Skinny Girl in a Fat Girl’s Body

This whole “eat better, exercise more” thing that I’m trying to do is definitely getting harder with each day.  I find it extremely difficult to log all the calories I eat and track all of the calories I burn.  I wish I could afford to buy something that would do it for me…

My main problem is at night. I am usually pretty good about eating 1 snack in the afternoon if I really need one. But around dinner time (and even after) I have the urge to just binge. It’s awful! I honestly don’t know what to do about it.

I have been good about going to the gym though.  Yesterday I ran 1.25 again and starting Tuesday I will run 1.5.  HOLY COW, I don’t think I’ve ever ran that far without stopping.  I’m excited!  I also realized yesterday that my birthday is on the first Tuesday that I have to run 2 miles.  What a milestone that will be… I’ll make sure I do it because i don’t want it to ruin my birthday!

Last night I was showing a friend the dress I wore just 2 years ago (size 9/10) to banquet. It was very clear that it was too small for me now but when I stepped into it and couldn’t even get it around my waist, I wanted to cry. I don’t understand what happened in the last 2 years that made me gain so much weight, but it’s sad that it happens so fast.

I’m meeting my friend Caitlin for lunch today at Panera.  I think I’m going to get the you-pick-two with french onion soup, and half of the turkey artichoke sandwich.  I’ve never had the turkey artichoke, so hopefully it’s good.  I believe it had the lowest points for the sandwiches. I suppose I could do salad, but I”ll have to see what kind of mood I’m in.

Today is weigh-in but if I go after I eat I’m guessing it won’t be a good one.  So I might just wait until tomorrow.  Yesterday I weighed in at 175.7 (-0.9/) comeeee on 1 lb!  5.3 lbs gone!  We’ll see!

oh, I recently tried the Healthy Choice All Natural Entree Portabella Spinach Parmesan. It was DELICIOUS. I really enjoyed it and it was only 270 calories! And it filled me up so that’s good. I definitely recommend it!

Portabella Spinach Parmesan

That’s all for now!
Enjoy your Sunday!

Today started off kind of weird.  I woke up late for class and had to run out the door with just a nature valley bar to hold me through a 3 hour lecture.  I did okay with that because I drank a ton of water during that time, but I felt uneasy.  I didn’t feel very hungry but I could tell I needed food because I felt light headed and a little nauseated.

For lunch I went to Subway and got a 6-inch veggie delite sub (everything but tomatoes) on wheat bread with a little bit of ranch dressing.  No chips, and just water.  It was good and I was content.  Not overly full like I usually make myself when I’m hungry, but I wasn’t starving either.

When I came home I distracted myself by cleaning my room and doing the dishes.  Then I was off to another 2 hour lecture.  Afterwards I came home and had 2 wedges of laughing cow cheese and a few crackers (I wish I had counted those crackers… I was watching tv so I guess I could consider that mindless eating…?  I think it was about 4 or 5 though).

Around 6 I got Panera (Chipotle Chicken Sandwhich).  Now on a normal day I wouldn’t consider that bad because I would have gone to the gym and burned off everything I had eaten for breakfast and lunch.  But today I decided I was too tired to go to the gym… so I didn’t.  I made a conscious choice not to go so I don’t hate myself for having an off day, but I do feel a little guilt about the fact that I didn’t get any extra exercise besides walking to class.  I guess the plus side (if there is one) is that I had to walk to go get my food… so that’s better than nothing I suppose.  My real downfall I think was the whole-wheat baguette that comes with the sandwhich! I should have gone with the apple! What was I thinking?? I get too excited about Panera.

Anyway, tomorrow BACK TO THE GYM.  My goal is to run 1.25 miles at 4.5 mph, do abs, weights (since I skipped today), and possibly do some spinning…if there’s time.

Mandy couldn’t come over tonight to watch the biggest loser like we usually do so that’ll also be something for tomorrow night.  Good thing that show is so motivating I always want to work out/eat better after I see what they do!

I’m getting really excited about the furry5k in june.  I hope that I will be ready!  I did find a site today: coolrunning.com with some really good tips and a good training schedule for people who are going from the couch to a 5k! Perfect for me! Yay!

At some point I should really post a photo or two so that I can track my weightloss… hmm possibly this weekend.

Sidenote: I adore How I Met Your Mother.  If you’ve never seen it, watch it.  It’s hysterical and it puts me in a really good mood (it’s up there with Scrubs and Friends for me).

