losing it

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New Day November 18, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — kisskiss @ 8:19 am

weight: 137.8

Geeze, I was so contemplative and sad in my last post. I really had to take a step back and sort of examine where my life path was going. Right after I posted my blog, I went and did my usual round ups of of reading other people’s blogs, and one in particular stuck out. Riestrella (http://hippotohot.blogspot.com/) wrote about making an “impossible list”–a list of things you want to strive for, and add to. So I sat down and wrote mine out. Some are copied from hers, because she has some pretty awesome things she wants to do.

I spent the weekend with my boyfriend. We had a great time together, I really am falling in love with him. We ate terrible food, and had a music festival in his room, and watched Perks of Being a Wallflower. One line in that movie stuck out to me (and he actually told me it’s his fave line) :

“We accept the love we think we deserve”

Perfect. I do deserve to be happy. I deserve to be in a good relationship, where we laugh and cry and are silly together. I shouldn’t be afraid of this feeling. So, I am going to try my hardest to let this feeling take me, even though it has the potential to break me. Because, isn’t that what makes it so beautiful?

I also reconnected with some old friends, and we made plans to hang out over the weekend. I am going to open my life again. Life isn’t just about eating healthy and counting calories and exercising. It’s about spending time with the people you love doing the things you love. Hokey right? But, it’s so true.

Here’s my impossible list:


· Fall head over heels in love and have that person feel the same way.

· Move to a nicer area and buy a house

· Treat my mom out to a beautiful day (spa, new clothes, dinner, etc)

· Make more NEW friends via different outlets other than work and current friends

· Take an actual vacation

· Finish my credential

· Work somewhere that I love (teaching).

· Get the Emily Dickinson tattoo I’ve been wanting on my back (middle, down spine)

· Leave a $100+ tip for someone who deserves it

· Do something charitable, where I am able to see the results of my donation/work.


· Reach goal weight of 125-135 (tbd)

· Run a Marathon

· Join some type of class activity (ie Crossfit, Yoga, Zumba)

· Be able to do 10 manly push ups

· Run at least 3 miles somewhere beautiful


· Visit family in Mexico.

· Go back the same route as my Road Trip 3 years ago.

· Visit Ireland.

· Go to China.


· Finish writing my book on my online adventures. Lol.

· Transfer all my journals online.

· Create a scrapbook of memories using pictures and memorabilia I’ve collected.


· Learn how to dance (learn a cool piece of choreography)

· Learn how to hold myself in a fight

· Learn another language (sign language? )

· Learn how to play a mean game of poker


· See the sharks (in a cage!)

· Ride a horse somewhere in the open (beach, open land)

· Go to Bridge to Nowhere and bungee jump

· Go sky diving

· Shoot a bow and arrow

· Climb the trails of the ancient dwellings at Mesa National Park in Colorado


· Learn to whistle.

· Learn a rap song

· Get up and karaoke

· Dance on top of a bar


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