Back to basics

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I saw my endocrinologist today and although my blood sugar number is much improved my weight is somewhat dis-improved. So.

Every day. One rule, five goals.

Rule: No Internet until after 4:30pm and then only if I’ve done my exercises and taken my walks.

Goals

1) Get as low a score as possible on Behavior Modification.

See the “Behavior Mod” page for a description. I’m drinking 3/4 cup of water before each meal and snack.

2) Specific food goals:

Drink only one 12-ounce Coca-Cola. No wine with dinner. Have a piece of fruit with breakfast. If I have tea with my mid-morning snack or before bed, have only a small (5-6 ounce) cup rather than a large mug.

3) Every day except Sunday do a set of exercises.

4) Two 6-minutes walks every day.

5) Check in with 3 Fat Chicks. After 4:30pm of course.

That’s it.

Sigh

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That’s all. Nothing else to say.

Time Out

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Well, I didn’t check in yesterday and I’m still feeling blah today. I’m going to take the rest of today and all day Sunday off from fretting over all this.

I’ll see you all on Monday. Enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Thrashing badly

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Yesterday was a pretty good day but today I’m totally uninterested in Behavior Mod, food restrictions, exercise, and walking. I’ve also decided to change how I’m reporting in - I actually logged in to do my Final Score and Goal Post entries last night and was just too tired to mess with them. So here’s what I’m doing from now on.

My goals are the same every day so I’ve put them into a page cleverly called “Daily Goals”. Sometime during each day I’ll check in at 3 Fat Chicks and do a Final Score page that details how well I met those goals the previous day - no more doing this last thing before bed.

I think these changes make sense but I also know I’m kind of rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic. I’m obsessing over the reporting stuff and letting the actual doing slide. In fact, I suspect I’m obsessing over the reporting stuff because I’m letting the actual doing slide. The one thing I’m absolutely clinging to is my commitment to check in here every day even when I’ve totally fallen by the wayside. That means I can’t just let everything go and imagine some airy-fairy future where I’ll start taking care of myself; instead I have to face up every day to the fact that I’m not doing what I said I wanted to.

I’m going to do two very small things this afternoon that should help: boil some eggs for breakfast and make iced tea. Keep your fingers crossed these are the start of my getting back on track.

Saturday night

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Not a great day. I started out well but fell by the wayside with Behavior Mod although I’ve stopped eating too much junk.

Tomorrow is my husband’s birthday so I’m taking a break from the computer. I’ll check back in on Monday.

Bad day

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Well, I swore I’d post even when I’d fallen by the wayside and that’s definitely me today. Sigh.

We’ve got big thunderstorms rolling through so I’m going to shut down the computer. I’ll be back tomorrow.

Half phooey, half hysterical joy

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The phooey is that I stayed up until about 2am finishing something I was writing for my other life. When I walked into the kitchen before going to bed I realized I’d forgotten to do the dinner dishes! I did them since my husband had to get up super early and I hated to think of him trying to fix breakfast with a sink full of dirty dishes. By the time I got done I was so tired I lost my head and had a Coke. At 2 in the morning, for crying out loud!

I read somewhere that AA teaches alcoholics to “HALT”: Watch out when you get Hungry, Angry, Lonely, or TIred. I guess at least the Tired part is a good warning for me with regard to food, too.

The hysterical joy is that what I was working on got major kudos in my little world. I’ve been jumping up and down all morning and laughing. I’ve also been spending my time responding to those who want to discuss what I wrote which means, yup, it’s almost noon and I haven’t eaten breakfast OR mid-morning snack and I haven’t exercised.

Obviously I’m not going to have a perfect behavior mod day today but I will get back on track beginning with lunch (in 15 minutes); I will exercise; I will walk; and I will not let this happen again tomorrow.

I’m so dead for sleep that I may not get around to responding to comments made here. I suspect I’m on the verge of being incoherent anyhow so that might be all for the best. On the other hand, I may be so pumped up I can’t stop writing in which case I’ll just shoot for making some sense.

I hope everyone else is having a better day than I am diet and exercise wise and I wish you all days this good everything else wise.

Well, that didn’t take long

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I’ve already hit my first snag. I had a bad night last night sleeping wise - I have these strings of broken sleep from time to time - so I overslept this morning and woke up just as my window for having breakfast was over. That leaves me three choices:

1) Mark breakfast as missed, eat my small mid-morning snack when that time slot rolls around, and go on from there. I’ve done that before and I’m starving by lunchtime.

2) Eat breakfast as soon as I finish my first cup of tea, count it as breakfast, and mark mid-morning snack as missed. I’ve done that before and while this keeps me from starving by lunchtime, it also means I start the day off knowing I can’t get a perfect score. I can already hear the voice in my head saying, “You’ve already blown it today. Eat however you want and start again tomorrow.”

3) Eat breakfast as soon as I finish my first cup of tea, count it as breakfast, and ignore mid-morning snack. I’m going this route this time and see if I can make another perfect day.

I think this is the choice that closest to the purpose of eating in time slots: not waiting too long to eat in the morning and never getting truly ravenous. If anyone thinks I’m just kidding myself, feel free to say so. Heaven knows I’ve had years and years of practice justifying my bad eating habits to myself so it’s possible I’m just kidding myself. I hope not - and I truly don’t think so - but I’m posting here because I want help with this.