Alright so now I have an elevated cholesterol level. SUCK. I’m scared, like pretty much terrified. I wanted to start TTC which was only the reason I went in. BAH.. So it’s off to a nutrition class for me and more working out. I’m thinking about doing two a days again. I was doing them with Pauk and it was making me drop fat and weight. I don’t even care about weight numbers. I want this fat gone and my cholesterol to lower and my BP to lower as well. I am giong to go to Yoga class on Tuesdays and then water aerobics at night on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Monday’s and Wednesday’s I am going to go to the gym and use their elipticals until I can run again. Plus I am going to be going to Physical Therapy on my ankle 3 times a week. I had better have a lower blood pressure.

I have integrated a ton of veggies and fruits. I love me some apple and a little bit of peanut butter. I can get my BP down to 134/95, but I haven’t seen anything below that. I will check in the morning tomorrow. HOPEFULLY it will be down to the 134 again. I am stepping on the scale to just see if my weight is showing any movement and I high 194 today in the morning which is hilarious because just Tuesday at the docs I was 200.2, but I had already eaten and drank a ton of water. It’s alright I am just not wanting to be put on BP meds.

There are these ladies at Water Aerobics that are just hilarious! They are older and german. They talk the whole time and just treat you like their your mom. All sorts of hunny sweetheart and darling. It does make me miss my mom though. Most of the time they go off an do their own thing and don’t listen to the instructor. Oh man to be old and defiant. I hope I am like that. Although I would prefer to be thin and running.

HRM.. Not sure how I feel about that since I have seen 196 and maybe 195, but I didn’t believe that. Maybe water retention. Probably not. I’m going to keep doing what I am doing, but it’s a little discouraging. Hubs and I did go out to eat a lot last paycheck and we are stopping that now. I have been checking my BP and it’s been going down.

I made some delicious chili last night and cannot wait to try it. I am really trying to cut down on the salt and up my exercise. We bought groceries yesterday and I realized that usually will be cooking two meals, one for him and one for me on nights that he wants hamburger helper. I suppose I will just cook healthy meals the night before so I have left overs. Problem solved. I am off to have some chili and hopefully be able to only have a little!

So. Bad news. My hubs and I were going to start TTC in January, but a recent trip to the doctor puts that in a little bit of a bind. The doctor said that until we get the high blood pressure under control that can’t happen. I have never had high blood pressure and now I’m a little freaked out to be told I have it when I am only 22. I am starting to lose weight again, but I don’t get it. I was 225 and my blood pressure was normal. Now that I am starting to get healthy and be smart about what I eat my body decides that this is the time it needs to get HBP! Gah I’m pissed

However I have started jumping on the mini-tramp during commercials when I am watching TV. I am adding just a little walk to every time I take Kota out. I made an appt. with the physical therapist for my ankle. After a couple sessions I think I could start doing the C25K again and hopefully get my BP under control and I won’t have to go onto medications. The hubs isn’t being very supportive in the HBP area I think because he is upset that we cannot try as soon as we hoped! I was hoping to drop a good 25lbs before January in the hopes that I would be able to ovulate on my own with less weight.

So lets see what health problems I have now

• Aortic Bicuspid Valve (born with)
• PCOS
• High Blood Pressure.

SUCKAGE… Now all I can do is get as fit as I can and get as happy as can be.

So in my course to get fit this time my Min Pin feels left out. lol I understand it because before we would walk to my in-laws and then walk home and she LOVED it. Now that I have moved to Colorado from Minnesota we cannot do that and most of the time I just don’t take her with because I don’t want her to get too cold. So instead last night the hubs and I took her out on a walk and she loved it. She came home completely exhausted! I am definitely going to be taking her on days that aren’t too cold.

I ate within my calories yesterday and we went on a long walk, but I must not have been working so hard because my calories burned in that hour was only 334. Which is awesome and more than I would sitting on my butt however, I am used to burning a ton while I do C25K. I made an appointment for a physical to get a referral for physical therapy for my ankle so I can strengthen it and start running again. I really miss it and the results it gave me. It was like going to drop the stress off at the treadmill and leaving it there never to be picked up again. Exercise has always been that for me. I’m a little nervous to walk by myself because last night someone’s car was stolen from our apt. building. We picked this place because I thought it was in the safest area of town. I know I’m a big wuss, but I think we might be moving on post. I know it’s not like there is NO crime on post, but I wanted to move on anyways and finally the hubs agrees.

So tonight I am making a stir-fry recipe for dinner that I got out of a weight watchers book that I thought would be delicious! I am not putting pork in, but chicken because I like chicken more than a pork tenderloin. I never was much for red meat. I am a little nervous as I have never used a Wok and have never made a true stir-fry. I am drinking a ton of water.

So I had bought a sensewear last year and LOVED it. I stopped wearing it because I got lazy and well it just went downhill from there. I lost my motivation and lost track of my goals, wait I didn’t lose track of them I just let them go. I tried to renew my subscription however, they do not do the sensewear software anymore and I had to switch to bodymedia.Either way I am motivated and love the fact I will be accountable. This is a super good thing after last night. :S

I binged bad! I had to drop the hubby off at a bar for a platoon bonding/drinking/awards thing and decided since I was alone that night I would buy dinner. BAD IDEA. Not only did I buy a KFC chicken bowl with Mt. Dew, I saw a McDonalds and decided I could have both! WTF was I thinking!?

So last night I ate:

1 Big Mac meal with a Pibb

1KFC chicken bowl with Mt. Dew

DUDE.. I have to think that is AT LEAST 4000 cals. So I guess without that I would not have been motivated enough to get my butt up and spend the money for a subscription to the program. I look at myself in the mirror and honestly think how did I get here? Why did I get here? I know what it takes to lose the weight and I know what *I* need to do to do it. I think this time it’s different because my hubs isn’t deployed and can be here to say I’m lazy lets buy dinner. I don’t think that will happen this time. I told him about my binge and he said well I guess I need to be more supportive and not eat out in front of you anymore. Also he’s like let’s work out together which for me is a huge deal because he gets up at 5:30AM to go to PT for an hour and a half and then works until about 5 then he would go to the gym with me? Wow that’s very nice of him. I am very happy of that.

HAHA Poor guy went to water aerobics with me for the first time because I was nervous and there were no guys just a bunch of older ladies! I love him.

Today is a new day and I am motivated to do the best I can! WHOO HOO! Plus I am going back home on Dec. 3 so I want to look a little lighter then!

I am super excited to get back to dropping weight. I’m sad that my other posts were deleted, but thanks to Suzanne I have my username back and my blog!

So I am a little upset over the fact that I drank a BUNCH yesterday and my hydration level was still only 38%.. Also my fat percent went up 2%! Wait WHAT?! I think the scale is off because I have dropped lbs since I started changing what I have been eating and doing Water Aerobics and walking. That could be it or maybe I am dropping muscle and gaining fat? I don’t really belive that, but seriously. I will keep on keepin on. I plan on enlisting in two years so that’s where the show me the army comes from. If I don’t lose this weight then when I get my degree I will not be able to enlist. So it’s on like donkey kong.