Halloween October 31, 2013
ahhhhhhh so close to the 130s. I can’t believe I am officially almost at my new goal of 135. Very happy. I don’t have Halloween plans, but I dressed up a couple of weeks ago for a party that I went to. It was super fun being able to actually wear a cute outfit (size small!). Today, I’m probably just going to take my nephew out trick or treating.
I was supposed to run a 10k last Sunday, but I hurt my back on Friday so I had to cancel. I’m very upset that I have such a weak back. I run, I hike, I do cardio. And yet, getting out of bed I pulled a muscle. I’ve been out of commission all week. I’m getting better, but probably won’t be 100% until 1-2 more weeks. It sucks, because I had planned to start a new gym/classes on November 1. I really want to get to 135 before the end of the year. Hell, before December 1st would be awesome too. I want to be able to go into the DMV and write in the new final weight of 130something and take a new pic at Goal. Hopefully my back heals fast.
In other news, I’ve spent all week thinking about my guy. On Sunday, he stayed up late working and when he came to bed, he accidently woke me up. It wasn’t a big deal, but he started stroking my arm to get me to fall asleep (I make him stroke my arm when we are watching movies, it’s relaxing to me). It was SO SWEET. I’m not ready to tell him the L word. It’s so terrifying! I don’t know how people do it. Fear of rejection. Or even, fear of being in love. Fear of needing someone. Fear of liking someone that much. Ugh.