Its getting really annoying!

I walk alot more now but i also eat out alot more too. With no fridge or working stove theres alot less options on what to eat. I think im staying about the same though.

Still no baby news. No TOM, no baby, no nothing. I strongly do NOT wish depo on anyone.

Finger surgery hasnt happened yet. Im still waiting for workmans comp to approve it. After that i will be out of my hated job for 2 weeks. Then i have to go back for 2 weeks of light duty. And if everything goes right i will be all healed then. So i have about a month and a half left of working in that hellhole.

Its exhausting cuz right now i am working about 46 hours a week between my 2 jobs and that isnt including the babysitting i do for my friend on the side every other week. Im happy because money is actually ok for this month. There is still not enough to put in savings so we can move but there is enough to pay the bills. Oh and get this I told my dad how busy my schedule was and he goes oh well you should hook up with a maid service and clean houses on the side. I was so pissed. I already work 46 hours a week. I barely have the time to clean my own house let alone someone elses.The only reason hes pushing so hard is because he wants to raise the rent in sept by $150 more a month and then he wants to double it in January. I understand that hes giving us a discount by living here and i understand that he needs to pay the bills. But by us living here we cant claim that we pay rent so we cant get state aid for housing and we cant claim rent to get us more money food and such. We can barely afford to pay the rent that we are paying now. We cant afford to move because hubby cant really find a job and we dont have enough money to save for the moving van or the security deposit on a new apartment in Hartford, Ct (rent is alot cheaper there) We currently live about and hour away towards the NY border.  

My dad however did buy hubby a car. So hubby isnt as limited in the search area as he was before with job searching. This is Hubbys first car and its an 88 honda accord. It takes a while to get it started and we need to buy new tires for it but it runs. My dad paid about $325 for it and put about $1,000 worth of work into it. We are extremely grateful for it (although i believe its mainly to make himself feel less guilty about raising the rent). I know now that hubby has a car my dad is going to hunt us down even more about job searches. He told me the other day he expects us to have if not a full time and a part time job each then to have at least 3 part time jobs each.

On the diet front…. well ive decided to give it a go again. I am offically back into a size 22/24 pants. I now weigh 264 pounds as of this morning. I want to be back down to 225. So today starts diet day. Although it is extremely hard to be on a diet when all you can eat is pasta and pb&j sandwiches. Thats all we have in the house until next month when we get more money from food stamps (10 days away)

Its been a while. Hubby and I havent fought since our last big one. Well life has been interesting. Hubby and I are on food stamps. We are finally eating more the pasta and pbandjs!!! And with food comes great responcabilty. I weigh 263. I need to really get back on track. No eating outside the times of eating time. Landlord is raising the rent to $800 so hubby and I are looking harder into moving to Hartford, CT (where his family is) Hubby still doesnt have a job. But he does have an interview on monday. I have hand surgery on monday also. I start my new job tuesday (and hopefully can quit my job the same day since they are going to fire me anyway as soon as workmans comp is over. They are really trying to torture me. Yelling at me and blaming me for stupid little things or even things i didnt do! He had me pulling weeds without gloves… IN THE RAIN! I really just want to quit as soon as workmans comp allows.

Also we have stay baby kittens. They are all grey with blue eyes. And of course there was one that was all black with blue eyes. We are keeping him. We named him Midnight. He is so adorable and playful. They are about 7 weeks old. They remind me of little mechanical cats. Theres one grey one that i bonded with also. Hes the biggest one. We called him Rolly Polly . Come monday the kittend that we cant get homes for are going to a shelter and i really dont want to part with rolly polly. Monday is a biggg day. Hand surgery, interview, and kittens leaving. 

Honestly I cant wait for the kittens to leave. My house is a zoo right now. 1 fish, 2 dogs, and 5 cats/kittens.

Ok thats it for now. Hope everyone else is doing well!

This week has been really stressful. We have a total of $2 in the bank. I almost thought that we wouldnt make the bills this month. We cashed in our savings bonds. It was really close. Hubby has a job interview on Wednesday. I really really hope he gets it. Everyone please send positive thoughts our way.

I’m starting to get my body baby ready. I realized i really deperatly need to lose 55 pounds before i get preggers. I’ve started taking folic Acid (because i read you were suppose to) I know I need to eat less and move more. I just can’t seem to get motivated enough to do it.

Work now has me down to 17 hours a week. I applied to a night job back at stop and shop (the first job i ever had) which means hubby and i are averaging $1060 a month before taxes. Rent is $650 Credit Card debt is about 400 a month (min payments) that leaves 10 for grocerys and everything else.

My best friend is also in major bill trouble. She doesnt have electricity so yesterday i had her come over and let her and her children take showers and do laundry. (our electricity is included in our rent) The economy is really hurting everyone. It sucks soooo bad

Ok well today im doing some laundry and trying to pick up my room.

I am also going to work on my next painting. Im thinking about becoming a kindergarden art teacher. It def sounds like something i could do. :0) Although with the money problems the move is in jepordy and so is my going back to college for my ECE associates. (early childhood education)

I’m around. I haven’t left completely. Still dont like blogging here.

I’m currently on vaca in Newport R.I. I’ll prolly update more tomorrow when I get back.

Hope everyone is doing well!!!!

On the diet front.. i started out on tuesday weighing 250. Today is friday and i weight 243. So in 4 days ive dropped 7lbs. I love the first week of dieting. Although unrealistic the weight drop is amazing and an ego/ motivation booster. Today is my treat day so hubby and i are going to subway for lunch.  I went on the diet again because i want to be in the 100s. Also i saw that i was getting a double chin again. I hate my wedding pictures because they were taken when i was at my heaviest (270lbs). I actually want to renew our vows again in 10-15 years and look amazingly hott LOL

I convinced hubby to wait on getting a car. Although we desperately need one we need to pay off some defalted credit cards first becuase its really hurting hubbys credit and by the fault mine. We are 8k in debt. Which doesnt sound like alot but hubbys student loans are going to hit in Dec cuz he graduates next month and thats going to make us 32k in debt… and we only make 32k a year combined! I am so stressed by fianances. Hubby doesnt even realize cuz i take care of everything. I have sat him down and told him how it is but he just cant seem to get the magnitude of the situation.

My new goal is to be 200 by the time we start trying to have a baby… which will be sometime in December. So i need to lose 50lbs in a little over 8 months.

Hubby and i are doing fine. Today is day 7 of straight up “fun” everyday. It really is working. We are so much closer. We even do it more then once a day sometimes. And i have to say there has not been a day where i didnt want to.

Money is still a major issue. We owe so much and there is not enough money coming in at all.