 7.4lbs all together. Thats pretty darn good for only dieting for 5 days. The first week always drops the fastest.
I am going to finish buying presents for hubby today. I already know what I want to get him. 2 more presents. One for tonight and one for tomorrow night. Christmas eve is the main present. I cant wait for him to open it!
My best friends birthday is tomorrow. Shes turning 24. But I will always be a year older. Sigh… what is up with everyone being younger then me LOL
I still dont feel quite in the holiday spirit yet. Maybe its because I’m not done shopping or wrapping. Maybe it will hit me xmas eve when we are at my dads house. I don’t know but I hope it hits soon.
Have a great day everyone.