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then and now May 18, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — kisskiss @ 1:44 pm

weight 166.5

My mom asked me how much I weighed, and I was proud to tell her I was 166. She’s been telling me recently that I look great, but that may be it’s time for me to call it goal. May be it’s a latina culture thing? I have hips and thighs, but my upper half is fairly thin. body wise, I look pretty good. (even if I am still overweight). anyway, it made me think of something that I wanted to tell her, but I knew it would hurt her feelings.

when I was in about 8th grade, my mom took us to the doctor for our regular checkups. I remember weighing in at a whopping 168 pounds (I was about 5′3). My mom kept repeating “are you sure that’s right? She can’t be that big”. I know she didn’t mean to be cruel. She herself was obese at about 230 and 5′2, and she feared I would get that way (which I did). But, I remember feeling so hurt and so ugly. The next day she put me on a diet that lasted about two weeks and in which I dropped 10 lbs (it was a tooooo low calorie unhealthy diet).

I now weigh the same as I did back then (although I’m about 2 inches taller). What’s the difference? Do I look different than I did back then? Is it because I’ve been so overweight/obese for the last 10 years that no one can see a thinner me?

in other news, I went hiking today. Have been going every weekend, and it makes me feel BOSS. lol. I’m not stopping yet!

 

160s May 13, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — kisskiss @ 8:25 am

weight: 168.2 woot woot!!

Weight is down! I finished 30 day shred, and I might post those pics online. I’m just not sure I want to , because I don’t see a difference between Day 1 and Day 30.  I took about 40 days to do the 30 ds, and I lost 7.8 lbs in the process and went down one pant size (size 8/10)

I’ved ecided to try another round of 30 days shred starting today. The only difference is I am using heavier weights, and I will also take my waist measurement.  May be I just need to keep doing this for a bit before I see the difference. Plus, it’s an easy way for me to do weights since I don’t do them at the gym. Happy Monday everyone!

 

Vegas! May 8, 2013

Filed under: Uncategorized — kisskiss @ 9:58 am

weight: 170.8

argh, weight is still the same.

30 day shred: Day 27. I’m almost done. I’ve lost 7 lbs so far, which I don’t feel is a lot. But, I feel like my tummy is flatter and my arms less jiggly…and this could all be mental as I didn’t measure myself :(

Boys: I’ve been on a few more dates a few guys. Very nice boys, but chemistry is a little off with both of them. They both know we are just dating and seeing where it goes (I’m no player or cheater! LOL).

for now I’m pretty happy getting some dating experience. It’s fun. Flirting and joking and learning about someone else is something that I’m not used to, but I like it.

I went to Vegas and had a great time!!! I shopped, ate, and clubbed. I had so much fun with my girls :)

I went in April of 2011 last year, and felt great at 260(after having lost 40 lbs). I felt even better at 170. Here is an update. I love dressing up. I never thought I would wear mini skirts, but that’s what I gravitate toward when I go out to a club. My favorite part about my after picture is….my COLLARBONES!! they’re so clear and pronounced! I love them. I’ll randomly touch my neck during the day in awe. It’s weird.

1st/3rd  pic: April 2011 at 260 pounds. Size 18 pants and a 2x jacket. The dress is 18W in third pic.

2nd/4th pic: May 2012 at 170pounds. Size 10 skirts, and a size 10 bodysuit.