thin girl in a fat girl suit - fighting to get out

Wednesday after the Weigh in

OK so I lost 2.8 today- without a weigh in last week bringing my 3 week total to 7.7lbs WOO HOO. My goal this week is just to keep drinking the water and getting abck on the treadmill. I can do this. We talked about Thanksgiving today and do you know that even THINKING about everything I eat- I would have 50 points at that 1 meal. Honestly - I am ok with that- I am going to make dinner so I am going to use lower fat and lots of veggies- but I am going to enjoy the day and maybe workout in the morning and at night- I am going to modify for that day because I need to be able to live within my lifestyle if I am ever goign to get healthy again. At our meeting today the same thing popped into my head that did at the last one- sharing things that work is good…it helps…however I have to do what works for me- I have to know that some things work for others and they will nto work for me. I am getting there… I hope everyone has a great Wednesday and I will tlak to you again on Monday probably that seems to be working for me…..check in after the weekend and efter weigh- ins keeps me on my toes.

Hello world!

Today is Week 2 day 3 of WW.  On Wednesday I lost 4.4lbs. I am worried it is temporary. It was always temporary before.  I was thin, 15 yrs ago. I was anorexic once, I was different.  Now I am almost 40 over 200lbs and different.  I have to do this, I want to be 40 and fit, I want to wear skinny jeans and flats like I did in the 80’s, I don’t want my kid to have the fat mommy at school. I just want to live again.