losing it

just another 3fc blog

love. February 4, 2014

Filed under: Uncategorized — kisskiss @ 7:59 pm

weight: 137

Weight exercise news: I joined a new challenge on 3fc that focuses on changing habits (versus weight). I have some bad habits (diet coke, candy snacking) and I’d like to change them. I also feel like this is a good way to begin exercising more. so far, my weight hasn’t really changed. I hover from 135-139. but I’m hoping eventually to see a 120-something this year. before the summer preferably. before spring break, if I’m being honest.

relationship news: He told me he loved me. I’ve been waiting for him to say it, hoping he would say it, dreading that he didn’t feel the same way. I didn’t have much experience with boys until the last year, and so it was hard for me to judge whether or not he felt the same way. He treated me like he loved me, but he never said those words. when he finally did, it was perfect. it was right. I didn’t even have to think about it. I said it right back because I love him. despite our many differences, I love him. I didn’t have to think about it, saying it came so naturally. almost a year ago I had a very bad experience with that word. Someone told it to me and I couldn’t respond in like. at first, i thought it was because I was scared. But now with time and reflection and with this experience at love, I understand my hesitation last year was because I knew I didn’t feel the same. This time, things are so different. It’s terrifying. and beautiful.