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Went to the gym last night and did only a lower body strength workout.  It was fine, it just didn’t feel like enough exercise.  I know I need to do more exercise, but we got a late start and so bf and I just decided to make it a semi-short session.

Before the gym, I had some bad news from my mother last night.  My brother, who is going through cancer treatement, is in the hospital “for a few days”.  My mother tries not to be the bearer of bad news, so I don’t know if it’s worse than what she’s telling.  I’ll probably have to phone my SIL to find out what’s really going on.  But not today.  It’s my SIL’s b-day today.  Horrible that this is not only her first one without her mother, but her husband is in the hospital. My brother has lung cancer, the small cell fast growing kind, so it’s been a rough road for him and his immediate family.  I’m not very close to my brother, so communications are infrequent and always feel awkward.  And they live out of state, so that makes it more difficult for me.  I know other people keep up relationships just fine even long distance, but for a family that’s not close-knit to begin with, it seems all that more difficult.  Anyway, the thought that my brother can have his life cut short in his 50s and his wife and kids and all of us lose him is just an unbearable thought. 

Had a long offsite meeting this morning with a vendor.  It made me feel like my role in the department is the most boring and unimportant.  Like I do the garbage work and the boss and manager do the interesting projects.  But there is a value to my work I guess by the very fact that no one else would want to do it… 

Tonight is the movie “Knowing” with Nicholas Cage.  I suppose I’ll go, if only to get out of the house for a bit.

That’s about it for today, so I’ll just post and get back to work.