Eat dirt, UrthWerm.

Why hello there, you look rather familiar. Have we met before? Perhaps about 8 months ago when I was determined to blog my weight loss journey? Ah, yes, that must be it. What a tragedy it is when we let life & other pressing matters stall all our perfectly laid plans. Alas, I have returned to continue logging my progress. I’ve still been slowly losing weight & improving my overall health & fitness. Here, let’s play catch up for a few minutes. I still have a small journey ahead of me. I can see my goal coming up on the horizon; way, way ,way off in the distance– but still, there it is! I’m ready to seize the day, live life to the fullest, conquer the world.

Starting Weight: 220;  Current Weight: 150.4;  Goal Weight: 120;  Lbs Lost: 69.6;  Lbs Left: 30.4

Okay, now here comes confession time. I’ve been… eating dairy!! *Insert shock, awe, & outrage here* And what’s worse is, I’ve been eating it regularly! Pizza, macaroni, ice cream!! Now, before you start making plans for the intervention, let me just say that I’m planning to stop. Really– I am! I’m just… doing so at my own pace? Hahaha… *shifty eyes* Alright, I admit it. Tomorrow is Superbowl Sunday and some friends and family of mine are ordering pizza. It’s unavoidable! I figure if I’m going to be exposed to it anyways, I might as well have it in small proportions. I’m staying within my calorie limits, and not getting carried away. Around 1300 a day right now as my weight loss has slowed down dramatically. I’m hoping that that paired with some much needed exercise hours will get me to goal! Cross your fingers.

So I retrieved several older pictures from my mother’s dropshots account. It’s nice to have all those before, and now growing after pictures. I keep them in my own dropshots account which I’ll have up for viewing later on in my journey. =] Anyways, I compiled a little collage of then and now for some quick comparison. I’ve lost over 50 lbs and grown a 1/4 of an inch; shrinking inwards and growing upwards as someone commented. I’m pretty happy with the results, but it doesn’t feel like I’ve changed all so drastically. I’m hoping the next 40 lbs I have to lose will make the most difference. I really don’t want to be flabby when I reach my target weight. Well, here are the pics. Enjoy.

Today’s Weigh In: 169.6 lbs

lbs Lost: 50.4

With a BMI of 29.8, I am officially no longer obese. I could, quite seriously, jump and scream for joy. Instead I’ll spend this time in quiet reflection.. and glee. I’ve requested my mother and grandmother send me some pictures from last year, when I was at my highest weight. I’d like them for comparison, so I can really see if I’ve changed at all. To be honest, I’m ecstatic to have my weight so low. Complete bliss would be the only way to describe my feelings of elation at no longer being “obese” or even “morbidly obese”. But– I feel like I haven’t changed that much. Sometimes I look in the mirror, and all I see is the same person staring back. I’m hoping a photo montage will help boost my self esteem. Guess we’ll just wait and see!

So, yesterday I started exercising for the first time in forever. Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred kicked my ass again and again. I hurt.. so bad. I also went walking for a mile right after that video. I’m glad I did it, but my quads are crying “why, why, oh god why.. ?” I’m challenging myself to go walking several times a week– once a day is my ultimate goal but I’m not going to overcommit before I know what I can handle.

Activity:

I’ll update later tonight with whatever I ended up doing.

Today’s Weigh In: 170.6 lbs

So I have been discouraged the past couple days over my weight. I was beginning to feel like I was reaching, or had reached a plateau. Having expressed such to Enygirl, who maintains the challenge thread I participate in, I then felt very foolish at her reply.  Apparently I had lost 2.4 lbs that week! My goal is 1.3 lbs per week, which should help me meet my ultimate goal for this year. Feeling tremendously silly, I wrote back giving my thanks for her perspective. I believe I felt the way I did because of the recent fluctuations I’ve been experiencing with my weight. It would drop down to 170, then jump back up a pound or two. That really disorientated me, and I think threw me off my game. My weight doesn’t usually fluctuate so wildly, which brings me to my current state of misery: TOM is here. Yay! Cramps, cravings, and other fun additions. I’ve only splurged just this once, and that was at the insistence of my GF who is also experiencing the unwanted visitation of Auntie Flo. We bought ice cream: chocolate obsession. Now now, I know what you’re thinking! Ice cream? But– it’s not even made out of dairy! It’s like, coconut milk, or soy or something! & I really am trying to stay away from soy, but they were on sale. ^_^ Well, anyways. Besides that I’m making a vow not to indulge in anything else I know I shouldn’t have (for the sake of my health and wallet). On a better note, I’ve started off my crankiest, laziest time of the month with some well needed workout (and I do mean well needed)! I haven’t been exercising practically at all lately. But all that’s about to change! I’m shifting my focus from merely “weight loss” to “muscle gain”. I’m not just looking to slim down, but tone up– i’m in desperate shape.

Activity:

15 min stretching

15 min dancing wildly to my fave tunes

05 min jump roping

Oh God, please pinch me so I know I’m dreaming. The last few days I’ve been around 173 lbs, and all of a sudden today I step on the scale to a 170.6 — really? Come on! I wish. This is just another way for my body to toy with me and laugh when my weight skyrockets back up tomorrow. But still, I’ll foolishly play into it’s games. I’ll get excited and run out to tell my GF. I’ll post it in my blog and update my weight ticker. That’s how badly I want it. I’m almost out of the 170’s, 169 lbs is beckoning to me, taunting me. Out of touch, out of reach, just beyond fingertips. For it, in pain, myself I twist.. but I just can’t get a grip. Here’s hoping tomorrow brings even better news: that today’s weigh-in was ligit.

Greetings, I am the UrthWerm.

You may or may not have noticed yet, but this is a blog; my blog to be specific. I’m here to blog about.. *cough* blog-worthy things? I suppose mostly me. I’m ego-centric that way. For some reason I’m the center of the universe, or so it appears. Perhaps everyone’s the center of the universe? Maybe I’m everyone..

Okay, back to the topic at hand: me. No, wait– my blog. That’s right, I was going to talk about my blog and what I shall be blogging. Which I guess is still me. Hah, look at that. I’m everywhere. All-mighty Kimberley; tremble before my multiplicity! In all seriousness though, this blog is about my life and misadventures. More than just scratching the surface, it’s a dirt deep look at what goes on beneath your neatly trimmed hedges and cleanly mown lawn. Welcome to the underground. Weight loss station, healthy living nation! I’ll be a Vegan sensation– and other corny things like that. I hope you enjoy my rantings, ravings, and my death defying cravings. Above all else, don’t feel guilty when you find yourself coming back for seconds.