Leeda: Running in a Fat Suit

to my son. I look at kids now and they are overweight everywhere. I live in Mississippi, so maybe I see more than average, but my God, why are we doing this to our children? I remember when I was little, I was given cupcakes, and brownies everyday, and sometimes, more than once a day. I drank soda like it was nothing. Tv for 7-8 hours a day. How crazy is that? I look at Lucas and think, how could I ever do that to him? Sure, he would be happy while it was going on, but later on, like when he is my age, the weight will start to come, or worst, he will be among the overweight kids who have a 1 in 3 chance of having adult onset diabetes in their 20s. I don’t want that for him. I am tired of people saying, oh he can have a little cake or ice cream, or something about me being a new mom. They don’t understand that this is an epidemic that is harming our children. Now, I know that one or two occasional sweets is not going to kill him, but this is my time to train his palate, while he is young, and I’m not going to mess it up.

Ok rant over.

One of my best friends from high school had a baby about a month before I had mine. She was overweight to begin with and added more as time went on. I talk to her maybe once a week and we spend a lot of time either talking about weight loss or babies. Every time I talked to her she was on a different diet it seemed…first WW, then fat smash, then some diet her cousin made up. And in between all that were talks about fried chicken and cakes. Anyway, I talked to her yesterday and asked her about her latest dieting endeavor, and she says that she decided not to do it because then she would have to prepare a meal everyday. So I suggested that she do like I did and cook everything on one day and just freeze it or refrigerate it. She says, Yeah I could do that but then sometimes I don’t want whatever I cooked. Then she told me she had to go because she was at Pizza Hut and the waitress was there with their pizza.

I give up. I’m not talking to her about it anymore. I hate it when people pretend to diet, and then want to talk to me about it. I need people who are earnest  in their intentions and not just deliberatly sabotaging themselves. I guess it makes me so angry because I thought I had someone in real life who was trying to do the same thing I was. My only other close friend is a size 4 and could care less about working out. Oh well…Vent over!

Breakfast today was Raisin bran w/2 percent milk and I’ve had some fruit today for a snack. I haven’t been walking yet today, because I had to do groceries this morning, but I think I will do Y!F when the baby takes his afternoon nap.

I’ve been thinking about getting one of those undergarments that hold you in, kind of like a corset. It would really improve my self confidence I think. Feeling self confident is one of the things that help me stay on track.  These are the ones I’m looking at.

As I’ve said before, I will only buy clothes from the consignment shop until I reach a size 8/10 again. Today, I was just browsing and saw a really nice pair of size 14 jeans. My one pair of size 16 jeans were getting loose, so I bought the 14s. I already had a pair of 14s, but they were high waisted and that’s where I have the most bulge, as it were. These new ones were low rise and fit like a dream. I was very happy. I tried on a another pair of size 14s that I could barely pull all the way up back in March and I was able to button them, though they were a little snug, but I was surprised I was able to get them on at all. So yay! I hope I am back in those size 10s soon. I am packing away the size 16s tonight.

Hurry up and get here already! I am crabby, bloated, and craving tons of chocolate. DH and I had  a fight yesterday and I rushed straight for the subway to get 3 chocolate chip cookies. Surprisingly, I only ate 2 of them, but in the old days (what, 3 months ago?) I would’ve eaten them all plus a footlong sub. Emotional eating, thy name is LeedaRenee. Anyway, they didn’t even taste as good and I’m not perfect, but that is something that I want to avoid next time. Here are a list of things I can do next time instead of eating when I get upset:

1. read a book

2. play a video game

3. Drink a cup of tea

4. Eat a bunch of veggies

I started off the day with a 30 minute walk in the park, I wanted to go longer, but the baby starting getting upset. He’s got this new thing where he kind of says “Mama” but he whines it like “MaaaaaaMaaaaa” I swear he did that the whole walk. I am about to do Y!F for 30 minutes and then some yard work. And definitely some housework!

I’m trying not to get discouraged, because, since I do weigh myself everyday, I know that around TOM that I bloat up like a balloon and the scale is very effective in reflecting that. I just have to wait it out until the witch is gone, with lots of water and veggies for comfort. The truth is that I get the major munchies right before AF arrives, and luckily there’s nothing bad here to eat. I’ve been eating a lot of watermelon and cantaloupe when the sweet cravings hit.

