Sad

Posted April 20, 2009

I did not have a good weekend.  I believe I’ve posted previously that a sibling has been battling lung cancer since his diagnosis in early 2007.  The battle is now coming to an end.  I had been getting updates 2nd hand from my mother and I had a feeling things were worse than she was telling me, so I left a couple phone messages to my SIL last week.  She left a message on Friday and the news was bad, and then phoned on Saturday and it was even worse - not much time left.  And yesterday, there was an emergency and I thought that was the end.  But my brother has been stabilized for now.  I’m very sad.  I have regrets that we were never close, but I’m mostly sad not for myself but for my brother and his wife and kids.  He’ll never get to retire, see his kids marry and have kids of their own or achieve whatever they choose to do with their lives.  I feel horrible for my SIL - she just lost her mother just before Thanksgiving and now this.  Life can be very cruel. 

Not much else to say and I have a webinar to prepare for, so I’ll just post.   

6 Comments so far

  1. moonfairy on April 20th, 2009

    oh, how awful. ((hugs)). i can’t even say i hope things will get better soon b/c it sounds like it’s beyond that point already. i’m sorry. :( i lost my brother to cancer as well.

  2. lindat on April 20th, 2009

    Laura, I am so sorry to hear about your brother. Does he live near you? Can you go see him? It might be good for you to say the things I am sure you want to say…

  3. majestichollyhock on April 20th, 2009

    (((((((((((((((((((Laura)))))))))))))))))))))))
    and more (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))

  4. espencer on April 20th, 2009

    Laura, I’m so sorry. How awful. I can’t even imagine. Can you go see him? Or maybe start planning on being able to go for the funeral - to be there for your SIL and nieces/nephews? That might not sound right, but hopefully you understand my meaning. They will need their Auntie more than ever.
    {{{{{{hugs Laura}}}}}}}}

  5. kelly on April 20th, 2009

    ((((Laura)))) Even if you are not close, it would probably be a good idea to make a visit. You will never regret going, while you might regret not going. I hope you understand what I mean. What a horrible, heartbreaking situation for you SIL and the children. Oh, big big HUGS!

  6. beerab on April 21st, 2009

    I’m sorry to hear about your brother. Do you live nearby so you can go see him? Even if you aren’t close I’m sure he knows how much you love him :)

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