Lemondropz

It’s yule and time for hubby and I to start our holiday traditions. Hes so sweet last night he gave me the DVD Alvin and the Chipmunks. We are going to see the squeakquel wed night when it comes out! I got him a cologne he wanted. Hubby and I open 1 present a night from each other until the main gift on Christmas eve. Then Christmas Eve we give each other our main gifts and open stalkings from each other also. The zoo gets to open their stalkings too (yes our puppies and kitten gets a stalking every year) That night we head down to see my aunts and uncles as well as sleep over my Dads house with our 2 dogs. Kitten stays home. Christmas morning we do my favorite part! Spend time with my family. Its usually my Dad, step mom, her ex husband, my brother, my 2 step brothers, and my step grandmother. (along with their 2 dogs!) Of course my youngest step brother always wants to open all the presents right away. He goes sneaking around the tree looking for the pickle ornament. My dad always makes my favorite banana/chocolate chip pancakes. My goal is to eat 1 small one (his small ones are a little bit bigger then normal sized LOL) After all the present opening and breakfast eating is done hubby and I usually pack it in so we can see his side of the family (If they are doing anything for that year, usually not though) We stop by each of there houses and give them their presents. Last year his mom got me Holy Water. ummm yea it was really akward but i said thank you. It was a nice though i guess if i were that religion. (She doesnt know what religion I am)

Ok on to the diet front…
Since Thursday I have lost EIGHT POUNDS! This has convinced me that it was all the medication I was on that had me gain so much weight. NO ONE loses 8lbs in 4 days! And I still have most of the week left to go! I guess I’ll truely consider myself losing weight when I hit 274. That was what I weighed when I went to the doctors last on Nov 17th. I know there was something wrong when I started the diet on Dec 17th and realized I had gained 15lbs in almost a month.

I just really hate mean spirited people! UGH I’m really upset from the recent unwanted comments about my past posts. Do people really realize how much their hurtful comments effect other people? Enough of that. Maybe shes having a bad day about something and feels the need to lash out at someone. I dont know. Theres a reason for everything and I forgive her for her cruelty towards me.

Ok so anyway on with the update.

As I said before hubby and I are doing well. I’m graduating college in May. He graduated last year and got a great job. Bills are being paid off and money is being saved. We have health insurance so I am finally figuring out why I’m not concieving. Doc put me on meds to help me control the PCOS along with the weight. It is extremely working! I have lost 5lbs in the past 2 days (unoffically) I am getting excited. We havent been trying for a baby but we took the if it happens it happens approch. I was on depo so I knew it wouldnt happen for a while. (didnt mean that i couldnt hope) And now being diagnosed with PCOS I know it wont happen for a long time. Which is really heart breaking to me. My husband and I actually have a plan in place. Now the baby part of the plan will have to be put on hold until it happens. I guess it will give us a chance to get some of hubbys student loans paid off. (luckily i dont have any!) We are lucky in the fact that we have less debt then most people. I have to admit that living with my MIL for those 3 months helped out. Although living with her almost drove me to the bottle. LOL come to think of it I havent had and liquer in 6 months. I have to be really careful since alcholism runs in the family.

Life is going good in our little apartment. Its amazing that we are on our own, married, and so blissfully happy.

All thats missing is for me to be healthy and then maybe the pitter patter of little feet :0)

My responce to your first comment off.. I know this is old, and I haven’t read further, but at the time of this post, you are saying that u are trying to get pregnant, but you have only 2 dollars in your account!!!!!!!! Are you OK???? Do u believe that you can raise a baby on no money?????????? On welfare? I am disgusted that u would say u have 2 dollars and are trying to bring a baby into that. Get yourself settled first. Grow up. Please.