Exercise yesterday was great. I did 30 minutes of Y!F focusing on lower body strenth, then I took a 30 minute walk. I have got to start going either later or earlier than the time I usually go to the walking track. It gets so hot now, it’s oppressive. Anyway, my legs are nice and achy right now. Today’s workout: Y!F with upper body, 45 minutes. It looks like it will be raining all day, so probably no walk for us. Also, baby was a doc’s appointment today and I have a lot of housework to do.

I wont post my whole menu today, that’s starting to get a little tedious, but this morning I had a low carb tuna sandwich, some cashews and a bit of cantaloupe. I still think I can make my goal by the 4th. I CAN DO IT!!

It went well, despite the presence of many bad to eat things (ice cream, and cake , and cookies…Oh my!). There was the general food pushing as usual, but I stuck to my guns. I did have one of those 100 calories packs of cookies, which I don’t buy anymore, because I have been known to eat the whole box in one sitting. And I accidentally drank a regular spirte, because I thought it was a diet one But otherwise, I did ok. One the way back today, I stopped at a restaurant I worked at way back when and had my favorite meal, which isn’t loaded with bad things. My inlaws actually have a walking track down the street from where they live, but unfortunately it is not paved, and I didnt’ want to ruin my stroller, so I just pushed the baby in the swing. I did do some situps and other strength exercises in my room at night after baby went to bed. I plan to do a workout today when we get settled back home.

Wednesday:

B: sandwich (turkey, wheat bread, tomatoe, slice of cheese, little mayo), banana

S: cantaloupe

L: chicken leg (rotisserie), romaine salad w/whole tomatoe slices, moderate amt of thousand island dressing

D: lots of fruit

Thursday:

B: Sandwich (same as the day before)

L: Pollo de la Rey (grilled chicken breast, topped with diced tomatoes, green onions, cheddar cheese, peppers on a bed of rice, with mexican corn) So good!!

D: Probably baked fish

So glad to be back. I hate to weigh myself in the morning, I know that I am retaining water, because AF is not far away. I will drink a lot of water tonight and maybe that will help. I haven’t weighed myself in 2 days and it feels so weird.

This will be a big test for me. I’m going out of town to visit my in laws, or rather to let them see the baby. MIL is a big food pusher, and a great cook…really bad combo lol. I know there is a walking track near their house, so I will have to make use of that while I am there. I’m also going to take a pair of my dumbbells along. As long as I stick to veggies, fruits, whole grains, lean meats, I should be ok. Unfortunately, that can be in short supply at their house sometimes.

I weighed myself today and I was at 204.5. I really couldn’t’ believe it.  If I lose 1 pound a week, I will make my Onederland goal. Yay! I CAN DO IT!!

I’m ending tonight with 20 minutes of yoga and 10 minutes of strength training (core body).

I started the day off with a few errands, followed by a 30 minute walk. I hate it when people try to bother you while walking. I can understand stopping to talk to you for just a bit, saying hello, but I come to the park to think and primarily to exercise. Anyway, I know they dont mean any harm. I ate a late breakfast, so we will call it brunch.

Brunch:  chicken breast and cantaloupe

Snack: sunflower seeds

Lunch: turkey sub topped with lots of veggies, cheese

Snack: small bowl of raisin bran w/ 2 percent milk

Dinner: chicken breast, cauliflower, cantaloupe

I could kick myself, didn’t have one veggie or fruit today. I didn’t do bad with portions, but just didnt eat what I needed to.

B: steak sandwhich (lean sirloin steak, wheat roll, cheese)

S: handful of sunflower seeds

L: big chicken breast

D: I hate to admit it but I had 2 chocolate chip cookies. It was bad but I normally would’ve had 3 cookies and then a footlong sub, so I think this is not so bad in comparison, though I dont need to make a habit of it. Finishing off the day with a cup of tea

excercise: 30 minute walk

I had a good time today. 30 minute walk in the park, 15 minutes on arms with Y!F. I’m about to play a little DDR, and I will be good and tired tonight. DH is going to go walking with us tomorrow, so I am really looking forward to exercising with him.