Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

Sooo, it’s been 3 days since I’ve weighed. I had a really good day yesterday, except for the exercise which I never got around to , so I really wanted to weigh in this morning, but resisted.

Got up this morning and ran with the baby. Only 1.5 miles and then a 1 mile walk. I felt good that I did at least something especially since I really didn’t feel like it.

I think *knock on wood* this will be a good food day, I’ve planned it out, so cross your fingers for me!

 What is wrong with me? It’s cold I know, but that’s not a good excuse anymore. Time to bundle baby up, pull out the old stroller and get going. Still wishing I could go without the stroller, though. I have seriously been considering putting baby in a “mother’s morning out” program so I could run/do errands/clean while he’s there. I am going to check into that today, as a matter of fact.

Eating was terrible yesterday. I’ve come to the conclusion that I can no longer be trusted with peanut butter. I’ve been buying the organic kind made without hydrogenated oils, but usually when I go over my calories it’s for something sweet. I had 2 pb  and honey sandwiches in a row last night right before I went to bed. I have to say, I know why eating before bed feels so good. I always feel like I could just drift off to sleep after eating a big carby meal at night. Pitiful, isn’t it?

Ok, new plan for today: If I feel like eating, go and clean or scrapbook instead. I’ll update about my run later.

I’ve decided not to weigh myself for one month. Or at least I am challenging myself to weigh myself for one month. I’ve always been a scale lover, especially since I’ve got this great accurate scale, but lately I’ve been finding myself disenchanted with it. Perhaps it’s the stall in weight loss. Of course, the cause of the weight loss is that I’ve been going over my calories, so I have a theory that maybe if I am not sure that I’m at least maintaining, I won’t cheat as much (did that make a lick of sense?).

So, I’ve christened this the “No Weigh!” Challenge and it starts today. I will weigh myself on March 27, one month from now. I figure either way I will gain something from it. Either I will learn that I really don’t need to weigh myself everyday to lose weight or that I need to in order to at least keep myself under control.

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“Saving” my calories until later in the day is not working out like I’d hoped. I’m still eating a lot more earlier in the day than I’d like.  Still have that to work on!

I did not workout yesterday, it was a planned rest day. I was pretty achy all over, so I think I really needed that rest. Today, so far, I’ve done 30 minutes of The Firm with weights. One day I will make it all the way through lol. I hope to go for a 2 mile run later today. I hope it’s not as cold as it was yesterday.

It’s 9:30 at night and I’m so hungry I could gnaw my hand off and eat it.

Instead of eating , however, I am going to post here.

I really need to stop eating so many of my calories early in the day. I think that’s why I always end up starving/binging at night. So, tomorrow, light breakfast and then I think baby and I will go out and go to the museum and the park to take my mind off food. We’ll get back, have lunch or a snack, and then take a nap. I really need to get back to planning my meals too. I still count the calories, but I’m kind of just flying by the seat of my pants.

Well off to bed before that peanut butter and honey sandwich calls my name one more time.

Just popping in to say that I ran 4 miles today.

I completely forgot to report about my 5k report. Well it was cold and raining and it went terribly. There were tons of hills and ya’ll know how I hate those. I ended up having to walk up some of the hills. Came in at 38:40? I think. Also, they ran out of tshirts in my size when I got there, so I got stuck with a Medium…from last year’s race. The worst part is my thin best friend, who had totally slacked off running, finished before me and won a prize drawing for a 20 dollar gift certificate for a local restaurant.  Yes, I’m being petty, but it just sucks that I can’t beat someone who couldn’t even run 2 miles before the race. I’m pretty sure it’s because she’s much thinner than me. No, I’m not going to be stupid about it, but these are my feelings and I can’t help how I feel. Anyhow, I feel much better about it.

Today: Ran 2.5 miles around my neighborhood with the stroller. I’m normally against that, but it was early in the morning, nice and quiet. I probably saw 3 cars total and a lot of walkers out. Unfortunately, my child, who never utters a peep in the stroller except to say “Yum” (for his snacks) or “Duck” (for the bird, not the verb) decided to pitch a fit about a mile from home. I’d planned to do 3 miles, but had to shortcut it back to the house because he started getting pretty angry. I guess he doesn’t like neighborhood strolls? Also, I never noticed how hilly my neighborhood is.They aren’t nearly as bad in my car!

Tonight I also did about 30 minutes of Firm Bootcamp. My gosh, I couldn’t keep up with some of it. I really like it though and my abs are hurting already. I always wonder what my abs look like under all that fat…maybe one day i will find out, if the saggy skin isn’t covering it by then. I also played about 15 minutes of DDR. Now I’m ready for bed!! Eating was pretty good today. I hope to go for a 5 mile run tomorrow when DH watches the baby. I may go before he wakes up though and just do it with the stroller, he has been working pretty hard lately.

Cross your fingers that my little one sleeps through the night again, it was heavenly last night. I forgot how nice it was!

Thanks for the lovely comments about my progress pic.

I’ve been a little ill the last couple of days. Twice I tried to run and just couldn’t do what I wanted, so I walked instead. Today I did 2 miles on the hilly course. I went to do groceries afterwards and saw The Firm Bootcamp and decided to get it. It’s pretty intense. I like it. I did some of that when I came home and put the baby to bed. I didn’t do the whole thing, but I know it will give me a real challenge.

I’d been doing so well with the eating, but got a little down in the dumps yesterday and ate about 400 cals more than I should’ve. Of course the scale over-reacted with a 3lbs gain. The scale can be such a drama queen sometimes!

Brief progress picture. I am 192 in this picture. Very little progress from the last picture I took, but progress all the same. And of course there’s my pic from when I started taking pictures.

And my size 10s! I want to be a size 8 and pronto. I want to try on my clothes in my closet and instead of seeing tons of clothes that are too small for me, I want them to swamp me. I want to have to RUN to the store tomorrow and buy tons of size 8s and maybe even a few 6s and go wow, look, these actually fit me!! I want to have sexy legs, perky boobs, and a flat tummy that make people do a double take. I want to run so fast in my races that I win every single one and when I don’t I still look good doing it.

Ok, back to reality, time to stop whining. I just had to get that out.

I’ll make a real post later.

Weight today: Down to 192.6!

Body fat percentage: 37%

Yay! AF arrived last night (A Valentine’s Day Curse??) so hopefully the weight will continue to come off. I think baby and I will go out and do a few errands today and then I’ll do some yoga/stretching while he is napping.  I made some spaghetti sauce yesterday with tons of zucchini, tomato chunks, mushrooms and carrots in it, so all I need to do it cook some whole grain spaghetti and I will be set for eating today. Well I guess I can’t have it for breakfast, so shredded wheat for breakfast.

Nothing much to post about today, as you can see. I hope that I can beat my last tomorrow at the race. I will post when I get back from it.

Have a great weekend everyone!!