I do believe in the post i said that i was trying to get my body baby ready. Im sorry if you misinterprated that the wrong way. I believe I have alot of weight to lose and at that point I wanted to make sure i was healthy enough to have a baby sometime in the future. We were at that point having a tough time financally as was most of the united states.

to your second comment of..Your dad seems to do everything for you. I am not trying to be mean, but why the hell can’t u and your guy do anything for yourself, sounds like a bunch of lazy-ass excuses.

yes you are being mean. And I do realize my dad does alot for us. We appriciate everything he has done.

your 3rd comment… ABSOLUTELY disgusting that you are trying to have a baby when you can’t afford a fridge. Are u f’ing serious??? So f’ing selfish!!!! Think of what u will be bringing a baby into. So sad!

it was my mother in laws apartment. We bought a mini fridge SHE didnt get a fridge because it was the land lords responcablity.

And I find it absolutely disgusting that you could half read someones blog and be so mean spirited and basically a bitch. If you had read what was actually writen instead of half reading it and filling in the blanks yourself you might not look like an ass right now. I wish I knew of a way to block your comments and just you in general from my blog. Please do not comment again because your comments are NOT appricated or wanted.

Thanks

well anyway as i said before i havent talked to my mom in about 8 months. I sent her a holiday card and in it i put a $25 gift card. I wrote that i hope her and her boyfriend have a great date night together.

I got a card from her back. Inside the card was a USED gift card to sears. I am greatful she gave me something i guess. But i cant help but be a lot insulted also. 1. there was no thought in the gift. I didnt care if she gave me a $5 cheap thing as long as she had put some thought in it. I understand if she didnt have the money to buy me anything. But she could have at least taken the gift card and bought me something with it instead of just throwing it in a card and mailing it to me. I told hubby that maybe she thought that since we moved into a new apartment we might need something from sears. Hubby thinks I give her way to much credit.

Anyway If i didnt write it before im writing it down now

Diet offically started on 12/17/09 weighing in at 289. Offical weigh in days will be thursdays.

Well last month I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. Just another huge stumbling block along the way.

I now weigh 289. My highest ever! I started my diet yesterday and over night I lost 3lbs.

I hate this blog set up.I miss my journals. Oh and ps I never had my journals emailed to me after 3 requests sent. Now I think they are lost forever.

OK so heres whats going on. I just read my last post and realized its been way to long since i updated. Here are the basics.

I got laid off of my job and went on unemployment

got my finger surgery and everything went well. Theres barely a scar.

hubby and i moved to Hartford, CT

Hubby got a new job with Verizon Wireless. They are an excellent company to work for with benefits and great pay.

I went to school this semseter and ended up dropping out because i missed so many classes from doctors vists and all the medication i was on

Still havent talked to my mom and its been 8 months

Im going to school next semester and hopefully graduating by May

still no baby and now with being told i have pcos i dont think theres going to  be one anywhere in the near future. Which makes me really depressed.

Good evening. …happiness gives us the energy which is the basis of health.
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Its getting really annoying!

We are officailly moved to hartford,ct. I started school about a week ago and i am exhausted. Living with my mother in law is interesting. No internet (except the little bit that i hack into from an unsecure network), No fridge (except the mini fridge we bought), No cable ( we are just watching dvds). We are living with 3 cats and 2 dogs. Our life is so hectic. Hubby got a pre offer for a job but they all of a sudden asked him for all this paper work to prove his background so we had to find it all in the middle of moving. Which in turn pushed his tenitive start date back 2 weeks. So now we are $1,150 short in the hole.

I walk alot more now but i also eat out alot more too. With no fridge or working stove theres alot less options on what to eat. I think im staying about the same though.

Still no baby news. No TOM, no baby, no nothing. I strongly do NOT wish depo on anyone.

Its been almost 5 months since ive talked to my mom. It makes me kinda sad that shes missing out on so much. She knows nothing about whats going on and its her own fault. Our relationship is just a really toxic one. The reason why we havent talked for that long is because i finally gave up and decided that since our relationship was so one sided (me always calling her and babying her to the point where i was the mother) i wanted to see what she would do if i just didnt call her. The result is that we havent talked in 5 months. I totally just feel like i dont have a mother at all.

Finger surgery hasnt happened yet. Im still waiting for workmans comp to approve it. After that i will be out of my hated job for 2 weeks. Then i have to go back for 2 weeks of light duty. And if everything goes right i will be all healed then. So i have about a month and a half left of working in that hellhole.

