Wed., Sept 23, 2009
Didn’t make it here for a post yesterday. I just didn’t feel like it.
I’m really struggling with the eating and exercise. Re the exercise, I haven’t even gotten out for dog walks the past 2 days. And the eating… Most of the time with eating, it’s just me being stubborn about changing my habits. But these past few days, it feels like I’m out of control. And that’s not really true. No one’s cramming the food down my throat (but me).
I think part of the eating thing has to do with anxiety or self-doubt. I have a work task I’ve put off for a couple days because I don’t feel confident in my abilities to do it well. I know I can ask for help on it, but I still feel like I should be able to handle this mostly on my own. I was even considering staying home today - started thinking about that last night actually. Not just because of this task, but a general “I need a break” feeling. But I didn’t stay home. I have things to do - that icky thing, this morning, for sure, and also lunch w/ a friend. I’m here and I’ll work.
Last night we saw the movie “Extract”. I liked it. I had water and Mike n Ikes for my snack.
Tonight I will exercise.
I do agree that sometimes when we have other issues in our lives we try to drown them out with food- but they don’t seem to go away even after the food is gone
sorry to hear you’re in a funk. that was me, a couple of months ago. i just couldn’t explain it. it’s like i was just tired of recording everything, counting everything, etc. hope your spirits lift soon.
BTW, i don’t think i have you as a friend on FB so i’m going to send you a friend request.
Poor eating is also a habit, because even though you went way overboard yesterday, hasn’t this been an issue for quite some time?
Just controlling one thing in your life, food, can really help everything else.. including work stress. Hope you get a handle on it!
Oh goodness! Are you beating yourself up over not exercising or eating like you “should” be? Shoula, coulda, woulda… And the task at work? Our brains are fascinating organs. Why do we do the things we do or don’t do? It snowballs from one area to another. It’s crazy and makes sense when we dig deep enough. I dig and dig and drudge stuff up that’s not really there and then play with it, and then eventually toss it aside. LOL But I’m learning! We learn from these times.
I’m NOT exercising right now and I have given up on beating myself up. It’s not doing me any good. That’s why I’m focusing on my project list. I have to boost myself up in a different area so I can have that confidence and successful feelings to carry over in other areas. …but that’s about me. You’re you.
Take it easy. You’re perfect exactly the way you are.
You’re exactly where you’re supposed to be in life–including your abilities. 
You can totally do the project at work–our brains just plug us up with garbage and zap our motivation and confidence. Just say no to garbage! LOL
duh…never mind. i have you on my friend list…why did i think i didn’t?