Losing to LIVE…

So you are never going to guess what i did last Saturday… Are you sitting down? I joined the GYM!!!! I know can you believe it? I never thought in a million years that I would be able to join a gym. You may remember a couple of post back I said that I didn’t want to go to my local YMCA because I didn’t think that I could afford it and also because it was a little intimidating. Well I found out that if you are poor enough (which I apparently am) you can get financial aide to pay most of the monthly fee. It’s awesome, my sister and one of our friends qualified as well and now we all are going almost everyday! Right now I am able to walk on the treadmill for about 30 min and then do the bike and some weights after. It’s also not as intimidating as I thought, all different people go to the gym, not just the skinny people. Much to my surprise I actually like going the last couple of days I have even gotten up early to go before work and that is something I would never have done before. So I guess this just shows that you should never say never.

So everyone knows the phrase “can’t live with them, can’t live without them” today I feel like I can’t afford to lose weight and I CAN’T afford not to lose it. Let me explain, this week I lost another 1.5 lbs (WooHoo!!!) I can’t even explain how it feels, I am happy and I feel better. I know that this time is different for me, I am doing this to be a healthy person both physically and emotionally, and I feel like I am really changing this time. That is the pro now the con is that financially this is going to be kind of difficult. Today I put my pants on for work and they fell down around my feet!! While that made me happy it also concerned me. I don’t have a ton of money for new clothes and I don’t want to look like a slob  either. Now I am not going to keep my weight on so that I can keep my clothes that would just be silly. I just wanted to vent a little about the fact that losing weight can cost money and its my own fault for letting it go this long. So for now I am just going to go and get a new belt and hope that can tide me over for a while. I am hoping that in the near future I will just have to buy some new clothes, hopefully a couple of sizes smaller then I have right now.

So this week I lost 5.5 lbs!!! I am really excited about that. Last week I only lost .5 and while that is a step in the right direction I would by lying if I said I wasn’t a little bit discouraged by it. My sister and I are doing Weight Watchers together and so far it has been going really well. She has already lost 20 lbs! and I am right behind her with 17.5! Last night I went out to dinner with my Mom and I did well, I was able to stay in my points and that made me feel good. Its nice to know that you can go out and have a nice dinner and still stay within your plan.

Also, the other night I was on the elliptical for 18 min! That is a new record for me. Last night my Mom and I walked around the mall and tonight we are going to see the marching band that my sister teaches. I think that we are going to walk to the high school from my Moms so that will be about a mile round trip.

I am trying to take things day by day. Today my willpower must be strong because I want to eat just about everything that I see but I haven’t. Maybe its because of willpower but I think it might be because I have to weigh in tomorrow. Either way I guess its good. Well I am going to work out now UGH!!! I went to swiming on Tuesday and for a walk yesterday so this has been a good work out week, even if working out does suck!!!