So I had bought a sensewear last year and LOVED it. I stopped wearing it because I got lazy and well it just went downhill from there. I lost my motivation and lost track of my goals, wait I didn’t lose track of them I just let them go. I tried to renew my subscription however, they do not do the sensewear software anymore and I had to switch to bodymedia.Either way I am motivated and love the fact I will be accountable. This is a super good thing after last night. :S

I binged bad! I had to drop the hubby off at a bar for a platoon bonding/drinking/awards thing and decided since I was alone that night I would buy dinner. BAD IDEA. Not only did I buy a KFC chicken bowl with Mt. Dew, I saw a McDonalds and decided I could have both! WTF was I thinking!?

So last night I ate:

1 Big Mac meal with a Pibb

1KFC chicken bowl with Mt. Dew

DUDE.. I have to think that is AT LEAST 4000 cals. So I guess without that I would not have been motivated enough to get my butt up and spend the money for a subscription to the program. I look at myself in the mirror and honestly think how did I get here? Why did I get here? I know what it takes to lose the weight and I know what *I* need to do to do it. I think this time it’s different because my hubs isn’t deployed and can be here to say I’m lazy lets buy dinner. I don’t think that will happen this time. I told him about my binge and he said well I guess I need to be more supportive and not eat out in front of you anymore. Also he’s like let’s work out together which for me is a huge deal because he gets up at 5:30AM to go to PT for an hour and a half and then works until about 5 then he would go to the gym with me? Wow that’s very nice of him. I am very happy of that.

HAHA Poor guy went to water aerobics with me for the first time because I was nervous and there were no guys just a bunch of older ladies! I love him.

Today is a new day and I am motivated to do the best I can! WHOO HOO! Plus I am going back home on Dec. 3 so I want to look a little lighter then!