I’m sorry guys, I’m the worst blogger ever. I have had so much going on recently.
sitting pretty at 172 again. I think my body just plain likes it here. Am starting to come to terms with that.
I think my self perception is really out of whack. People describe me as being thin but curvy and I just don’t know how to handle that. I almost feel better when somebody tells me my ass looks fat in that skirt. (or whatever)
I think this could be a problem.
I basically had a big freaking piece of cheesecake for lunch.
The holidays stress me out at work. A lot.
Stress makes me want to eat. A lot.
I work around baked goods.
So I just wanted to get that out of the way. My weight this morning was 165.4 which means I’m .4 lbs away from saying i’ve officially lost 80 lbs, but what the hell.
I’VE LOST 80 LBS!!!!!!!!!!!
I fully expect the number to be up a little bit tomorrow. Maybe my butt to be a little fatter. I looked thin today but I felt fat after my cheesecake lunch.
I do have good news though. DH and I went clothes shopping today (for him) and he now wears a size 38 pant (note: we just donated some of his old size 42s,44s, and even a pair of 46s) and a 16 1/2 dress shirt. I’m so proud of him. Anyway we were at JC Penney and they were having a sale on ladies jeans so I grabbed a pair of 10s and a pair of 8s to try on just to see. I tried on the 10s. Fit pretty well. little bit roomy. What the hell, I’ll try on the 8s.
The 8s fucking fit.
I’m a size fucking 8.
I can’t even handle that.
We went out for dinner to celebrate. I had a big hunk of grilled chicken and green beans and mashed potatos and salad and a little bit of bread. This place deep fries their garlic bread. It’s WEIRD. It tastes like a garlicky donut. I didn’t like it all that much.
Then I cleaned and organized all my kitchen cabinets. Yay!
I have such a headache and I know it will only get worse the longer I stay here typing random crap about my day. Goodnight chickies.
I was back to my low of 167 on saturday but I flew to Long Island NY to visit a friend of mine and well suffice it to say I had one really bad day today as far as my diet goes. But I think it’ll be okay, my calories were well under pretty much every other day last week so I should bounce back pretty quickly.
Inkheartmeg pointed out that I hadn’t told you guys I’d somewhat revived my old blog. DH started it for me when I got pregnant cause he thought i might like to blog about the experience but somewhere between exhaustion and wanting to eat everything I pretty much abandoned it. It’s much more life-in-general-centric than this blog and I suppose at some point these two blogs may merge but for now I’m kind of keeping them seperate. If you’re interested, it’s located here http://ashblog.rmlawrence.org
I’m gonna hit the hay cause I have another long day of flights ahead of me tomorrow but I just wanted to let you girls know I’m okay. And I still miss Sterling.