Okay I guess that’s all for now. I am going to start something today however.  I’m going to remind myself each day about something I really like about exercising, eating right or losing weight so that when I’m having an off day (like today) I can remind myself that there are reasons for doing this.

Motivation: I love getting ready in the morning and noticing that my clothes feel looser- makes it all worth it!

Today was a pretty simple day: slept till 10:30, went to the gym at 11, lunch at 12:30, class at 1, home by 2:30 to do basically nothing.

I haven’t had much work to do lately. It’s coming though… I’ll be swamped soon enough.

I wasn’t too good about food today. I did so well until about 5:00. I shouldn’t have waited so long to eat.

BREAKFAST:
• Multigrain Cheerios
• Soy Milk

LUNCH:
• Yogurt
• 90 calorie mini quaker patties

SNACK:
• 1 wedge of laughing cow cheese: 1 pt
• 3 crackers
• small orange
• too many pretzels

DINNER:
• 1 pork chop: 4 pts
• applesauce

I’m not sure what the points are for everything I ate but I’m sure I went over with all those pretzels. I just couldn’t stop! It was awful. Serves me right for keeping the bag on the couch next to me. If I had just grabbed a handful and put it away it would have been fine, or if I had eaten an early dinner it wouldn’t have been an issue. Boredom just makes me want to eat. grrrrr I will beat you mindless eating!

I ran 1.25 miles today. It hasn’t gotten easier to do but I’m hopeful. Especially because next Monday I plan to start running 1.5 miles… I’m hesitant to run every day though because I don’t want to start hating it otherwise I’ll stop doing it. So, for now it has to be every other day.

I’m definitely bored right now so I’m going to go read some blogs to keep myself motivated so I don’t start eating everything in site!

I CAN DO THIS!

… I wish someone would comment so I didn’t feel like I’m writing to myself… even though I probably am 😛

As soon as I am out of school I need to get a dog. The last 4 years have showed me that I can’t live without one and the fact that Missy (my 14 year old Soft Coated Wheaten Terrier) is getting older with each day makes me scared at a the prospect of not having one.

I can’t wait to go to Seattle this summer and be able to volunteer at an animal shelter. It can’t come soon enough. I need to feel like I’m doing my part to help dogs.

It’s Sunday.
I weighed myself on Thursday so I’m not going to weight myself again until Thursday… and then I’ll weight myself again on Sunday and record the weight on Sunday.

It’s really hard to stay on track food-wise while I’m at school. It’s easy to just stop and get something to eat for cheap but it’s also very high in calories.

I’m going to try to follow WW again.

What I’ve Eaten Today:

BREAKFAST:
• 1 Cup Multigrain cheerios: 2 pts.
• 1 Cup Silk Vanilla Soy Milk: 2 pts.

LUNCH:
• Jimmy Johns: #2: 13.5 pts.
• Dannon Yogurt: 2 pts

DINNER:
• Homemade Pizza: more pts than I wish to admit probably

I also went to the gym today but I’m not sure how much I burned. I wish I had a pedometer to make my life easier.

I did the Weight Training program on the elliptical for 34 minutes, and then rode the bike 11 miles for 30 minutes. Afterward I did abs.

I wish I had eaten better today. Tomorrow’s another day though!!

I ran 1.25 miles straight today. I’m super proud of myself!! I really want to be able to run 1.50 by next Saturday so that’s my goal!

I feel good except that every time I work out I have a headache afterwords I don’t know why. I think it’s called an exertion headache. I’ll have to look into it more.

Hello!

Welcome to my 3fatchicks blog

I’m a 21 year old college student who is 5’6″ and weights 174 lbs- (started at 181).  I’ve been overweight for most of my life and my weight has yo-yo-ed the entire time. I want to completely change my thoughts about eating (I love it!!), and my thoughts about exercising (I hate it!!) so that whatever I lose this time, will be permanent. I’ve already lost 7 lbs, so lets hope it sticks!

Let me share with you some of my goals:

Drink More Water
Write in this at least once a week
Keep a food journal
Keep an exercise journal
Pick out what to eat before going to restaurants

Mini Weight Goals:
1- Lose 5% of my weight (9 lbs)
2 – Lose 10% of my weight (18 lbs)
3 – Lose 20 lbs (half way mark) (160 lbs)
4 – Weigh 154 (BMI will be normal not overweight)
5 – Run a 5K (Furry 5K Run 6/9/2009)
6- GOAL- Lose 40 lbs! (140 lbs)

I hope that I can keep up with all of this and continue to lose weight and become healthy! stay tuned!