Its exhausting cuz right now i am working about 46 hours a week between my 2 jobs and that isnt including the babysitting i do for my friend on the side every other week. Im happy because money is actually ok for this month. There is still not enough to put in savings so we can move but there is enough to pay the bills. Oh and get this I told my dad how busy my schedule was and he goes oh well you should hook up with a maid service and clean houses on the side. I was so pissed. I already work 46 hours a week. I barely have the time to clean my own house let alone someone elses.The only reason hes pushing so hard is because he wants to raise the rent in sept by $150 more a month and then he wants to double it in January. I understand that hes giving us a discount by living here and i understand that he needs to pay the bills. But by us living here we cant claim that we pay rent so we cant get state aid for housing and we cant claim rent to get us more money food and such. We can barely afford to pay the rent that we are paying now. We cant afford to move because hubby cant really find a job and we dont have enough money to save for the moving van or the security deposit on a new apartment in Hartford, Ct (rent is alot cheaper there) We currently live about and hour away towards the NY border.  

My dad however did buy hubby a car. So hubby isnt as limited in the search area as he was before with job searching. This is Hubbys first car and its an 88 honda accord. It takes a while to get it started and we need to buy new tires for it but it runs. My dad paid about $325 for it and put about $1,000 worth of work into it. We are extremely grateful for it (although i believe its mainly to make himself feel less guilty about raising the rent). I know now that hubby has a car my dad is going to hunt us down even more about job searches. He told me the other day he expects us to have if not a full time and a part time job each then to have at least 3 part time jobs each.

On the diet front…. well ive decided to give it a go again. I am offically back into a size 22/24 pants. I now weigh 264 pounds as of this morning. I want to be back down to 225. So today starts diet day. Although it is extremely hard to be on a diet when all you can eat is pasta and pb&j sandwiches. Thats all we have in the house until next month when we get more money from food stamps (10 days away)

Hey Ladies!

Its been a while. Hubby and I havent fought since our last big one. Well life has been interesting. Hubby and I are on food stamps. We are finally eating more the pasta and pbandjs!!! And with food comes great responcabilty. I weigh 263. I need to really get back on track. No eating outside the times of eating time. Landlord is raising the rent to $800 so hubby and I are looking harder into moving to Hartford, CT (where his family is) Hubby still doesnt have a job. But he does have an interview on monday. I have hand surgery on monday also. I start my new job tuesday (and hopefully can quit my job the same day since they are going to fire me anyway as soon as workmans comp is over. They are really trying to torture me. Yelling at me and blaming me for stupid little things or even things i didnt do! He had me pulling weeds without gloves… IN THE RAIN! I really just want to quit as soon as workmans comp allows.

Also we have stay baby kittens. They are all grey with blue eyes. And of course there was one that was all black with blue eyes. We are keeping him. We named him Midnight. He is so adorable and playful. They are about 7 weeks old. They remind me of little mechanical cats. Theres one grey one that i bonded with also. Hes the biggest one. We called him Rolly Polly . Come monday the kittend that we cant get homes for are going to a shelter and i really dont want to part with rolly polly. Monday is a biggg day. Hand surgery, interview, and kittens leaving. 

Honestly I cant wait for the kittens to leave. My house is a zoo right now. 1 fish, 2 dogs, and 5 cats/kittens.

Ok thats it for now. Hope everyone else is doing well!

Hubby didnt get the job. Hes been applying to about 6 jobs a day and so far no call back. This means we might not be able to move. I really want to move. Its a complete fresh start with me with college and living on my own. Theres no money for anything. I havent been able to even think of dieting. I have however started loving myself the way i am. Im reading this book called body sacred. Its about loving yourself and not worrying about societys view of big girls. Theres also the flip side where if your not happy being a big girl (if you your self is truely unhappy and not because of other people or influences) then you change yourself the right way by eating foods that you enjoy… like if you love strawberrys eat them! enjoy them! savor them!